Monday, April 30, 2007
- Dean geyer - if you don't mean it -
ZOMG ZOMG guys!
you thought 'Sometimes' was funny, check this out:
I don’t know
How to feel
Let the words
Come easily to me
You seem lost
In your thoughts
And I find it hard to breathe
Why won’t you tell me what it is?
It’s driving me crazy trying to second guess you
Don’t say you love me,
I don’t believe it!
Don’t say the words,
If you don’t mean it.
Don’t want to hear it
Out in the open
Keep it inside
If you don’t mean it
Don’t even want to talk about it
I know that I can live without it
If it’s right
If it’s wrong
Would someone let me know?
It’s the game
I can’t play
Do I just let you go?
Maybe it’s just the way it is
I get the feeling that you know it’s over
ALL OF IT, you know it baybee! 'Cept for the third small paragraph o_O
you thought 'Sometimes' was funny, check this out:
I don’t know
How to feel
Let the words
Come easily to me
You seem lost
In your thoughts
And I find it hard to breathe
Why won’t you tell me what it is?
It’s driving me crazy trying to second guess you
Don’t say you love me,
I don’t believe it!
Don’t say the words,
If you don’t mean it.
Don’t want to hear it
Out in the open
Keep it inside
If you don’t mean it
Don’t even want to talk about it
I know that I can live without it
If it’s right
If it’s wrong
Would someone let me know?
It’s the game
I can’t play
Do I just let you go?
Maybe it’s just the way it is
I get the feeling that you know it’s over
ALL OF IT, you know it baybee! 'Cept for the third small paragraph o_O
-{ missing you 4/30/2007 10:47:00 pm }-
Sunday, April 29, 2007
- I think I'll go to Boston... -
Augustana. I heart.
!Cam whores, unsucessfully less than 20 pictures taken
.Woosh! and just like that my voice went away with the wind
!zomfg, all that learning of that stupid fkn song, all for people walking out on our song. feel i loved
#you noL i heart! you soo knew what i was doing.. we is on such psychic terms - roflmao
`omg! i heart this song! quick, skull your drink. Umm, why don't you skull YOUR drink, u seem to be having a hard time finishing it .. damnit! the sooong is finished :(( bad burping session
1/2 music was good, the other bad
~ nod-nod-hint-smile-stare-smile-hint-frown-stare-smile-smileLOSER! hehehehe
C-az *singing* i dun need a man! ...Stupid *singing* i dun need a man! ... umm no, i take that back.
yours is nov and mine is jan. it cannot happen to me again. as you will not want nov to happen to you.. or do you .. ?
whisper - - - the truth!
at boston be i want to - fallen be is I'll where, role the dice my friend, I think it's your turn.
!Cam whores, unsucessfully less than 20 pictures taken
.Woosh! and just like that my voice went away with the wind
!zomfg, all that learning of that stupid fkn song, all for people walking out on our song. feel i loved
#you noL i heart! you soo knew what i was doing.. we is on such psychic terms - roflmao
`omg! i heart this song! quick, skull your drink. Umm, why don't you skull YOUR drink, u seem to be having a hard time finishing it .. damnit! the sooong is finished :(( bad burping session
1/2 music was good, the other bad
~ nod-nod-hint-smile-stare-smile-hint-frown-stare-smile-smileLOSER! hehehehe
C-az *singing* i dun need a man! ...Stupid *singing* i dun need a man! ... umm no, i take that back.
yours is nov and mine is jan. it cannot happen to me again. as you will not want nov to happen to you.. or do you .. ?
whisper - - - the truth!
at boston be i want to - fallen be is I'll where, role the dice my friend, I think it's your turn.
-{ missing you 4/29/2007 04:48:00 pm }-
Friday, April 27, 2007
- Fate vs coincidence -
To what extent does something become fate or merely a sense of coincidence?
I like many other stupid people have misconceived coincidence for fate. And it's the most retarded feeling ever. I'm losing faith in fate. But if you actually think about it, you don't need to go looking for it. When it comes, it doesn't come subtly, if you miss it, then that'll be your own stupidity.
Although because of that fact, I think it makes people on the tip of their toes and on the guard not to miss any signs. The key word here people, is SIGNS. Plural. One sign doesn't cut it, heck maybe two is like, pft.
I guess fate won't let up too quickly so we shouldn't be too scared to miss it.
We're all suckers for fate, destiny and all that jiz. But similarly we laugh at those who raise the issue. We laugh and smirk when they say, 'But it's got to be fate!'. Some things like this are maybe better kept to ones self.
Hi, my name is Lisa, and I'm a blogger addict.
I like many other stupid people have misconceived coincidence for fate. And it's the most retarded feeling ever. I'm losing faith in fate. But if you actually think about it, you don't need to go looking for it. When it comes, it doesn't come subtly, if you miss it, then that'll be your own stupidity.
Although because of that fact, I think it makes people on the tip of their toes and on the guard not to miss any signs. The key word here people, is SIGNS. Plural. One sign doesn't cut it, heck maybe two is like, pft.
I guess fate won't let up too quickly so we shouldn't be too scared to miss it.
We're all suckers for fate, destiny and all that jiz. But similarly we laugh at those who raise the issue. We laugh and smirk when they say, 'But it's got to be fate!'. Some things like this are maybe better kept to ones self.
Hi, my name is Lisa, and I'm a blogger addict.
-{ missing you 4/27/2007 08:02:00 pm }-
- Trying to sound smart -
After leaving the stupid tute that is Communications 301, I have been left with many thoughts.
The issue of this high speed broadband ordeal that Rudd has presented us is indeed a problem. I'm most probably a person that will vote Labor, but this issue has caused many to be confused and many questions asked. To my knowledge, the governments fastest way to implement this is through Telestra. But by helping Telestra would mean that it is handing the monopoly over to them causing difficulties and concerns for the other communication companies (G8?). Their main concerns are the shareholders.
So if you were a shareholder who wanted the high speed internet access, what the hell would you do? Because the rest of us who don't have this sort of affliation are definitely opting for hsb, whatever the costs are to these people. The alternative solution is for the government to do it themselves and that means that hsb will become this government entity. I think that's a bad thing? I'm not so sure anymore. But I know that either way, it seems like the other private companies are losing out pretty quickly unless they come up with a way and costs to upgrade their broadband provision. But if the Labor government is opting to try and help the people, they have put themselves in a corner. They are either helping us out (us being those who don't care and just want hsb) and not looking after those shareholders or vice versa... ?
Another unrelated point we raised was that the US being and individualist country as opposed to our social democratic country in response to why they have privatised telecommunications companies when we used to have government owned ones. Their individualistic minds was what created the phrase, 'it's a dog-eat-dog world'. People are described as dogs. It's disgusting. Their individualism caused this classification of each and every individual into all the different sections of society. I also think it was because of this individualism that they have these 'individuals' shooting up schools and colleges.
I think I'm anti-individualism?
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On a lighter note, the drive home I heard 'The reason' by Hoobastank. It was my favourite song in year 12. Favourite songs then were merely favourite songs. I loved them because I just did.
Did it ever occur to me that it would have the weirdest effect on you if someone sang it to you? With those lyrics? Whether they meant it or not?
It has an effect. It's shocking. It's the best the worst and the last thing I want happen to me. I guess I can't count on the third one. [s]
The issue of this high speed broadband ordeal that Rudd has presented us is indeed a problem. I'm most probably a person that will vote Labor, but this issue has caused many to be confused and many questions asked. To my knowledge, the governments fastest way to implement this is through Telestra. But by helping Telestra would mean that it is handing the monopoly over to them causing difficulties and concerns for the other communication companies (G8?). Their main concerns are the shareholders.
So if you were a shareholder who wanted the high speed internet access, what the hell would you do? Because the rest of us who don't have this sort of affliation are definitely opting for hsb, whatever the costs are to these people. The alternative solution is for the government to do it themselves and that means that hsb will become this government entity. I think that's a bad thing? I'm not so sure anymore. But I know that either way, it seems like the other private companies are losing out pretty quickly unless they come up with a way and costs to upgrade their broadband provision. But if the Labor government is opting to try and help the people, they have put themselves in a corner. They are either helping us out (us being those who don't care and just want hsb) and not looking after those shareholders or vice versa... ?
Another unrelated point we raised was that the US being and individualist country as opposed to our social democratic country in response to why they have privatised telecommunications companies when we used to have government owned ones. Their individualistic minds was what created the phrase, 'it's a dog-eat-dog world'. People are described as dogs. It's disgusting. Their individualism caused this classification of each and every individual into all the different sections of society. I also think it was because of this individualism that they have these 'individuals' shooting up schools and colleges.
I think I'm anti-individualism?
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On a lighter note, the drive home I heard 'The reason' by Hoobastank. It was my favourite song in year 12. Favourite songs then were merely favourite songs. I loved them because I just did.
Did it ever occur to me that it would have the weirdest effect on you if someone sang it to you? With those lyrics? Whether they meant it or not?
It has an effect. It's shocking. It's the best the worst and the last thing I want happen to me. I guess I can't count on the third one. [s]
-{ missing you 4/27/2007 11:47:00 am }-
Thursday, April 26, 2007
- Zhi Dao Zhi Yan de Jue Ju -
Talk about the ultimate blow. Like .. BAM!
No, I'm not being comedic. The drive home back from uni was the worst one I have ever had.
One day, this is how I am going to kill myself. How come I don't get enough sleep? What destroyed my sleeping pattern? Why can i never catch up on my sleep?
All these questions don't seem to help me either.
But after coming home to sleep, I woke up feeling like shit. The worst of worst. I sat there eating dinner feeling so damn agro.
Bah, I have to attend this stupid work thing tomorrow evening.
No, I'm not being comedic. The drive home back from uni was the worst one I have ever had.
One day, this is how I am going to kill myself. How come I don't get enough sleep? What destroyed my sleeping pattern? Why can i never catch up on my sleep?
All these questions don't seem to help me either.
But after coming home to sleep, I woke up feeling like shit. The worst of worst. I sat there eating dinner feeling so damn agro.
Bah, I have to attend this stupid work thing tomorrow evening.
-{ missing you 4/26/2007 08:05:00 pm }-
- The odd occasion of studying -
Guess what? I'm studying!
Well, close enough. I'm i'lecturing. Catching up on a 'few' lectures. I guess I'm not paying too much attention if I am blogging right? Ok whatever, there is a film on.
You know I found some contradictions amongst my blog. Which kinds of concerns me, I guess because I should be consistent with my attitudes and values. But then being me, I'm always changing the way I think, also with the influence of my close friends and sometimes by the way that they think.
So it may just be exceptable. Because we are constantly on the change and meeting new people everyday who may ultimately influence our perceptions of the world right? YUPZ.
*yawn* lectures are so boring.
Yeah, its taking me forever. And I think Michelle really wants a break..
Well, close enough. I'm i'lecturing. Catching up on a 'few' lectures. I guess I'm not paying too much attention if I am blogging right? Ok whatever, there is a film on.
You know I found some contradictions amongst my blog. Which kinds of concerns me, I guess because I should be consistent with my attitudes and values. But then being me, I'm always changing the way I think, also with the influence of my close friends and sometimes by the way that they think.
So it may just be exceptable. Because we are constantly on the change and meeting new people everyday who may ultimately influence our perceptions of the world right? YUPZ.
*yawn* lectures are so boring.
Yeah, its taking me forever. And I think Michelle really wants a break..
-{ missing you 4/26/2007 01:14:00 pm }-
- An odd day at uni -
I feel so, poseurish today. I'm at uni, drove because I was late to catch the bus and now I'm at uni blogging. Sad. Ultimate sadness. I'm supposed to be studying and I'll do that at 12.. Meanwhile I can't do much 'cos I'll be meeting the others later on.
Talk about major let down. How come Rice looks like it will be great? And now the sudden urge to go? But, reality has it that I wont be going. And that all you guys who are will have to keep the details away from me.
Caz should appreciate the extent I am taking to stop myself from going to this stupid function.
Whatever, I bet you'll find me blogging a little later this afternoon. ttfn :P
Talk about major let down. How come Rice looks like it will be great? And now the sudden urge to go? But, reality has it that I wont be going. And that all you guys who are will have to keep the details away from me.
Caz should appreciate the extent I am taking to stop myself from going to this stupid function.
Whatever, I bet you'll find me blogging a little later this afternoon. ttfn :P
-{ missing you 4/26/2007 10:48:00 am }-
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
- Moshi moshi! -
- It's cliche, how close you really are but how far you seem to me
when you don't even know, that I think I need you
I think I even miss you, that you ruined what we had,
that maybe, we just can't go back to the way it used to be. -
I think it's quite funny how some guys go about attempting to get a girls number. I'm talking about getting their number for various reasons: for study purposes, for friendship purposes, for convenience and of course, for personal reasons. :))
Sometimes you don't want the girl to think that you are interested, so you do it in the most... uninterested way. And that's weird. I had to get this guy's number for study purposes one time back in first year, and he was damn reluctant to give it to me. And he approached ME to do the group assignment together! He was the biggest bum. I ignored him after we finished the assignment.
I like the guys that confidently get your number, simultaneous giving off the no-hidden-agenda vibe. It's quick, easy and everybody is happy.
There is the guy that goes " ..*mumble*mumble* your number *mumble*..." LOL, they're cute. Some sort of weirdness attached as well. I got that recently and I actually laughed out loud at him, but disguised it with a "..yeah! I was gonna get yours before..." just to make him feel better.
I remember this ONE guy who got my email first, to put in his phone.. I was like ok... we are kinda adults here.. why are we exchanging emails? But yeah, then I found out later I didn't want his number nor did I want him to have mine. He finally managed to get my number out of me and I got calls and msgs from him everyday. Talk about stalker-tendencies. The poor sod couldn't read me well enough to figure out I was tired of the calls and msgs, I was wasting so much $$ on him. Finally he had to get it the hard way. This *sod* has found his way into UWA now, I'm so frightened to bump into him, although I think I've forgotton what he looks like. And there's no way he will approach me. I think he reads this blog as well. Remember when I had anon problems? My major suspect was him. Yeah I know he may be reading this now, but everyone should know by now that I don't give a fuck. Especially after ... *ahem* I dunno, I think only one person knows about... this incident.
Moving on..
I try to remember the way guys get my number.. especially for this post, but I could only remember so much. For me, if we are in the right situation its just the matter of saying "Can I have your number?" I sometimes almost don't think twice.
And when I do... :))) then there is a small small hidden agenda! It does seem harder when you have an agenda. And I guess it's hypocritical to say I don't like it when the hidden-agenda-vibe is being passed off. To be honest, if the guy does it well, I wouldn't be able to know whether there is or not an agenda.
I'll just have to wait for the next day, and the next day and the next day and the next day and the next day..... ..... .......
when you don't even know, that I think I need you
I think I even miss you, that you ruined what we had,
that maybe, we just can't go back to the way it used to be. -
I think it's quite funny how some guys go about attempting to get a girls number. I'm talking about getting their number for various reasons: for study purposes, for friendship purposes, for convenience and of course, for personal reasons. :))
Sometimes you don't want the girl to think that you are interested, so you do it in the most... uninterested way. And that's weird. I had to get this guy's number for study purposes one time back in first year, and he was damn reluctant to give it to me. And he approached ME to do the group assignment together! He was the biggest bum. I ignored him after we finished the assignment.
I like the guys that confidently get your number, simultaneous giving off the no-hidden-agenda vibe. It's quick, easy and everybody is happy.
There is the guy that goes " ..*mumble*mumble* your number *mumble*..." LOL, they're cute. Some sort of weirdness attached as well. I got that recently and I actually laughed out loud at him, but disguised it with a "..yeah! I was gonna get yours before..." just to make him feel better.
I remember this ONE guy who got my email first, to put in his phone.. I was like ok... we are kinda adults here.. why are we exchanging emails? But yeah, then I found out later I didn't want his number nor did I want him to have mine. He finally managed to get my number out of me and I got calls and msgs from him everyday. Talk about stalker-tendencies. The poor sod couldn't read me well enough to figure out I was tired of the calls and msgs, I was wasting so much $$ on him. Finally he had to get it the hard way. This *sod* has found his way into UWA now, I'm so frightened to bump into him, although I think I've forgotton what he looks like. And there's no way he will approach me. I think he reads this blog as well. Remember when I had anon problems? My major suspect was him. Yeah I know he may be reading this now, but everyone should know by now that I don't give a fuck. Especially after ... *ahem* I dunno, I think only one person knows about... this incident.
Moving on..
I try to remember the way guys get my number.. especially for this post, but I could only remember so much. For me, if we are in the right situation its just the matter of saying "Can I have your number?" I sometimes almost don't think twice.
And when I do... :))) then there is a small small hidden agenda! It does seem harder when you have an agenda. And I guess it's hypocritical to say I don't like it when the hidden-agenda-vibe is being passed off. To be honest, if the guy does it well, I wouldn't be able to know whether there is or not an agenda.
I'll just have to wait for the next day, and the next day and the next day and the next day and the next day..... ..... .......
-{ missing you 4/25/2007 09:12:00 pm }-
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
- The whole world in the palm of my hands -
Wow, it's like the ultimate abstinence from blogging. That killed me hey! Naw, I just really haven't had the time to. In fact, (and for those who have asked) I have managed to get that job at Burswood and if you haven't seen me the last two days was because I skipped uni to go for a work orientation. Fully paid, ahuahua. Actually it would be quite a surprise if you ever saw me on a Monday or Tuesday at uni right? Yeah, I don't think it's good for me either. I'm quite behind in everything at the moment. My problem is getting this job and trying to quit the other. I was gonna do it last night, but before I said anything, Joseph gave me an apple struddle to take home. I was like ...... gah!
Since I haven't blogged for bloody forever, I'm gonna start right at the beginning. Sit tight. It's gonna be a LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGG (november) one.
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Since I haven't blogged for bloody forever, I'm gonna start right at the beginning. Sit tight. It's gonna be a LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGG (november) one.
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Chronologically, I'm starting here. We had Mel's pre-birthday dinner at Matsuri on one of the Tuesdays, on the same week I had my darn presentation. I haven't got half the pics yet but the ones on mine are real random and there was only this nice one. We took some silly videos too but I cbf uploading them. So I think its just the one picture for now.. I think I'm gonna upload some narcissistic ones on friendster or something. The food was ok. I was nice and full. We did some good hearty catching up and had to have the cake at home 'cos Matsuri wouldn't allow us to light candles in their restaurant. I bought the bluberry torte. Was really nice. YUM.
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Shall I even go on about my presentation? Only the fact that we had a frickin' Producer amongst us who used a movie that he co-produced as his pitch.
I don't even know why I'm helping him by plugging his movie. But it's got Adrian Pang. Erm, I think that's his name.
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That Friday, I skipped tute to go for my uniform fitting. My uniform is ugly. I like my cheongsum. I'm gonna miss that cheongsum. When I finished I went to Karrinyup with mum and Jayc. For the stupid Fcuk shop. There was probably like ten different styles of clothing in the whole entire shop and they didn't even have the fcuk phrase tops. But I bought some grey skinnylegs at Dotti, so I was happy. And then we had lunch which I shouted. Mum was pleased. I felt happy.
Then at night cazmichkimnme went to Curtin Idol. Full fob fest I tells ya. Maybe it wasn't really our scene (or my scene) so it was like eh. I liked Margeaux though, it has a nice setting. But I'm telling you... Burswood has so much better places which I'll tell you about later. But yeah we did end up leaving Margxz for northbridge which we did some club hopping to no avail. So we ran back to Margxz and stayed there. I think, sadly, I'm a metro's girl. I'm more comfortable there. Even if they did kick me out.
When the night did end, we went BACK to nb to eat. Found our way to... one of those restaurants and ate. And whilst we were eating we had these guys on the table next to us being shitheads. Honestly they were probably good guys but I didn't have the patience to deal with them that night. The one guy looks at our sizzling jap tofu dish and asks what it was, he asked if it was a claypot. So I was like
'Does this look like a bloody claypot to you?' while Kim told them it was tofu. So he turns around saying,
'Guys, its tau- fu.' Grr. They were trying to say stuff to us. But we were in too deep a conversation to notice them. I think they were even listening in the bastard.
The night was funny. Very interesting, I had fun. *nods* Am looking forward to CaroLyn's bday Bash on this Saturday at HS and Mets though. Hope everyone goes, ok? No invite :))
Guys, no more HP jokes, it's soo last season.
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And finally my work orientation!! Believe it or not, it wasn't too bad. It was fun. Made new friends, which was the best bit by the way. It's not fun walking around Burswood without anyone to talk to. I sat near this girl called Tracey, she's a year younger and working in Food and Beverage but another restaurant. We got talking about uni stuff and MSU and ASIA peoples. It was funny. And we both knew so many people as well. Small world it is. I'll come back to this 'small world' of ours.
So we walked EVERYWHERE, even went into the hotels, riveside suites and boy are they nice. Too bad we couldn't go to the presidential suite :((
Apparantly we get staff discounts off the rooms which works out to be TOTALLY worth it. The only thing is, casual staff have to wait 2 YEARS for room discounts! Sucks balls mann..
Oh yeah, then we went to [A]Lure. Zomg! It's the coolest place ever. Seafood restaurant/ bar. The bar looks awesome with all its alcohol... .. I want to transfer there... I also wanna go there for drinks, k?
Back to small world. I was looking at the group and found this guy to be awfully [hot] familiar. Blonde, buff and yeah... naw he's a bit short for a guy. But anyway's when I heard his name called out, the light bulb came on, and he was this guy that went to my primary school. Primary school! Can you believe it? I couldn't. Of all places I couldn't imagine him sitting right in front of me today. He was Very well groomed and dressed. And seemed to have a goal ahead for himself. He's doing better than a lot of the other hobo's from p.s. But I was so excited I wanted to talk to him. And I did it today. Just to be nice and friendly right? 'Cos everyone else was talking to everyone else. So when his name was called, I asked him in the most subtle way I could :
'Sorry, was you name [insertnamehere]?' and it was and I asked him if he went to Beechboro p.s and he did and like anyone would, he was a little shocked. I really hate doing that, knowing stuff about people when they don't know me, 'cos he obviously didn't remember me. I said that to him and he was like, 'sorry, I don't remember'. Like how bummed out was I. I asked him a little bit about if he still kept in touch with some p.s people, but the conversation didn't go far. Especially when he said,
'Wow, that really warped me out. ' Man that sounds name on print. But anyways, I kinda took it offensively, and stopped talking to him. Meanwhile we were getting split up to go to our separate departments for more orietating, which meant me and Tracey were split up. That meant I was a loner again. To avoid it, I was gonna talk to this guy that I heard was gonna go to banquets as well, but as soon as I approached him, he talked to me first! I thought he was the quiet introvert type 'cos he never talked to us the whole time we were there. But he seemed quite nice! And guess what? He's a fob! (inside joke). And we talked quite a bit, I was like, damn, shoulda talked to him before! But yeah, when we were walking to our cars after, I was fully retarded for a minute or so 'cos I was walking away from my car to another car park. The one I parked at yesterday. Then he asked me if I needed a lift to my car but I was like, of course not, it's here somewhere, but he only asked 'cos it was raining.
And what do you know? My damn car wasn't there! So, embarrassed, I ran back to his car, knocked on his window, and asked for a lift to the other side of the hotel. SOO damnn awkward 'cos I was fully embarrassed hey. And he made awkward conversation. LOL, I found it hilarious after.
But yeah, that's two friends. I'm so proud of myself. As you can see I don't make friends so often, LOL.
I might leave it there, because I've already written way too much. I'll have to write it later.
-{ missing you 4/24/2007 08:17:00 pm }-
Thursday, April 19, 2007
- Her.e in. my arms is p.robably where you'll fin.d that other g.uy -
Half to study. Half to blog.
Michelle and Noelle made me say cb todays. I know it was part of the story, so I guess there was no going round it.
I'm so angry tonight. At a lot of things. My 30 fucking percent presentation for one thing. Am still writing up. The other is at those fucking Sydneyans.
Nothing personal. Only 'cos they get to be Sydneyans and get concerts like the RAIN concert where those stupid fans OVER there didn't even have enough fucking people to buy all of his tickets that VIP tickets were given away. RAWR.
And it's taking me for-ever to get my stupid piercing. I should've done it today while I was at the city.
And why is my stupid course so stupid? WHYWHYWHYWHY???
Omg, did any watch the news abt that Korean student who went on yet another disastrous killing rampage? Did you hear what the news called him? THEY CALLED HIM A LONER. Geezz, it's not like I'm condoning what he did, but calling him a loner is definitely not the way to go about things. So many people around us are such potential rampant killers that its the small stuff that are likely to set them off. Sigh, damn media.
Fuck I only have one minute out of four on my presentation. Man did I fuck up bad.. GRRRRR
SOO angryyyyyyyyyyy
Michelle and Noelle made me say cb todays. I know it was part of the story, so I guess there was no going round it.
I'm so angry tonight. At a lot of things. My 30 fucking percent presentation for one thing. Am still writing up. The other is at those fucking Sydneyans.
Nothing personal. Only 'cos they get to be Sydneyans and get concerts like the RAIN concert where those stupid fans OVER there didn't even have enough fucking people to buy all of his tickets that VIP tickets were given away. RAWR.
And it's taking me for-ever to get my stupid piercing. I should've done it today while I was at the city.
And why is my stupid course so stupid? WHYWHYWHYWHY???
Omg, did any watch the news abt that Korean student who went on yet another disastrous killing rampage? Did you hear what the news called him? THEY CALLED HIM A LONER. Geezz, it's not like I'm condoning what he did, but calling him a loner is definitely not the way to go about things. So many people around us are such potential rampant killers that its the small stuff that are likely to set them off. Sigh, damn media.
Fuck I only have one minute out of four on my presentation. Man did I fuck up bad.. GRRRRR
SOO angryyyyyyyyyyy
-{ missing you 4/19/2007 01:44:00 am }-
Monday, April 16, 2007
- Don't lecture ME about alcohol, you. -
Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And its all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
*giggles innocently*
Yeah, why should I change my blog and what I write on my blog for the sake of others? These days everyone is getting too self conscious. It's not healthy. But then in saying so, what is stopping me from ranting down another religion as opposed to my own because I think it has had a negative affect on someone I know? I can't. Because it's.. not right, to an extent. I guess it's my own beliefs. I don't think religion should play such an influential part in our lives. We play our own game and change our own lives. We control our past, our present and our future...
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And its all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
*giggles innocently*
Yeah, why should I change my blog and what I write on my blog for the sake of others? These days everyone is getting too self conscious. It's not healthy. But then in saying so, what is stopping me from ranting down another religion as opposed to my own because I think it has had a negative affect on someone I know? I can't. Because it's.. not right, to an extent. I guess it's my own beliefs. I don't think religion should play such an influential part in our lives. We play our own game and change our own lives. We control our past, our present and our future...
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer
Today, daddy dearest told me not to drink anymore vodka. Mummy dearest told him that I bought smirnoff the other day for allied not knowing what it was, and he said that it's something girls shouldn't drink. He told me that it was strong and disgusting and a poor quality of alcohol.
I told daddy dearest that I knew the first two things, and if it would make him feel better, I shall upgrade quality for next time. Cognac anyone?
This is my first Cyanide and Happiness entry. Most of them are great. You know why this one is here.
The other night, while lying in bed, I felt a pang of insignificance. This retched feeling that I was so small and insignificant in this gigantic world that my existence was worthless. That I've done nothing good up till now. Why is it that I felt that way? I don't feel sad or anything of the sort. Just so smalllll..... whywhywhy?
And the answer to all your problems. Yes, I've changed. Into a sad alcoholic who does the whole lyrics thing on her blog. And who will follow in the path of falling down a dark path of stupidity until I'll have to cease blogging. I hope I never stop blogging. I hope I can use this to create a better future for myself. To create this mirror of wrongs for me to face and reflect on and hopefully to not reflect off. Someday, I will be able to tell the truth. And not be the hypocrite I am now calling people l i a r s. Which reminds me:
I have been cheated of trust so many times, and now it's finally showing. I've become the ultimate pessimistic. I'm the fucked up [emotional] sadomasochist. Stupid Freud. Sademochist. Mwahahaha. My own creation. Stuck in the goddamn middle and there is no turning back.
No turningg back. Where's my H_______? Where's my S______? Where's my A_____?
9363
-{ missing you 4/16/2007 01:39:00 am }-
Sunday, April 15, 2007
- Sunday days -
Ok guys, I'm over it. Please stop asking me if he has called ok???
May I complain? I feel like complaining. I've worked part-time hours this week. And now all sore from work. Today was extra hectic, extra extra crappy. It seemed to have rained the whole day today. Probably because Noelle asked it to Rain in Perth. Good one NoL. I needs to go somewhere and takes some pictures. Rawr.
Apparantly karrinyup is gonna have a new Fcuk store. YAY!
bahh, what a shitty post.. i got side tracked.
May I complain? I feel like complaining. I've worked part-time hours this week. And now all sore from work. Today was extra hectic, extra extra crappy. It seemed to have rained the whole day today. Probably because Noelle asked it to Rain in Perth. Good one NoL. I needs to go somewhere and takes some pictures. Rawr.
Apparantly karrinyup is gonna have a new Fcuk store. YAY!
bahh, what a shitty post.. i got side tracked.
-{ missing you 4/15/2007 11:23:00 pm }-
Friday, April 13, 2007
- Games galore -
/I tried to resist, but couldn't. so here we go./
How seriously do you take a game? Any game. The keyword today, is 'serious'.
How ironic that the question is a paradox within itself. When we used to play games, the saying was 'it's just a game'. It doesn't matter if you win or lose. As long as you have fun. But you don't HAVE fun when you godamn lose. So yes sometimes it matters. No one likes to be a loser.
But as you move into different genres of games, there becomes the element of pure playing the game, that really, winning or losing is merely a small factor of it. So back to the question, how seriously should you take the game?
I definitely don't want to play a non-existent game. If the outcomes and consequences were for real, then I'm screwed. If the game wasn't a game at all, I've screwed myself over also.
If I took anything seriously at all, then I'll end up being the LOSER 'cos I didn't play it properly. That's why it varies with different people. Some like to act cool pretending to go about it with a 'whatever' attitude. And that just pisses me off. Because if I decide to play, then I might be making myself look like the shithead. But if I don't play they'll point and laugh in my face and say ' HAHA! You lost, bitch!'. As I mentioned before, I'm screwed either way.
(Back from 20 minute break)
Darn I don't know what I was on about. I was making some soup. It smells nice. Ok, the question still stands for anyone willing to answer. At the moment, I choose to play the game however I want. With and without the attitude. With the talk-backs and with the innocence. Without the need of having someone by my side and without the late night phone calls. I can do without.
~And the reason is you~ Hoobastank.
How seriously do you take a game? Any game. The keyword today, is 'serious'.
How ironic that the question is a paradox within itself. When we used to play games, the saying was 'it's just a game'. It doesn't matter if you win or lose. As long as you have fun. But you don't HAVE fun when you godamn lose. So yes sometimes it matters. No one likes to be a loser.
But as you move into different genres of games, there becomes the element of pure playing the game, that really, winning or losing is merely a small factor of it. So back to the question, how seriously should you take the game?
I definitely don't want to play a non-existent game. If the outcomes and consequences were for real, then I'm screwed. If the game wasn't a game at all, I've screwed myself over also.
If I took anything seriously at all, then I'll end up being the LOSER 'cos I didn't play it properly. That's why it varies with different people. Some like to act cool pretending to go about it with a 'whatever' attitude. And that just pisses me off. Because if I decide to play, then I might be making myself look like the shithead. But if I don't play they'll point and laugh in my face and say ' HAHA! You lost, bitch!'. As I mentioned before, I'm screwed either way.
(Back from 20 minute break)
Darn I don't know what I was on about. I was making some soup. It smells nice. Ok, the question still stands for anyone willing to answer. At the moment, I choose to play the game however I want. With and without the attitude. With the talk-backs and with the innocence. Without the need of having someone by my side and without the late night phone calls. I can do without.
~And the reason is you~ Hoobastank.
-{ missing you 4/13/2007 03:31:00 pm }-
- Laying out the cards for the game -
Crashed at Noelle's last night with Caroline and what believed to be a Michelle who couldn't make it after all. We all went karaoking (again). Caroline's friends came by too, whom we had all met before. At karaoking. It's awful cos they think we're ktv freaks. And we kinda are. Which means we need to stop. For a while.
And then my dear friend alcohol snuck himself in as well. Was not happy at the sight of him first, but everyone gradually accepts his presence. So far, two out of two events with these people have have involved alcohol. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeh. oh ew, whisky in my shoe.
:((
Well, sadly Mich left us early, and those three girls left me in that room with those people. Ok, I'm not complaining..... moving on. We finished up by walking to Pot Black, and I had the sudden urge to play pool (hrm, i wonder why) which wasn't very productive because no one was in any mood to play, and some of 'them' found it amusing to talk. Whilst it probably wasn't ideal for me to be bending over so much.
After that we went to eat by the request of me. No one else was hungry but everyone ate the food except me, Noelle and Caz.. I was too busy losing my appetite throughout the course of the time. A bunch of funny people though.
It was an interesting night. Not to mention that I've had an unproductive academic week. I will be looking forward to more fun nights and unproductive study. :)))))
I'm hungry.
And then my dear friend alcohol snuck himself in as well. Was not happy at the sight of him first, but everyone gradually accepts his presence. So far, two out of two events with these people have have involved alcohol. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeh. oh ew, whisky in my shoe.
:((
Well, sadly Mich left us early, and those three girls left me in that room with those people. Ok, I'm not complaining..... moving on. We finished up by walking to Pot Black, and I had the sudden urge to play pool (hrm, i wonder why) which wasn't very productive because no one was in any mood to play, and some of 'them' found it amusing to talk. Whilst it probably wasn't ideal for me to be bending over so much.
After that we went to eat by the request of me. No one else was hungry but everyone ate the food except me, Noelle and Caz.. I was too busy losing my appetite throughout the course of the time. A bunch of funny people though.
It was an interesting night. Not to mention that I've had an unproductive academic week. I will be looking forward to more fun nights and unproductive study. :)))))
I'm hungry.
-{ missing you 4/13/2007 01:20:00 am }-
Monday, April 09, 2007
- [none] -
Half arsed story.... MY ASS.
Seems like I remember LESS than I thought I did. And now I feel God awful. Feelin' shameful and everything synonymous.
I owe everyone apologies of some sort. How do I make it up to you? I'll buy you a drink. Oh god that was low.
rawr, i'll blog later
Seems like I remember LESS than I thought I did. And now I feel God awful. Feelin' shameful and everything synonymous.
I owe everyone apologies of some sort. How do I make it up to you? I'll buy you a drink. Oh god that was low.
rawr, i'll blog later
-{ missing you 4/09/2007 04:47:00 pm }-
Saturday, April 07, 2007
- Snogs and teacup parties -
Sighhhhh.
Allied hey? What a night. I don't even know where to begin.
Well it began quite awful with poor Michelle thinking she had lost her ID, and me forgetting to bring my ticket. But all that was sorted by 10 something, which meant we didn't have much time to finish off the drinks I brought to ktv.
But we finished it off anyway. And I hope everyone don't mind me saying how tipsy they were already. The funniest thing that happened was when Fern, Kim, Karen and I were standing outside waiting for the others and Kim said something to this random guy and then turned to us and said:
'Hey guys! He's half caste! How cool is that!' or something like that. Cracked me up.
So by the time we kinda got there, it was 11ish. And guess who already had way too much to drink and was sitting on the kerb yakkin' it? Notttt me! I'll leave this person unnamed 'til they 'fess themself up.
I was fine until it was shot after shot after shot after shot... hrms.. I dunno when it stopped. Oh. It stopped when Mich left me. FOR @#$%. Of all people!!?!?! She's so cadbury. Ha! That's for leaving me for @#$%!. But yeah it was hell packed. So packed in fact I should be greatful. If it wasn't with all those people on the dancefloor so close to me, I would've hit the floor so fast, but instead I was bumping into other people to keep on my feet! And then it got to one stage where I had to take a rest, and was sprawled on the bar and cut my elbow. It was bleeding like mad! I think Eddy cleaned me up before I headed back into the crowd again. Wondering aimlessly? I'm not sure what I got up to in between. Time went by fast.
Something something happened somewhere.. I did do some very stupid things. Not proud but don't care. Cos there will be no consequences. But the music just got better and better, I just can't remember it all. The best (and probs because I can remember) song was SEMI CHARMED LIFE! Like, YAY. I love that song.
Then something something... and then fell into emotional crying stage and then GOT KICKED OUT. Bastards thought I was out of it and led me outside.. unluckily for Eddy, I pulled him with me. That or he had no choice but to follow me out. The outside ordeal was funny also, many words thrown around, especially
'Karen! omg Karen! I love you Karen! You're so cool..' Like, eh. We were almost gone. And I could remember pinky swearing with her like heaps. LOL. And then there was Grace! Omg, we were just blabbering crap all and it was so funny, she said:
'Omg Lisa, we should talk more! You're like me, but not' I was laughing like a loser. But yeah! Happy I made a friend that night. And who can't forget Jack. I was pulling him down to sit down and didn't quite make contact and people thought I was going for his ciggie and I heard a lot of people saying
'Lisa, omg Lisa do you smoke? Don't smoke its not good!' 'Stop it Lisa you don't want to do that!' Blah blah. I was not going for his cig.
And then in the car ride home, it was phone calls to all the miss calls I had. One in particular was Mich's friend, I was ranting some bullshit off to him, very embarrassing. And then I called Darren 'cos Ling used his phone to call me. I think he got pissed off cos I asked who he was like .. 10 times before he handed the phone to Ling, whom I raved and ranted everything to her. Golly gosh.
That's the brief rundown of the night. It was a good night. I don't do this often which is why I have soemthing to say :)) Oh and I came home to find that I had all these cuts on my feet from the broken glass on the floor. Bah.
MAJOR SHOUTOUTz to NoLs and Eddy. NoLz for taking me home and listening to me rant in the car. I know I told you something really icky. I shudder at the thought of it EVERYTIME. And Eddy for just being there and taking [GOOD] care of me. It is and will be the first and last time. I don't think he would want to club with me no more.
And to everyone else I hope you had just as good of a great night out. o_O
Allied hey? What a night. I don't even know where to begin.
Well it began quite awful with poor Michelle thinking she had lost her ID, and me forgetting to bring my ticket. But all that was sorted by 10 something, which meant we didn't have much time to finish off the drinks I brought to ktv.
But we finished it off anyway. And I hope everyone don't mind me saying how tipsy they were already. The funniest thing that happened was when Fern, Kim, Karen and I were standing outside waiting for the others and Kim said something to this random guy and then turned to us and said:
'Hey guys! He's half caste! How cool is that!' or something like that. Cracked me up.
So by the time we kinda got there, it was 11ish. And guess who already had way too much to drink and was sitting on the kerb yakkin' it? Notttt me! I'll leave this person unnamed 'til they 'fess themself up.
I was fine until it was shot after shot after shot after shot... hrms.. I dunno when it stopped. Oh. It stopped when Mich left me. FOR @#$%. Of all people!!?!?! She's so cadbury. Ha! That's for leaving me for @#$%!. But yeah it was hell packed. So packed in fact I should be greatful. If it wasn't with all those people on the dancefloor so close to me, I would've hit the floor so fast, but instead I was bumping into other people to keep on my feet! And then it got to one stage where I had to take a rest, and was sprawled on the bar and cut my elbow. It was bleeding like mad! I think Eddy cleaned me up before I headed back into the crowd again. Wondering aimlessly? I'm not sure what I got up to in between. Time went by fast.
Something something happened somewhere.. I did do some very stupid things. Not proud but don't care. Cos there will be no consequences. But the music just got better and better, I just can't remember it all. The best (and probs because I can remember) song was SEMI CHARMED LIFE! Like, YAY. I love that song.
Then something something... and then fell into emotional crying stage and then GOT KICKED OUT. Bastards thought I was out of it and led me outside.. unluckily for Eddy, I pulled him with me. That or he had no choice but to follow me out. The outside ordeal was funny also, many words thrown around, especially
'Karen! omg Karen! I love you Karen! You're so cool..' Like, eh. We were almost gone. And I could remember pinky swearing with her like heaps. LOL. And then there was Grace! Omg, we were just blabbering crap all and it was so funny, she said:
'Omg Lisa, we should talk more! You're like me, but not' I was laughing like a loser. But yeah! Happy I made a friend that night. And who can't forget Jack. I was pulling him down to sit down and didn't quite make contact and people thought I was going for his ciggie and I heard a lot of people saying
'Lisa, omg Lisa do you smoke? Don't smoke its not good!' 'Stop it Lisa you don't want to do that!' Blah blah. I was not going for his cig.
And then in the car ride home, it was phone calls to all the miss calls I had. One in particular was Mich's friend, I was ranting some bullshit off to him, very embarrassing. And then I called Darren 'cos Ling used his phone to call me. I think he got pissed off cos I asked who he was like .. 10 times before he handed the phone to Ling, whom I raved and ranted everything to her. Golly gosh.
That's the brief rundown of the night. It was a good night. I don't do this often which is why I have soemthing to say :)) Oh and I came home to find that I had all these cuts on my feet from the broken glass on the floor. Bah.
MAJOR SHOUTOUTz to NoLs and Eddy. NoLz for taking me home and listening to me rant in the car. I know I told you something really icky. I shudder at the thought of it EVERYTIME. And Eddy for just being there and taking [GOOD] care of me. It is and will be the first and last time. I don't think he would want to club with me no more.
And to everyone else I hope you had just as good of a great night out. o_O
-{ missing you 4/07/2007 12:04:00 am }-
Thursday, April 05, 2007
- Call me, Coke -
And then there are those wonderful people. The people who care. Tell me to be careful if I'm going to drink, make sure I don't outdo myself, tell me that I'm good the way I am and I don't need to be any more any less.
The ones that know how to keep that smile smilng on my face. The ones that tell me what I need to hear without making it obvious. The ones that go 'Me and you; we're beyond gifts and birthdays and favourite colours. We're up there'.
They're the ones who are hard to find. But boy do you feel good to call them your friend. Better to have them in your life than not at all I say. :))
The ones that know how to keep that smile smilng on my face. The ones that tell me what I need to hear without making it obvious. The ones that go 'Me and you; we're beyond gifts and birthdays and favourite colours. We're up there'.
They're the ones who are hard to find. But boy do you feel good to call them your friend. Better to have them in your life than not at all I say. :))
-{ missing you 4/05/2007 01:00:00 am }-
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
- Bottle me up. -
Some guys have a lot of.. what would you call it, sides? They have a lot of sides to them.
A picture can paint a thousand words, sometimes with the help of words, you find out they are LIARS. Scumbag liars.
And then the pictures further depict that they are complete idiots, fagholes, liars, players ... liars and just complete fuckers. Nothing against this fucker. He just IS one.
But he's got a HOT side as well. So, superficially, I don't mind. Just don't let me be around him too often 'cos apparantly he likes to 'act'.
A picture can paint a thousand words, sometimes with the help of words, you find out they are LIARS. Scumbag liars.
And then the pictures further depict that they are complete idiots, fagholes, liars, players ... liars and just complete fuckers. Nothing against this fucker. He just IS one.
But he's got a HOT side as well. So, superficially, I don't mind. Just don't let me be around him too often 'cos apparantly he likes to 'act'.
-{ missing you 4/04/2007 07:41:00 pm }-
- Bobble heads? -
She's li-ke so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about
Hey hey, you you
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey hey, you you
I could be your girlfriend
Zomg, I lurve this Avril song, so much more than her Eragon one.
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about
Hey hey, you you
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey hey, you you
I could be your girlfriend
Zomg, I lurve this Avril song, so much more than her Eragon one.
-{ missing you 4/04/2007 05:40:00 pm }-
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
- Lyrics -
The funniest thing just happened. I was down at the Police dept getting a police clearance from (that cost me a frickin' $43). When he finished typing up my details and came across to confirm my details, I got an sms. The problem was my message ringtone. It's the beginning of a song that kinda goes...
'.. rob the juice store 'til it make me a crib..'. I freaked out and fumbled to get my phone outta my pocket to rid of the song. It was so embarrassing and the police guy gave me this weird look, which I tried to brush off...
Well, I don't know if the lyrics are right, if anyone know's what the song is called please let me know.
And some fagholes should watch what they.. say.. or they're gonna get hurt .. (not) by me. mwahaha
'.. rob the juice store 'til it make me a crib..'. I freaked out and fumbled to get my phone outta my pocket to rid of the song. It was so embarrassing and the police guy gave me this weird look, which I tried to brush off...
Well, I don't know if the lyrics are right, if anyone know's what the song is called please let me know.
And some fagholes should watch what they.. say.. or they're gonna get hurt .. (not) by me. mwahaha
-{ missing you 4/03/2007 02:15:00 pm }-
- screwy -
As you can see I had to delete the previous post with the video clip. On my computer it just seems screwy. Wonder if it worked on your comps?
ANyway, is it just me or my blog is stuffed up? The archives and stat counter are located all the way at the bottom of the page. I don't care, I'm just going to leave it there because I don't know how to fix it.
ANyway, is it just me or my blog is stuffed up? The archives and stat counter are located all the way at the bottom of the page. I don't care, I'm just going to leave it there because I don't know how to fix it.
-{ missing you 4/03/2007 10:56:00 am }-
Sunday, April 01, 2007
-{ missing you 4/01/2007 08:29:00 pm }-
- My blue jacket, no longer!! -
Go here. He's got this blog thing... cbf explaining it. Just go and see. And this is my blog entry from it:
I was at the taxi stand this morning, waiting for a taxi to come, when a RUDE ANG MOH come by and GRAB MY ASS!!!!!!!!!
I was so shocked I immediately took off my slipper and SMACKED HIM OVER THE HEAD. But you know what the fucker did? HE IGNORED ME AND CONTINUE TO GRAB MY ASS!!!! SO ANGRY! I HOPE HE DROPS DEAD AND TWITCHES IN AGONY BEFORE HE DIES, THAT LOUSY, MUTHAFUCKING RUDE ANG MOH!
I am so fucking irritated with that RUDE ANG MOH! So what if he is a RUDE ANG MOH? Doesn't mean he can just GRAB MY ASS like that. If every single RUDE ANG MOH come and GRAB MY ASS, I still need to live meh?!!
I thought it was hilarious. Well, it made my day.
Sadly enough I don't think I will be quitting my job. Bah.
Oh and thanks for the email. I just want to announce it because it really genuinely did make a difference. Thank you for sharing with me your thoughts. I don't know how to tell you that I really appreciate it without sounding too corny. Sigh. I'm fine, I'll keep telling me I'm fine and maybe I'll trick myself into believing it. I don't care for little messages hoping for .. a second chance? Or whatever it may be. Someday, I hope to share this with everyone. One day, when I'm ready?
My mofo of a brother keeps calling me a mofo. He's such a faghole.
I was at the taxi stand this morning, waiting for a taxi to come, when a RUDE ANG MOH come by and GRAB MY ASS!!!!!!!!!
I was so shocked I immediately took off my slipper and SMACKED HIM OVER THE HEAD. But you know what the fucker did? HE IGNORED ME AND CONTINUE TO GRAB MY ASS!!!! SO ANGRY! I HOPE HE DROPS DEAD AND TWITCHES IN AGONY BEFORE HE DIES, THAT LOUSY, MUTHAFUCKING RUDE ANG MOH!
I am so fucking irritated with that RUDE ANG MOH! So what if he is a RUDE ANG MOH? Doesn't mean he can just GRAB MY ASS like that. If every single RUDE ANG MOH come and GRAB MY ASS, I still need to live meh?!!
I thought it was hilarious. Well, it made my day.
Sadly enough I don't think I will be quitting my job. Bah.
Oh and thanks for the email. I just want to announce it because it really genuinely did make a difference. Thank you for sharing with me your thoughts. I don't know how to tell you that I really appreciate it without sounding too corny. Sigh. I'm fine, I'll keep telling me I'm fine and maybe I'll trick myself into believing it. I don't care for little messages hoping for .. a second chance? Or whatever it may be. Someday, I hope to share this with everyone. One day, when I'm ready?
My mofo of a brother keeps calling me a mofo. He's such a faghole.
-{ missing you 4/01/2007 07:48:00 pm }-