Monday, March 12, 2007
- One day.. -
I really don't know why I want to blog now, of all times. Because I really don't want to rush this post, but at the same time I need to get it out of my systems before I fuck myself up.
Oops. On a profanity note, maybe I should cut down on those words. After reading Shirls blog, I felt awful that I'm probably one of those people who may blog-use it a little bit too much. So I'll try to cut downn.. :))
I think my last post struck a nerve. Because I make stupid decisions on a regular basis. I'm was just recounting on the events that have occurred in the past few days, and boy! am I the stupidist bitch. I mean, there are some things I do, knowing that I can take care of myself. Because I know that I'll be ok. I need to live my own life and I need to make the mistakes in order for me to learn ( refer to Kifa's analogy in previous posts' comment box).
I know it must be hard to parent a child. And I think I'm one the kind of daughter that probably needs the least worrying about. But if I'm going to do this everytime I go out, and she's going to sit there crying, I wouldn't have a clue what I'm going to do. And from this day forward if all I'm going to see is the heart-break I'm causing in her, then the more I am leaning towards leaving perth.
She also says that I've changed after coming back from Malaysia. That refers to another point made on shirls' blog. 'Cept I don't know who's argument I'm supporting. But yeah, I think I've probably changed in her eyes because I experienced what independence was. And I took care of myself. It didn't matter how sick I was, I was determined to not let it get in the way of my holiday. And I took care of myself AND I battled on. Went on a ONE day shopping spree in Penang.
I'm going to continue this later... I have to go to uni now. I've never been so rushed and excited to go to uni... o_0
Oops. On a profanity note, maybe I should cut down on those words. After reading Shirls blog, I felt awful that I'm probably one of those people who may blog-use it a little bit too much. So I'll try to cut downn.. :))
I think my last post struck a nerve. Because I make stupid decisions on a regular basis. I'm was just recounting on the events that have occurred in the past few days, and boy! am I the stupidist bitch. I mean, there are some things I do, knowing that I can take care of myself. Because I know that I'll be ok. I need to live my own life and I need to make the mistakes in order for me to learn ( refer to Kifa's analogy in previous posts' comment box).
I know it must be hard to parent a child. And I think I'm one the kind of daughter that probably needs the least worrying about. But if I'm going to do this everytime I go out, and she's going to sit there crying, I wouldn't have a clue what I'm going to do. And from this day forward if all I'm going to see is the heart-break I'm causing in her, then the more I am leaning towards leaving perth.
She also says that I've changed after coming back from Malaysia. That refers to another point made on shirls' blog. 'Cept I don't know who's argument I'm supporting. But yeah, I think I've probably changed in her eyes because I experienced what independence was. And I took care of myself. It didn't matter how sick I was, I was determined to not let it get in the way of my holiday. And I took care of myself AND I battled on. Went on a ONE day shopping spree in Penang.
I'm going to continue this later... I have to go to uni now. I've never been so rushed and excited to go to uni... o_0
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