Tuesday, October 31, 2006
- How Long -
I know! Omg, I know I should be doing my exam now, but I just finished my essay! *cries*
But I just had to blog. I woke up with the best fuzzy, lovable feeling ever, put aside the lack of sleep which made me unable to open my eyes.
I just remembered now that it was probably because of the dream. I don't usually share my dreams, I don't think, but this one was like....hmm...a lot of it was quite irrelevant and locationally displaced. But all I could remembered was somebody hugging me and *I was loved* I know I'm loved by all you wonderful people out there *grins* but this was the kind that makes you feel like dreaming forever. Sigh, how embarrassing to share it with everyone, but I'm half way blogging so I won't quit now. How much more do you want me to reveal?
These days, I'm day-dreaming alot with a lot of what ifs and ultimate decisions that don't get carried out because I either, sheepishly turn back on my word or have another longg hard think about it and change my mind. Sometimes I don't know whether its me I'm scared for or the non-existing other.
My dreams always carry faces, and unfortunately, those faces fade away in the intial moments that I am awake. So I try really hard to grasp those faces, but I can't because they slip right through the gaps of my fingers. But now that I know the feeling I should get *the fuzzy loved feeling* then I know when..
So, feeling privileged? This is as intimately personal as I will get, I think. A lot has been revealed and I feel quite embarrassed, but it's all part of the bloggin experience.
~Listening to: David Tao - How Long
如 果 我 真 的 爱 你 该 有 快 乐 结 局 怪 我 不 懂 珍 惜 把 你 推 向 她
我 来 不 及 改 变 结 局 这 是 我 自 导 自 演 的 悲 剧 。 。 。
But I just had to blog. I woke up with the best fuzzy, lovable feeling ever, put aside the lack of sleep which made me unable to open my eyes.
I just remembered now that it was probably because of the dream. I don't usually share my dreams, I don't think, but this one was like....hmm...a lot of it was quite irrelevant and locationally displaced. But all I could remembered was somebody hugging me and *I was loved* I know I'm loved by all you wonderful people out there *grins* but this was the kind that makes you feel like dreaming forever. Sigh, how embarrassing to share it with everyone, but I'm half way blogging so I won't quit now. How much more do you want me to reveal?
These days, I'm day-dreaming alot with a lot of what ifs and ultimate decisions that don't get carried out because I either, sheepishly turn back on my word or have another longg hard think about it and change my mind. Sometimes I don't know whether its me I'm scared for or the non-existing other.
My dreams always carry faces, and unfortunately, those faces fade away in the intial moments that I am awake. So I try really hard to grasp those faces, but I can't because they slip right through the gaps of my fingers. But now that I know the feeling I should get *the fuzzy loved feeling* then I know when..
So, feeling privileged? This is as intimately personal as I will get, I think. A lot has been revealed and I feel quite embarrassed, but it's all part of the bloggin experience.
~Listening to: David Tao - How Long
如 果 我 真 的 爱 你 该 有 快 乐 结 局 怪 我 不 懂 珍 惜 把 你 推 向 她
我 来 不 及 改 变 结 局 这 是 我 自 导 自 演 的 悲 剧 。 。 。
-{ missing you 10/31/2006 03:36:00 pm }-
- Payback -
Straight from msn:
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
those two kids in that pic are uberr cute
A - la - la - la - n says:
i taught them: "share, please and thankyou" over two weeks
A - la - la - la - n says:
heaps of fun to play with
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
you did? omigosh *gasp*
A - la - la - la - n says:
and they loooooooooooooooooove lion dance
A - la - la - la - n says:
yes!!!
A - la - la - la - n says:
i'm very well-mannered
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
you are?? omigosh *gasp*
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
roflmao
A - la - la - la - n says:
i am so!!!
HA!
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
those two kids in that pic are uberr cute
A - la - la - la - n says:
i taught them: "share, please and thankyou" over two weeks
A - la - la - la - n says:
heaps of fun to play with
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
you did? omigosh *gasp*
A - la - la - la - n says:
and they loooooooooooooooooove lion dance
A - la - la - la - n says:
yes!!!
A - la - la - la - n says:
i'm very well-mannered
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
you are?? omigosh *gasp*
+afferty blues+ no harm done wit a playa lyk u -=- u get wat u giv -=- says:
roflmao
A - la - la - la - n says:
i am so!!!
HA!
-{ missing you 10/31/2006 12:25:00 am }-
Monday, October 30, 2006
- Knock knock -
*opens door*
Door-knocker: Hi, is your mum there at all? I Look over to mum.
Me: Umm, she can't speak english very well. pause
D-k: That's ok, I'm asian too. Duhh pause
D-k: I can't understand english well either. I Look over to mum. pause
D-k: ni hao ma [in a shitty accent] He pokes his head in. I look over to mum.
Me: But she doesn't want to come here! Stares at him.
D-k: OK! Well you have been very kind! Bows with his hands clasped together.
Me: slams the door MUMMMM, DON'T MAKE ME OPEN THE DOOR ANYMORE. I HATE THEMMMMMM !!!
I Hate those fucking Rude door-knockers.
Door-knocker: Hi, is your mum there at all? I Look over to mum.
Me: Umm, she can't speak english very well. pause
D-k: That's ok, I'm asian too. Duhh pause
D-k: I can't understand english well either. I Look over to mum. pause
D-k: ni hao ma [in a shitty accent] He pokes his head in. I look over to mum.
Me: But she doesn't want to come here! Stares at him.
D-k: OK! Well you have been very kind! Bows with his hands clasped together.
Me: slams the door MUMMMM, DON'T MAKE ME OPEN THE DOOR ANYMORE. I HATE THEMMMMMM !!!
I Hate those fucking Rude door-knockers.
-{ missing you 10/30/2006 05:13:00 pm }-
Sunday, October 29, 2006
- Ten dollars in the pocket -
I'm eating dinner now because I previously had a meal that was in between lunch and dinner. Since I'm eating, I might as well blog right? I don't know, I don't want to start my essay. Yet if I leave it right up to the last minute, and I mean literally, I have my stupid mental breakdown, hard breathing, ecetera, ecetera.
'Cos it happened on Friday. The feeling in my chest was very tight and I couldn't breathe properly, I couldn't eat yet I felt like vomiting. My essay was due soon and far from being completed. I sat there, and I'm no cryer when it comes to these things. I Only cried once at the beginning of year 12 'cos Applic scared me to death. So I sat there on that Friday, and thuoght of what I did to myself. Last minute to the minute. So I cried. I cried out every single tear that was cooped up in me because it was just that, that was hurting me. Letting those emotions go really did me a favour. I cried and cried, by myself until I felt better.
Well that thing I was going to tell everyone, I'm not going to tell anymore. Because I don't think it's going to happen. Because of that old man who gave me ten dollars. He had good points, but I made my decision only because I've calmed down now and I shouldn't make such rash decisions like that. I'm not going to tell because I don't want to get yelled at, even though I'm not going through with it.
On the work side of things, today the boss was extra mad. That's why he treated us all for a meal after work. Doesn't make sense does it? Well, SIX people did not turn up for work. And I mean, who could blame him for being mad? I was mad. I had to do more than I had to. Anyways, he was so mad he gave us a pay rise. So thanks to the people who didn't rock up.
A weird thing happened at work today though. There was this guy I thought I knew but I didn't. If you know me well enough, you know that always happens to me. So anyway, he asked me for the ingredients of the soya sauce that is used with the rice rolls. Like, him and his friends didn't even order them and he was asking about the frickin soya sauce. Tried to make a joke but I was too tired and pissed to notice that he said, 'haha, just joking...' I just smiled and said I'll find out.
I found out, but forgot to tell him, cos geez, I don't know, it wasn't my frickin priority.
But I walked back to where he was sitting and I looked over and he said,
"Umm, excuse me.." and pointed to what looked like an empty plate of the rice rolls with left over sauce. (Ha, so he did have some). I was so puzzled and I had this 'wtf' look on my face. And then I realised. God how embarrassing. His friends were laughing, I don't know if it was at me or him. Hopefully him. So I was trying to remember what it was, and he said to me,
"Now don't go making things up." and laughed. Grr! The nerve. So I said,
"Well, I'm not too sure what's in it. It's bought in a bottle, have you tried to go buy it in the shops?" I really didn't know what was in it, even if I went to find out. But meh. That's what rudeness gets ya. But I guess he didn't mean no harm.
Because later when he was about to leave, he asked a colleague of mine to find me, said he had something to say. Hrmms...
Now I'm confused. Well not really, just pretending I don't know what's going on.
Oh well, I didn't see him 'cos she didn't get me. He didn't know my name so she couldn't tell who. Mwahahaha.
Anyone know The Notorious MSG? A stupid group, they sing this song called, Dimsum girl. Oh I'm sooooo ashamed to be a waitress.
[written at 9.10pm on 29-10-06]
~Listening to: the sound of procrastination.
'Cos it happened on Friday. The feeling in my chest was very tight and I couldn't breathe properly, I couldn't eat yet I felt like vomiting. My essay was due soon and far from being completed. I sat there, and I'm no cryer when it comes to these things. I Only cried once at the beginning of year 12 'cos Applic scared me to death. So I sat there on that Friday, and thuoght of what I did to myself. Last minute to the minute. So I cried. I cried out every single tear that was cooped up in me because it was just that, that was hurting me. Letting those emotions go really did me a favour. I cried and cried, by myself until I felt better.
Well that thing I was going to tell everyone, I'm not going to tell anymore. Because I don't think it's going to happen. Because of that old man who gave me ten dollars. He had good points, but I made my decision only because I've calmed down now and I shouldn't make such rash decisions like that. I'm not going to tell because I don't want to get yelled at, even though I'm not going through with it.
On the work side of things, today the boss was extra mad. That's why he treated us all for a meal after work. Doesn't make sense does it? Well, SIX people did not turn up for work. And I mean, who could blame him for being mad? I was mad. I had to do more than I had to. Anyways, he was so mad he gave us a pay rise. So thanks to the people who didn't rock up.
A weird thing happened at work today though. There was this guy I thought I knew but I didn't. If you know me well enough, you know that always happens to me. So anyway, he asked me for the ingredients of the soya sauce that is used with the rice rolls. Like, him and his friends didn't even order them and he was asking about the frickin soya sauce. Tried to make a joke but I was too tired and pissed to notice that he said, 'haha, just joking...' I just smiled and said I'll find out.
I found out, but forgot to tell him, cos geez, I don't know, it wasn't my frickin priority.
But I walked back to where he was sitting and I looked over and he said,
"Umm, excuse me.." and pointed to what looked like an empty plate of the rice rolls with left over sauce. (Ha, so he did have some). I was so puzzled and I had this 'wtf' look on my face. And then I realised. God how embarrassing. His friends were laughing, I don't know if it was at me or him. Hopefully him. So I was trying to remember what it was, and he said to me,
"Now don't go making things up." and laughed. Grr! The nerve. So I said,
"Well, I'm not too sure what's in it. It's bought in a bottle, have you tried to go buy it in the shops?" I really didn't know what was in it, even if I went to find out. But meh. That's what rudeness gets ya. But I guess he didn't mean no harm.
Because later when he was about to leave, he asked a colleague of mine to find me, said he had something to say. Hrmms...
Now I'm confused. Well not really, just pretending I don't know what's going on.
Oh well, I didn't see him 'cos she didn't get me. He didn't know my name so she couldn't tell who. Mwahahaha.
Anyone know The Notorious MSG? A stupid group, they sing this song called, Dimsum girl. Oh I'm sooooo ashamed to be a waitress.
[written at 9.10pm on 29-10-06]
~Listening to: the sound of procrastination.
-{ missing you 10/29/2006 09:09:00 pm }-
Saturday, October 28, 2006
- Teeny-bopper rockstar -
Haiz...somebody knows they're in for it...BIG TIME.
Today was a tiring day at work. Wasn't up for it. Got all these headaches and dizzy spells that landed me in the office for a 2hour break. Until everybody finished up without me. Yay. I guess.
I'm excited that there's only one more 2500word-assignment left. The last one. Ever. For now.
And, there's 27 days left. Lists to write, things to buy, people to see, fun to have had.
I have this ...what's that word... feeling...presumption? Anyway I always thought I was sick, I don't know why, but I think I have this disorder and I'm going to check it out when I come back from Malaysia. I'm going to do a lot of things when I come back.
Meanwhile, I have some big news. But I'll tell my friends first and then I'll post it up. I don't think it's fair to receive it via blog, and I don't want to get these 'comments' from them. I will tell them and face up to what I should face like I should. Oops, sorry it's not that big of a deal. And I'm not in any kind of trouble.
I want to dye my hair. Something un-Lisa. Something before Malaysia.
Today was a tiring day at work. Wasn't up for it. Got all these headaches and dizzy spells that landed me in the office for a 2hour break. Until everybody finished up without me. Yay. I guess.
I'm excited that there's only one more 2500word-assignment left. The last one. Ever. For now.
And, there's 27 days left. Lists to write, things to buy, people to see, fun to have had.
I have this ...what's that word... feeling...presumption? Anyway I always thought I was sick, I don't know why, but I think I have this disorder and I'm going to check it out when I come back from Malaysia. I'm going to do a lot of things when I come back.
Meanwhile, I have some big news. But I'll tell my friends first and then I'll post it up. I don't think it's fair to receive it via blog, and I don't want to get these 'comments' from them. I will tell them and face up to what I should face like I should. Oops, sorry it's not that big of a deal. And I'm not in any kind of trouble.
I want to dye my hair. Something un-Lisa. Something before Malaysia.
Heehee, aww, Rain ish kool. He's even cooLer with his top off >.<
sigh, pity he isn't my friend. I'm lost in the big world of childish games and hypocritism. I'm the hypocrite. I'm the the with the stoopid decision and the stoopid mistake I will about to make. Which means I will change my mind. *nods* =)
~Listening to: David Tao - Beautiful album...
-{ missing you 10/28/2006 08:58:00 pm }-
Friday, October 27, 2006
- quizzes -
I'm not usually a quiz person. But I did some weird quizzes the other day...
The first was 'What drink are you?' and I got crappy Wine..
Then I did 'What song are you?' and I got Sugar we're going down by FALLOUT BOY! Yeah!
Then I did a 'Rocker or Poser' Surprisingly I got rocker, I was sure I was a poser, after 'Live 'n' Local' anyway,
And then last one was this. I'll show you what I am.
The first was 'What drink are you?' and I got crappy Wine..
Then I did 'What song are you?' and I got Sugar we're going down by FALLOUT BOY! Yeah!
Then I did a 'Rocker or Poser' Surprisingly I got rocker, I was sure I was a poser, after 'Live 'n' Local' anyway,
And then last one was this. I'll show you what I am.
You are an emo.
Wow. Never knew that. :D Heehee, hey look! Lost prophets shirt!
Anyways, Live 'n' Local shit coming soon, I cbf uploading the pics.
And a big apology to all you uber cool dudes about today. Hope you understand my insanity has sky rocketed these couple of days. I'll make it up to you ... 17th November Keep it clear!!
~Listening to: Se7en - Crazy
-{ missing you 10/27/2006 08:00:00 pm }-
Thursday, October 26, 2006
- Motivation -
29 days and counting.
-{ missing you 10/26/2006 02:09:00 pm }-
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
- Tragic sins. -
Education sparks the beginning of our life, not the end. Why must I put so much effort into it? Or do I not put in enough. I have no discipline, no motivation and lack of priority management. I stress about my assignments, that in the end I don't think it matters and I waste my time worrying. I don't even know what I'm even doing at uni. It all doesn't make sense. Someone once told me you have to have a goal in life, if you have no goal then don't plan to live long.
I need to find this goal. I need to find out what it is that's most important to me. I know someone who has taken the opportunity to defer and travel next year. *sigh* If only...
The only reason why I'm not deferring is because I want to finish what I started. If I leave it, you'll never see the end of it. I will never see my degree.
This is as sane as I get, because last night I was so delirious from writing god knows what on my essay. I think I started to philosophise and had to take out half the crap I wrote.
This morning I went to the library to start on my other essay in which ended with my coming back home because I just couldn't stay awake in that place. bus-ed back home to what is now. And I should be trying to finish that essay I started last night because it is due tomorrow and 'live n local' is tonight.
Surviving is not the issue. Neither is the lack of sleep. It's the sanity, it's the condition of my health I am worried about.
~Listening to: Initial D soundtrack.
I need to find this goal. I need to find out what it is that's most important to me. I know someone who has taken the opportunity to defer and travel next year. *sigh* If only...
The only reason why I'm not deferring is because I want to finish what I started. If I leave it, you'll never see the end of it. I will never see my degree.
This is as sane as I get, because last night I was so delirious from writing god knows what on my essay. I think I started to philosophise and had to take out half the crap I wrote.
This morning I went to the library to start on my other essay in which ended with my coming back home because I just couldn't stay awake in that place. bus-ed back home to what is now. And I should be trying to finish that essay I started last night because it is due tomorrow and 'live n local' is tonight.
Surviving is not the issue. Neither is the lack of sleep. It's the sanity, it's the condition of my health I am worried about.
~Listening to: Initial D soundtrack.
-{ missing you 10/25/2006 12:28:00 pm }-
Monday, October 23, 2006
- Dove beauty = Corrupt youth -
-{ missing you 10/23/2006 10:37:00 pm }-
- Gootube -
Wahhh! I don't want Gootube.... globalising! Monopolising!
~Listening to: Rain - Sad Tango
p.s For Niss, I bought black side tab shorts from Valleygirl.
~Listening to: Rain - Sad Tango
p.s For Niss, I bought black side tab shorts from Valleygirl.
-{ missing you 10/23/2006 08:36:00 pm }-
- SIA -
-{ missing you 10/23/2006 04:55:00 pm }-
Friday, October 20, 2006
- RoadKill -
Have you seen road kill? Birds, right?
Few months ago I saw a dog on Reid Hwy, and just then, I saw a cat. A cat. Ninth life. Christ, I don't like animals, but I don't like roadkill even more.
On a lighter note, I went for some retail therapy after handing in my one out of four essays. Three more to go. I din't find what I was looking for, so I had to settle for something else. Oh well, life ain't perfect.
Few months ago I saw a dog on Reid Hwy, and just then, I saw a cat. A cat. Ninth life. Christ, I don't like animals, but I don't like roadkill even more.
On a lighter note, I went for some retail therapy after handing in my one out of four essays. Three more to go. I din't find what I was looking for, so I had to settle for something else. Oh well, life ain't perfect.
~Listening to: A*mei - 爱 是 唯 一
火 - 我 们 以 经 来 到 对 的 时 间 对 的 位 置 为 什 么 不 要 做 对 的 事 ？
-{ missing you 10/20/2006 08:09:00 pm }-
Thursday, October 19, 2006
- Working hard. -
Proof of hard work?
Of course not. I'm wasting time taking the picture and uploading it.
-{ missing you 10/19/2006 10:23:00 pm }-
- Frustration at 1pm -
Yeah that was last night. Thank god because I'm less stressed tonight.
My last self.net tute and so ever glad. Did I mention I made a friend from that class? It's so cool! I think this just shows I don't get out much. No. I don't make enough GOOD friends. Mwahahaa. They're hard to find, the ones that stick around. The ones that REMEMBER me.
I just spent the last five minutes trying to take a picture of my hand. Because I have a bruise on it. It's on the front of the hand, I just discovered it. I don't know how it got there. Have I been working so hard that I got a hand bruise? How odd.
Yay! to Noelle who passed her driving test. And yay! to Michelle who got her Scandal cd+dvd. *cough* it has vaness and kangta in it*cough*. Stop with the shame girl. Vaness is coool.
~Listening to: All American Rejects - One More Sad Song
My last self.net tute and so ever glad. Did I mention I made a friend from that class? It's so cool! I think this just shows I don't get out much. No. I don't make enough GOOD friends. Mwahahaa. They're hard to find, the ones that stick around. The ones that REMEMBER me.
I just spent the last five minutes trying to take a picture of my hand. Because I have a bruise on it. It's on the front of the hand, I just discovered it. I don't know how it got there. Have I been working so hard that I got a hand bruise? How odd.
Yay! to Noelle who passed her driving test. And yay! to Michelle who got her Scandal cd+dvd. *cough* it has vaness and kangta in it*cough*. Stop with the shame girl. Vaness is coool.
~Listening to: All American Rejects - One More Sad Song
-{ missing you 10/19/2006 09:40:00 pm }-
- By the moment.. -
I'm dying under all the stupid assignments that I haven't started. I hate it so much, I just want to sit and cry my heart out. But I can't 'cos there's no time for that. I write this because I know I'm not the only one who thinks this way, so this is not a selfish rant. It's a collective one. We're all trying to learn how to cope but we just keep insisting that we're failing. Because we all are. What is lacking is the motivation. Most of us are smart and capable of achieving well under such circumstances, but it's not easy for the rest of us. It's not easy for anyone actually. Nothing ever comes easy. It just gets harder and harder. Wait 'til child birth, unless you're planning to have a c-section. I'm telling myself to cope, but I can't. I can't even breathe properly, and my stupid breathing problems are back again. I just hate feeling this way at the end of each semester. It's starting to be a drag. This was not the consistency that I wanted. I don't like to tell people I'm good because I'm not, and I don't need to bore people about what's going on because everyone else has assignments and exams. Cranky mornings and late nights. My mum isn't coping very well either. She keeps hammering me about my health and that I'm not going to get anything done with late nights, blah blah. She keeps telling me to do things I just can't deal with now, but she doesn't want to wait and I have no choice. It results in everybody angry. And then I'm angry at myself, but that's not going to help me write my essay. I'm crying inside and even I don't know it. What's the point of blogging if it's going to take away fifteen minutes of my time? Yet I do it anyhow. Sometimes you wish things that you shouldn't, you mean it but you don't, because once it's all over you're back to your old self. And that wish was just a stupid pathetic whinge to yourself because you couldn't handle the stress. What if it came true? God help guide me away from those silly thoughts.
-{ missing you 10/19/2006 01:08:00 am }-
Monday, October 16, 2006
- Inspi' -
The title is inspired by Ryeei's recommendation of OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (TRAPNEST).
The post is inspired by Mich's entry .
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew..
The post is inspired by Mich's entry .
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew..
- Pink, Who Knew.
I never thought I'd do this type of thing to my blog. But here it is.
~Listening to: After the Fall - The Fighter
-{ missing you 10/16/2006 02:14:00 pm }-
Friday, October 13, 2006
- Major muddle-up -
Short post: I added a friend on Friendster who I sent a testimonial saying, hi, remember me blah blah. I got a reply which read:
"haha hi lisa! erm yeh, i forgot your name! and everytime i see you esp at mcl, i rmb that i've seen you aorund just dunno where, but i wave to you anyway haha. now i know so its all good ^^" [sic]
Mcl? Beg you pardon? I'm an Arts(Communications studies) student and I do not belong nor do I wish to be at MCL. I feel bad 'cos he's got the wrong person, and I'm not prepared to correct him anytime soon. Gawd that's funny.
"haha hi lisa! erm yeh, i forgot your name! and everytime i see you esp at mcl, i rmb that i've seen you aorund just dunno where, but i wave to you anyway haha. now i know so its all good ^^" [sic]
Mcl? Beg you pardon? I'm an Arts(Communications studies) student and I do not belong nor do I wish to be at MCL. I feel bad 'cos he's got the wrong person, and I'm not prepared to correct him anytime soon. Gawd that's funny.
-{ missing you 10/13/2006 11:08:00 pm }-
- Exit Only -
A note to all those people who receive calls in Alexander Library: just pick up. No one is going to hunt you down and tell you off like they do at Reid. Better yet, walk into the toilets.
But don't walk through the doors that say exit: exit only. Because once the door is closed, the only way out is EXIT ONLY. If you do happen to find yourself walking into one of those doors, then you'll have to walk all the way down the few flights of stairs and come out to the front of the library and then have yourself walk shamefully back into the library, up the stairs again and finally back to where you initially were HOPING no one knew you walked through that door.
~Listening to: nothing
But don't walk through the doors that say exit: exit only. Because once the door is closed, the only way out is EXIT ONLY. If you do happen to find yourself walking into one of those doors, then you'll have to walk all the way down the few flights of stairs and come out to the front of the library and then have yourself walk shamefully back into the library, up the stairs again and finally back to where you initially were HOPING no one knew you walked through that door.
~Listening to: nothing
-{ missing you 10/13/2006 06:00:00 pm }-
Thursday, October 12, 2006
- 9/10...11/10...oopsy daisy's. -
Yay! Blogger works again. I was trying so many times before and it wouldn't work for me. I desparately needed to blog because I didn't want to do my work. And as much as some people have persuaded me to not procrastinate (ahem) I can't help it. Even if there's this sick joke attached to it.
I haven't Friendster browsed in a while, mainly because it always seemed weird. But I came across a few hot guys >.< as shallow as it sounds..hehehe. But I saw this one guy during the browse, and I think I've met him at a party before.He had pro pics taken. *Gasps* he looks so star-like *cries* golly gosh. I wish I could [insert picture here].
I'm such a stupid lil girl. I'm so uninspired to blog really, since all the concentration is funneled into my studies, which is turning out like crap anyways. So nothing good coming outta this blog.
Warning, there may be a lot of complaining in the next couple of weeks.
Oh, I think I'm going to Coca Cola Live 'n' Local. It soo better be good. EoF and Evermore should be the highlight-to-be.
Will be heading to Alexander library tomorrow to get to research done. Woot!
Happy Belated B'day to Andrew for the 10th of October. Sorry I got the wrong day, must admit it was pretty funny.
~Listening to: nothing
I haven't Friendster browsed in a while, mainly because it always seemed weird. But I came across a few hot guys >.< as shallow as it sounds..hehehe. But I saw this one guy during the browse, and I think I've met him at a party before.He had pro pics taken. *Gasps* he looks so star-like *cries* golly gosh. I wish I could [insert picture here].
I'm such a stupid lil girl. I'm so uninspired to blog really, since all the concentration is funneled into my studies, which is turning out like crap anyways. So nothing good coming outta this blog.
Warning, there may be a lot of complaining in the next couple of weeks.
Oh, I think I'm going to Coca Cola Live 'n' Local. It soo better be good. EoF and Evermore should be the highlight-to-be.
Will be heading to Alexander library tomorrow to get to research done. Woot!
Happy Belated B'day to Andrew for the 10th of October. Sorry I got the wrong day, must admit it was pretty funny.
~Listening to: nothing
-{ missing you 10/12/2006 10:56:00 pm }-
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
- I'm with him *points to blog below* -
Maybe a short blog would be nice, 'cos you'd all be wondering why I uploaded that South park video clip.
No I'm not a fan. But we were shown this in class today. Talking about how games like WoW physically embeds the body or not. It's interesting to watch it and not just laugh at their stupidity. It was great to think that it showed both sides of the argument. That it was merely just a game yet, everyone was treating it as if real people were dying. This in correlation with their deteriorating health as they play to gain the highest level. It's disgusting.
Yet, I know some of you will watch it for the mere fun of it. So sorry for ruining your fun. And wth is an 'ar-tard'? LoL.. "............I'm not an ar-tard." That was a funny line.
If you wanna watch the rest of it, just go to YouTube and search it, I lost the link. No, I mean I can't be assed going through my history files and linking it up. Yeah?
~Listening to: YG Family - Oo Ri Neun
No I'm not a fan. But we were shown this in class today. Talking about how games like WoW physically embeds the body or not. It's interesting to watch it and not just laugh at their stupidity. It was great to think that it showed both sides of the argument. That it was merely just a game yet, everyone was treating it as if real people were dying. This in correlation with their deteriorating health as they play to gain the highest level. It's disgusting.
Yet, I know some of you will watch it for the mere fun of it. So sorry for ruining your fun. And wth is an 'ar-tard'? LoL.. "............I'm not an ar-tard." That was a funny line.
If you wanna watch the rest of it, just go to YouTube and search it, I lost the link. No, I mean I can't be assed going through my history files and linking it up. Yeah?
~Listening to: YG Family - Oo Ri Neun
-{ missing you 10/11/2006 09:15:00 pm }-
- Embodiment or disembodiment? -
-{ missing you 10/11/2006 08:56:00 pm }-
Saturday, October 07, 2006
- I love P.S!!!!!!!! -
Today I had a major upside. I got my results for my Photoshop assignment.
85%.. HD! I'm ecstatic. Both letter's H and D have never been given to me before. Not ever. And having both of them is awesome. Especially when the project was worth a good 30% of my overall mark. I'm so over the moon.
On the downside, work really sucked. Made a few errors, in my fault. Then I had to deal with a bunch of old blokey men who kept making ... comments, about me. Good god it was gross. And then after work when I went to my car in the alley, there were guys urinating on the walls. That was oh-so-disgusting. I was soo pissed of that I felt like castrating the bastard and running him over, but at the same time I was a bit scared so I ran back into the restaurant and got the two guys to come out with me. Lucky for me, they ran off already. *cries* it was horrible. I still wish I could castrate and run them down though.
Then I tail-gated my way home.
I think my HD can overrule my crappy work tonight.
~Listening to: nothing
85%.. HD! I'm ecstatic. Both letter's H and D have never been given to me before. Not ever. And having both of them is awesome. Especially when the project was worth a good 30% of my overall mark. I'm so over the moon.
On the downside, work really sucked. Made a few errors, in my fault. Then I had to deal with a bunch of old blokey men who kept making ... comments, about me. Good god it was gross. And then after work when I went to my car in the alley, there were guys urinating on the walls. That was oh-so-disgusting. I was soo pissed of that I felt like castrating the bastard and running him over, but at the same time I was a bit scared so I ran back into the restaurant and got the two guys to come out with me. Lucky for me, they ran off already. *cries* it was horrible. I still wish I could castrate and run them down though.
Then I tail-gated my way home.
I think my HD can overrule my crappy work tonight.
~Listening to: nothing
-{ missing you 10/07/2006 12:25:00 am }-
Friday, October 06, 2006
- Our Pasar Malam -
Conveniently called Spring Feast.
I was complaining about it before, but it turned out to be a decent night. The food smelt delicious (and I'm not saying it tasted great though) and the night was filled with a wonderous mix of people, friends and relatives noting in mind that the majority came to be ASIAN. So much for multicultural.
Highlight of the night was my dinosaur drink: miLo beng (ice milo) with miLo on top in a uber cool cup. My $2.50 well spent considering I had nothing to eat the whole night. I also bought some Amos cookies without trying them first and they aren't so fabulous. I didn't have much time to get myself some food, but thanks to Kath and her friend (who's name I am scared to spell >.<) who kindly helped us buy some satay, boldly lining up in that treacherous queue. I liked this bit of the short convo we had:
Kath's friend: Why don't you just push in? You guys have been working hard..
Me and Noelle: (look at each other and giggle) Yes, working hard...
But yeah, we did have to work ( I just don't know about the '-hard' bit.)
Lowlight of the evening was the garbage water that dripped on my feet when Noelle was carrying the rubbish bag. Talk about ewwwwwwwwwwwww! Noelle's notorious line:
I'M NOT A SHERRIFF, I'M A MARSHALL!!!
or was it the other way around? I forget.
Embarrassing moment would definitely go to Alan's abuse toward the Chowka lion dancing troupe, who were great, not to mention the red lion who consisted of two hot twins. Alan even offered the head some ice-kacang which was hilarious. Free drink for him. At the end they rawred at us, I hope that was a good rawr ;)
Happy birthday yesterday to 伟 展 who turned 1-8. Much love. muakz and alwayz.
~Listening to: Jay Chou - Ai qing xuan ya (Ye hui mei)
p.s spring feast fotoz on the mcw blog, not at at this moment, but there will defnitely be some there.
I was complaining about it before, but it turned out to be a decent night. The food smelt delicious (and I'm not saying it tasted great though) and the night was filled with a wonderous mix of people, friends and relatives noting in mind that the majority came to be ASIAN. So much for multicultural.
Highlight of the night was my dinosaur drink: miLo beng (ice milo) with miLo on top in a uber cool cup. My $2.50 well spent considering I had nothing to eat the whole night. I also bought some Amos cookies without trying them first and they aren't so fabulous. I didn't have much time to get myself some food, but thanks to Kath and her friend (who's name I am scared to spell >.<) who kindly helped us buy some satay, boldly lining up in that treacherous queue. I liked this bit of the short convo we had:
Kath's friend: Why don't you just push in? You guys have been working hard..
Me and Noelle: (look at each other and giggle) Yes, working hard...
But yeah, we did have to work ( I just don't know about the '-hard' bit.)
Lowlight of the evening was the garbage water that dripped on my feet when Noelle was carrying the rubbish bag. Talk about ewwwwwwwwwwwww! Noelle's notorious line:
I'M NOT A SHERRIFF, I'M A MARSHALL!!!
or was it the other way around? I forget.
Embarrassing moment would definitely go to Alan's abuse toward the Chowka lion dancing troupe, who were great, not to mention the red lion who consisted of two hot twins. Alan even offered the head some ice-kacang which was hilarious. Free drink for him. At the end they rawred at us, I hope that was a good rawr ;)
Happy birthday yesterday to 伟 展 who turned 1-8. Much love. muakz and alwayz.
~Listening to: Jay Chou - Ai qing xuan ya (Ye hui mei)
p.s spring feast fotoz on the mcw blog, not at at this moment, but there will defnitely be some there.
-{ missing you 10/06/2006 12:32:00 pm }-
Thursday, October 05, 2006
- It's nearly over.. -
Mcw, that is. It's annoying me real bad. It's fucking up my times, so I'm glad this is the last of it. Spring feast... I know some of you are coming right?
Anyways, I couldn't be assed blogging this morning, mainly because I should be doing some readings, but there's this blind girl around uni, and I see her alot, walking around. I think there was something awrong with her leg and another day, I saw her with one less leg. Today, I saw her with one stocking over, I assume it's the leg that was missing. It just kind of made me think, if I'm blind, how much would I care how I was perceived? Will it be any different? Because firstly, you don't get to see who is looking at you, the way of all of us look at others to make them feel uncomfortable. Small smiles, small whispers all contribute to the break down of our self esteems. But when you are blind you don't see that. When you are blind, with a walking crutch/brace you don't see that people walk around you so you can walk through easier. You don't see peoples sympathetic eyes, or the eyes of those who look the other way when you come because it's the feeling we all don't want to deal with. This disabled stranger, who's life we may not want to be part of but feel the involuntary emotion of sympathy. I don't know. I've observed much of what goes on around her when she walks by.
Ah, today's going to be a very looong day at uni.
Anyways, I couldn't be assed blogging this morning, mainly because I should be doing some readings, but there's this blind girl around uni, and I see her alot, walking around. I think there was something awrong with her leg and another day, I saw her with one less leg. Today, I saw her with one stocking over, I assume it's the leg that was missing. It just kind of made me think, if I'm blind, how much would I care how I was perceived? Will it be any different? Because firstly, you don't get to see who is looking at you, the way of all of us look at others to make them feel uncomfortable. Small smiles, small whispers all contribute to the break down of our self esteems. But when you are blind you don't see that. When you are blind, with a walking crutch/brace you don't see that people walk around you so you can walk through easier. You don't see peoples sympathetic eyes, or the eyes of those who look the other way when you come because it's the feeling we all don't want to deal with. This disabled stranger, who's life we may not want to be part of but feel the involuntary emotion of sympathy. I don't know. I've observed much of what goes on around her when she walks by.
Ah, today's going to be a very looong day at uni.
-{ missing you 10/05/2006 09:59:00 am }-
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
- Tick tock, goes the clock -
I don't feel like blogging. I think it has become a chore. Even if I haven't updated yet. Emotions running high, don't think it was wise to be blogging at that point in time. Some of you may know what I'm on about, some of you may know what I'm going through. And for those who don't, sorry I'm not amidst of sharing my feelings. I think I used that preposition wrongly.
But at the most, I'm coping. So nothing to be worried about. Loongs birthday today, HAppy Birthday, had a small gathering at his house today aside fromt he party on Saturday night. Was a good night, too bad I had to drive. Home early.
MCW is this week, so far so good? I'm not quite sure. I'm sorry, but I don't feel the excitement as much as everybody else. TOmorrow is "I'm not Stupid" screening both 1 and 2.
Tonight I have done my share of readings. Relatively happy.
Not long 'til uni finishes. Can't wait 'cos that means our overseas trip is not too far. I think after exams, I'm going to go beaching before I leave, and I recall a handshake tonight that I'll be clubbing after exams. Oh no. Oh well, should be good.
Essay climax is near.. still in the foreplay area I think. People, don't be childish.
~Listening to: nothing.
But at the most, I'm coping. So nothing to be worried about. Loongs birthday today, HAppy Birthday, had a small gathering at his house today aside fromt he party on Saturday night. Was a good night, too bad I had to drive. Home early.
MCW is this week, so far so good? I'm not quite sure. I'm sorry, but I don't feel the excitement as much as everybody else. TOmorrow is "I'm not Stupid" screening both 1 and 2.
Tonight I have done my share of readings. Relatively happy.
Not long 'til uni finishes. Can't wait 'cos that means our overseas trip is not too far. I think after exams, I'm going to go beaching before I leave, and I recall a handshake tonight that I'll be clubbing after exams. Oh no. Oh well, should be good.
Essay climax is near.. still in the foreplay area I think. People, don't be childish.
~Listening to: nothing.
-{ missing you 10/04/2006 12:55:00 am }-
Sunday, October 01, 2006
- Yours, Sincerely.. -
I feel like apologising today, after briefly browsing through some regular blogs I check..actually, just a few of the guys I went to cocktail with.
Firstly, I'm sorry for dinner guys. I knew Eddie was gonna come by, I should've let you guys know he'd be coming around first. Also I didn't know he had all those other guys with him..sorry.
I'm sorry I didn't give proper introductions because I was quite intimidated by the number of people there were, and the fact that I had to mention everybody..
I'm sorry for not letting you put things in my bag Caroline, it was bulging as it was..sorry.
I'm sorry for letting you drink a tequila shot straight Kath, I guess that's inexcusabe, I hope you got better..sorry.
I'm sorry for making you look for your sister so I could go home Noelle, that was very selfish of me.. sorry.
If I did anything stupid or inappropriate that made people feel uncomfortable I'm sorry for that also.
I guess this was supposed to make me feel better but it doesn't. Work hasn't made it any better. But I thought it was a sucky night altogether. Next year's cocktail is looking very awesome.
~Listening to: Jay Chou - Track 10 (Still Fantasy)
Firstly, I'm sorry for dinner guys. I knew Eddie was gonna come by, I should've let you guys know he'd be coming around first. Also I didn't know he had all those other guys with him..sorry.
I'm sorry I didn't give proper introductions because I was quite intimidated by the number of people there were, and the fact that I had to mention everybody..
I'm sorry for not letting you put things in my bag Caroline, it was bulging as it was..sorry.
I'm sorry for letting you drink a tequila shot straight Kath, I guess that's inexcusabe, I hope you got better..sorry.
I'm sorry for making you look for your sister so I could go home Noelle, that was very selfish of me.. sorry.
If I did anything stupid or inappropriate that made people feel uncomfortable I'm sorry for that also.
I guess this was supposed to make me feel better but it doesn't. Work hasn't made it any better. But I thought it was a sucky night altogether. Next year's cocktail is looking very awesome.
~Listening to: Jay Chou - Track 10 (Still Fantasy)
-{ missing you 10/01/2006 05:53:00 pm }-