Wednesday, January 31, 2007

- New template -

Yupsz.. was browsing and found that there was a green version of my template! Why didn't anybody tell me?!

It's called 'Tequila' ... mwahahaha.. since me and Tequila have become good friends you see...
-{ missing you 1/31/2007 03:39:00 pm }-

- Deep inside me. -

You are no longer part....

This is your only window...

I spilt a bit of perfume in my room... it smells nice.. but I think it may have been a waste.

I've started this new Korean series.. me thinks it's called Sassy Girl, its the series, nothing to do with the movie. And I was just wondering... I think I'll be getting a new hairstyle change when I graduate. Yeah, I know it sounds stoopid but I think it will be like the next step up in life and I need the change. I will get waves or curls with my long long hair... I was awed by the lady who did my nails in Malaysia. She kind of had my face shape and also had thick hair. She got little curls and they looked really nice. So yeah, along with my awaited independence of moving out gettign a job I will get a new hair-do. :)
-{ missing you 1/31/2007 02:00:00 pm }-

Monday, January 29, 2007

- Empty -

I know I've already blogged but I feel like an empty blog tonight.

Tonight. That night. A monday night I'm sitting here thinking about the things that can't be helped. How fucked up things have become. And how I've changed. I think. For better or worse only you can tell me.

Someone told me once never say 'I'll never..' because you'll always be given the chance in which you'll take. How come some people can hold back and I cannot? How come people can say no and I say yes, whatever? So stoopid, so sui bian.

How sad to be listening to the Fray now. I told her, ' Yah lah, I'm ok', it's true right? I did not lie to her. I didn't lie. What happens when I sit at home doing nothing? That's why I should go out. Or work. But work makes me tired and want to stay home. And that cannot happen.

So tomorrow I'm going to try and get out. And find those shoes. I think they will make me happy. Hinder makes me happy.

I need a massive change in life. LIke MASSIVE.

Today mum scolded me. These days I don't bother with comebacks and just let her rant. She said it was best if I left home and found a place for myself so my mess doesn't clutter her house. I'm quite happy with the idea, because if I decide to move out I have her words to fall back on. I will move far far away...

A job, an apartment... anybody want to be my room-buddy? We'll get a cosy little place, cook for ourselves, depend on each other, party like there's no tomorrow and live life the way it should be lived.

+Come with me and take the journey+
-{ missing you 1/29/2007 11:41:00 pm }-

- NANA -


I like the first one.. gonna watch this one soon. Have you heard of it? It's an anime turned into movie. I haven't seen the anime (and not going to bother with it) so maybe that's why I like the movie.

It's all very punkish but I'm sure some of you will like it. In the end it's a love story anyway so maybe not one for the guys? Nakashima Mika, who plays the lead role, is actaully quite pretty.



Nana is awesome. I think this may be the start of a new liking of jap pop-punk-rock.

*******

Australia Day was stinking HOT. That was a Friday. Saturday was also stinking hot. ALL through the GODAMN night. Sadly Sunday wasn't any better.

I'm badly in need of another ear-piercing, but don't think mum's going to be happy with that.

Ooh! I found another song to fetishise over. *I kiss your lips by Tokyo Ghetto Pussy* LOL, I know what you're thinking, but it's the coolest song. Download it, Youtube it, just do it, I guarantee you'll like it!

...lalala make everybody see that i love you and you love me!

~Listening to: Fall Out Boy's new album.

-{ missing you 1/29/2007 06:43:00 pm }-

Thursday, January 25, 2007

- Sunrise, sunset.. -

To my dearest readers:

I can no longer attempt to entertain you. My writing has always been audience friendly, but these days it just doesn't seem to work anymore. So I no longer write for you but myself.

I'm going to discuss a lot of irrelevant things that may have no importance to you whatsoever.. it may at times.. but whatever.. it's just a warning if you realise that my blog has made a turn for the worse or something.

Just like my yin yang theory, as things get better they also get worse, but soon they will get better. Life's roller coaster is so very tiring. How do you say that you hate life without being emo? How do you say you want to die without holding a knife in your hand? Well, you can't. You just cant. You're not supposed to take the easy road. Only cheaters do that, and they go to hell.

So everytime, you put yourself through pain, misery and painstaking torture, just remember that you are doing yourself a favour. Because life isn't life without a struggle. How does it make you feel when you've really given something all that you've got and have the prize in your hand at the end of the day? That's how it'll be when you've finally reached the end.

And you really don't need to achieve anything to feel that way right? I mean, we're all not talented and gifted and made of money. We live by our own goals and pursuits.

At the end of this, ask me why I'm writing all this shit. 'Cos I don't have an answer. I've never had the answer for anything. Anything. All I know is that I'm always asking questions.

I know you gave me the answer, but it wasn't the one I wanted. Now I'm all broken.

I knew it was always my favourite place. And it will remain my favourite place.

Chocolate makes everything all better.

On a different note..

On Wednesday, Kath-Whyetatt-Niss-Noelle and I went to Ciao Italias. Yay! Like finally, and man was it nice. We had pasta, gnocchi, pizza and something else but it was all uber-licious. SUCH a SHAME I forgot my camera. Again. I always do. We also had dessert, yummy ice-cream. Unlike the rum-and-raisin icecream I had that one time. Lets not go into the fact that there were too many raisins with a very strong rum-ness to it.

The downside to Ciao Italias was when we were waiting outside for a table, and sitting there right, there was this pregnant lady that walked past and knowing that she wanted to sit down as well, I righteously got up and asked her if she wanted the seat.

THE BITCH IGNORED ME. And I'm pretty sure she gave me a 'look'. The nerve! She's lucky she's pregnant or else I'd curse the shit out of her.

After dinner we were in need of a walk. So we walked to the riverside.

Night ended with me and Noelle last minutely deciding to go sing our hearts out at Uptopia. We were orignally going to go play some pool, 'cos I wanted to show her my "newly acquired skills" in pool. But there were no tables. K-oking was just as good.

~Listening to: Avril - Keep holding on
+there's nothing you can say, nothing you can do+
-{ missing you 1/25/2007 09:01:00 pm }-

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

- Of mine... -

Track List:

Utada Hikaru - First Love

The Fray - How to save a life

Hinder - Lips of an angel *

Avril - Keep holding on

It's come to an end...
-{ missing you 1/24/2007 11:10:00 pm }-

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

- fcuk the watch -

zomfg. My watch!!! It doesn't suit mee...... I was VERY dis-a-ppointed.

AND I was deprived of good shopping.. BAH!!

I can never get that pink song outta my head.... they knew better, still you said forever..

BAKA!
-{ missing you 1/23/2007 09:59:00 pm }-

- When in Rome.... -

Wtf!?!?!... Ok I know what that connotates, but let me go through the story with you..

Waiter: So gentlemen, some coffee or tea?
Customer 1: Yes, some tea would be nice.
W: And how about you?
Customer 2: .... When in Rome...
W: Tea it is.

I don't know why I'm so disturbed by it.. but why couldn't he just say 'I'll have tea as well' or somethig like that? 'WHen in Rome'??!? Good lord...

OH! I find myself a fcuk watch... *shines* I fell in love at first sight... now I just need to get some cash together.... and then its all mine!!
-{ missing you 1/23/2007 02:28:00 pm }-

Sunday, January 21, 2007

- Yawn.. -

Goodness.. excuse the emo blog back there.

Today was very tiring at work. Especially tired, but the day itself was probably better than Saturday.

It's amazing what courtesy can get you. I'll usually get whatever a customer tells me to if they're really extra nice to me. Some people should learn from this.

I saw Nam and Michael todaizz, not that I had the time or chance to talk to them anyway.

Went to dinner for mum's birthday, which is why I'm at home on this quiet Sunday night.

I hope I'm in for a good week.. three days of no work, yay!

I'm in a j-ay mood...
-{ missing you 1/21/2007 08:07:00 pm }-

Friday, January 19, 2007

- Egoist -

I've just been reading Kenny Sia's blog for the past half hour.. and I really admire his blog, with all his pics and all.

This has been the shit part of the holidays after coming back from Malaysia. These few weeks has been shit on its own.

After watching 'Pursuit of Happiness', I conclude it will be part of the moderately-crap list of movies watched. The ending was wayyyyyyyyyyy to happy for my likings. I thought he said that happiness could only be pursued and stuff, but right at the end he said he was happy. I don't get it.

There's no problem with being happy, don't get me wrong. But it's soo hard for mee to be happy. Why? I don't know. Maybe I have high expectations of what happy is, and the fact that I'm happy at very seldom times?

I think happy got left back in Malaysia where I had no care in the world, slept 'til whenever I wanted, ate what I wanted, did what I pleased without giving a shit what happened orwhat others would think.

And here we go again through the treacherous cycle that is what society thinks. 'Cos I give a fuck how I'm perceived. But to what extent? And why? 'Cos I recall telling myself that I'll be living for myself and not others this time. So can I ever do what I say? No. 'Cos recently, what I've said, I haven't been true to my word. That is in the case of my mum. But that's another .. story.

The fact is, I have no confidence in myself. I have no rock. I have nothing. And there goes my pessimistic self again.
-{ missing you 1/19/2007 02:53:00 pm }-

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

- Squish me a frog -

It's taken the whole day for me to start writing something, and I did but it didn't get anywhere.

I cannot help but to comment on Xiaxues blog, but her recent one is interesting. The best part was this one in relation to getting wasted:

(quote) "If you know you will get taken advantage of when you are drunk, how about this: DON'T FUCKING DRINK." (end quote)

Hahahaha. That's awesome. It's never good to get too drunk to the point where you forget stuff. It's one piece of advice a certain someone should take from me. But who doesn't love alcohol? It gives us that extra courage to take a few more steps forward. It gives us the happiness we never thought existed in our lives. It makes us speak more confidently with no fear. And it makes us get up 5 times to go pee 'cos you can't frickin go to sleep. Or maybe that sleepless night was due to something else...

I went to a pub in Sg, and had a few drinks. But I believe I was under control, right Angeline? But in Kuching, a few of us had a bit more... We were on the beach at night running around like lunatics.. Back in Kedah, I was always under control. Always!

Sometimes we say 'lets just drink and do whatever we please, 'cos I couldn't give a f*#k what happens after'............ when you know it's guaranteed that there will be regrets and apologies. To be honest, sometimes I think, 'Hey tonight I'm going to go out and get pissed drunk'. But I know that it's not the best thing to do. Lucky for me (or maybe not?), my limit is probably more than a couple of drinks. But sometimes I don't think I'll always go down that path. Just enough to get me laughing and dancing.

Taking a drink from a stranger is also something thats not on, which I regretfully have done. That's a no-no kids. Lucky for me, I was dragged away from the drinks as well as the beverage bearers.

I like to say stuff and really mean it, but most of the time I know that it may not happen. I want to say I don't want to go clubbing anymore, but when I see a certain person, I'll probably be planning to make my way down to Northbridge or something. What about I say I'll limit my drinks? Yeah, that's much more reasonable.

Don't get me wrong: I'm not an alcoholic.





p.s. this is for Niss: asia2206- mon@ 3pm 1st pref & wed@ 2pm 2nd pref; asia2207- tues@ 11am 1st pref & thurs@ 2pm 2nd pref.
-{ missing you 1/10/2007 02:09:00 pm }-

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

- Somewhereee over the rainbowww -

I'm gonna take a break from posting up pictures from my holiday. It's just a lot of effort.

I forgot to reply to Rongchyi's comment in the previous post: nothing happened. Nothing interesting enough to share.

Anyway, today I got my wisdom teeth out. So much for not enough money to take out four 'cos Mr. dentist guy told me the four had to come out. The great news was that I'd be fully knocked out! YAY. I was glad. Mr. anaesthetic started me off with a little bit of l.a. but I think he went to increase the dosage because the next thing you know, I was waking up. The weird thing was, I'm pretty sure I heard voices during my k.o. And I could feel a slight bit of pain. But I woke up drowsy and all.. and came home with a mouthful of blood. So it's actually not as bad as I thought it would be. An ice pack on the face has reduced the swelling and I can't talk too much. Which doesn't bother me too much. I'll have to eat porridge for a couple of days, which I'm not too fuss about either.

I'm going to organise my timetable tomorrow. woop-ee, three units.

You know when people start a sentence with "Hypothetically...", isn't usually something about oneself? Bah. So something good has happened to me. I'm not sure I want to share exact details just yet, but it's a good thing in my books. But it's also troubling me. When something good happens, the opposite will happen. It's the concept of yin and yang and the scientific (?) saying, 'what goes up must come down'. I think it's scientific, something to do with gravity right? Anyways, in the recent years I've tried to live by with no expectations, and things work out better when you don't have any.
Like my holiday turned out awesome because I went there with no expectations. I had a ball even if I didn't go many places, 'cos most of the time I hung out with my cousins.
So when something good happens, which doesn't really happen that much, I'm expecting the downfall of it really soon. But that's so pessimmistic of me to think that way right?

Can't help it. Well, there already is a down side to it. But I could turn it into a good thing, if things turn out ok. That's as much as I can share without blurting out my story!
-{ missing you 1/09/2007 07:30:00 pm }-

Friday, January 05, 2007

- The never-ending story -

For me, there was only one solution to frizzy hair: rebonding. Yep, I straightened my hair again. I did it in Malaysia for RM170. I got split ends again though. Oh well, anything for nice easy manageable straight hair.
On our first day in Singapore, we had Katong laksa. I think thats the famous one in Sg, it was quite nice, not the one I was used to but it was nice. Noelle should have a pic of it. I didn't take many food pictures, most of them Noelle took and I'm just gonna grab them off her. Me and Noelle had written up a list of things to eat in Sg and my cousins took us 'round to eat about 7 or 8 of the ten dishes we set out to taste - in 2 days! So I never went hungry in Sg, 'cos food was always priority. Although my weight went up and down throughout the trip, surprisingly I came back home with my initial weight. Thank god.
The best meal may have been the crab I think. The start of my seafood endeavour. After this meal, my cousins back in malaysia heard about this and sought to take me out to eat crab. So I've had quite a lot of crab when I was there.



I hope you can see the picture clearly, 'cos it was damn nice!

While we were choosing our dishes, I came across this chicken dish:




Don't you just love Asian translation? But this is like, Sg where they speak English... maybe they thought it would make the dish more appealing or something.

We didn't go shopping until the second day I think and my hands were getting itchy. Clothes, shoes and everything that had a price tag on it, we bought. Nah not that much really. I only spent SG100 something that day.

Omg. You know the female toilets? They have those basins that guys in in near the sinks, but mini style! It's for the little boys that follow their mum into the toilet. I soo would've taken a picture of them but then a little kid went to pee and OF COURSE I didn't wanna come across as a paedophile.

Most of Sg consisted of shopping... and Jerry Yan. From F4. See Noelle? Nobody knows who he is anymore. LOL



This is the clearest picture I got, which is very clear. Not that anybody cares.


I got excited when I heard 'Dance Dance' playing in Esprit. I thought that was cool. Is f.o.b local? I forget.



This is the Guan Yin Temple. I like this pic. Its a nice one I took.

These are my adorable cousin's children. Shy at first but awesome when they get to know you.




And finally, me and Noelle on Orchard Road.

Oh eww.. I just remembered that night we went to Bugis (?) for dinner and then shopping and while we were eating, these icky guys gave us their number. ewwwwww. He gave it to us verbally though and he said he quite quick, but we were by no means in a rush to write it down.

That's all I can think of for now...

*yawns*

tired. Nights~!

-笨蛋

-{ missing you 1/05/2007 07:12:00 pm }-

Thursday, January 04, 2007

- Something you don't know about me -

I like to cross stitch. I got into it in year 7 and I always try to find myself those cross stitch things. At the moment, I'm stitching a picture onto a d.i.y bag. I'll show you the end results when it's done.

I just reviewed some of my pictures that I took when I was overseas, And I've confirmed to everyone and myself I'm no photographer. They're all dodgy, probably because I don't know how to work my camera properly. All I know is that button on the top that you press which goes *click!* to take the picture.

When I was in Singapore, I carried my camera most of the time, so I took a lot of stupid pictures. Like this one:


The hand massager. I got busted taking this picture. Actually you can't really take pictures of stuff in stores. I got busted a lot and didn't get away with many. But a hand massager. The first thing I thought of was "Where could you put a vibrating hand?" Just my spoilt mind thinking on the wrong tracks.


This is at Perth airport just before getting on the plane:


You see my hair is wavey and tamed? It went feral in Singapore. The stupid humidity and moist in the air really frizzed my hair so I had to tie it up a lot. I'm a bit embarrassed to show you the pics.

This is airplane food. It was actually quite nice to the likings of Noelle and I. I've never had brekky on an airplane before. Speaking of airplane, I still recall that good-looking boy who helped Noelle put her luggage in the cabin above. Heehee, what a nice fella. Speaking of fella's, there was that guy sitting one seat up, across the isle from me, who was obviously glancing our way and kept listening in on our conversation. He even said something and made me feel like a fool, but I was meant to thank him for his correction, instead I gave Noelle a look and continued to talk which probably made him embarrassed to talk to us again.
You know the expectations they have for air hostesses have gone done. They aren't as pretty and tall and they don't smile that much. Maybe I should go be an air hostess. o_O
I'll show you some random pictures I took in Sg:

If you're from Sg, don't laugh at me. I thought it was a weird name to call their shop.



Hello Kitty show at that new place the just opened. Craps, I forgot what it was called. Ehh, my cuz took the photo 'cos he thought I wanted it. But I don't like HK. Really, I don't.

This is the brand that brought in those awful awful ugly objects that they call shoes.

I have a couple more in Sg, but I'm tired and I think I'll upload them tomorrow. Maybe I'll write more about the trip as well. That's a good idea too.

Lazy bum

- 笨 蛋

-{ missing you 1/04/2007 08:30:00 pm }-

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

- Alabama -

I wish I was like other people, so ... 'ren zhen' with their blogs. They can actually update each and every day of their holiday. Even though I kept a journal on my trip, I still failed to record everything and my blasted memory is crap as.

I'm not gonna fully update until I get my photos up on the comp, and thats gonna take a while. I'm not really in the mood to though because since it's over with, reminiscing will just make it painful that I'm not there. Dad said there might be a next time in two years time. But that's with them. I don't know if I'll get away with just as much.

I've had enough alcohol to last me the year. I've had enough fun that will last me.. for a few months..

People have really abandoned their blogs hey, not so much updates and not so many readers. Is this all just a fad that will fade and something new kick in? I don't know. I hope I will still be going ..

*sigh* I miss malaysia oh-so-much...
-{ missing you 1/02/2007 06:03:00 pm }-