There's no point saying who is who right? We all know who they are right? Caz-noL-mich

My sober-silly pose. Yep sober. I refrained from the bottle and took some decent looking pictures first.

me-alistair. me still sober.

cecilia-fel-yeeyang-me. The beloved ktv crew. The other ones that share the ktv love.

And then. could. not. resist. I somewhat realise how wrong this picture could look. still sober. but are we not cute?

mich-me-anthony-ed. That's anthony! the 1/3 of the coke n mentos thing.

and this is a blurry group shot! pity it was blurry cos it was awesome. It took me a while to get everybody stuffed in the corner. A lot of shouting LOL

gracii- babiii! haha dis gurl, i was supposed to see after metros on the stairs. our usual meeting spot after metros. *cough*allied*cough* but i didnt make it there.

grace-mich

XP .. hehe as you can see. i'm just a little consumed.

caz! the only one who knows when to pose when the camera is pointed her way. told ya. they're all cam-whores =P

someone-alison. sorry, i forgot who this was. He came fromthe other room.. didn't get a proper introduction..

awesome noL and happy mich

poor girl trying to stay un-intoxicated so she could take us home. and here is mich feeding it to her.

ali-jeremy-caz. jeremy has a bottle sticker on his head. *nods* i thot i was bad

zomg look at these alco's! lucky i snapped a shot to show and tell.

...and then someone took one of ME. sprawled on the floor singing what i believed to be 5ive. I don't look that bad there do i?

I took a picture of michs legs accidentally and was gonna upload it for fun. But I don't hink she will be happy. Anyways. That night was great but not for various reasons. I hope to say that this will be the last that you'll see of me sprawled on the floor of the ktv room cos i had one too many, drinks. smirf is still sitting in my room and i shoved him in the corner cos i'm angry and scared. I think.. I will say more another day..

Can you wash your feet? They're dirty and leaving imprints in my mind.

And for a certain someone. Cos i know you wanted to see this. but the words 'down south' and 'winter hibernation' will forever scar me for life.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 57% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Teehee.. farni shit

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

AUGUST BABY
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind hearted. Self confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain". Caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "Charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. + lazy.

Reading up on useless email/internet horiscopes and predictions of who I am. Like I need them to establish who I am and why I make the decisions I make. Right? I would like to say most of the descriptions above are not me. But unfortunately, it is ever so accurate. Like the only thing that I would MAJORLY disagree on is the 'everything's peachy' attitude. EVERYTHING else I can kind of nod my head to. Yep. Even the 'no pain no gain' one. Have I not said that to someone before??

The only thing it lacks is 'lazy'. Let me just add that in then....

There we go.

This week has been pretty useless. I've been getting .. abuse for not celebrating, going out and all that jiz. But. I dunno. Why should I have an excuse? I was called upon at 11pm at night to go out.. but it was 11pm. My mum (not like I've pissed her off and rebelled enough already) would have had me murdered. ANd it was cold and I wasn't in the mood to put together an outfit. Nor was I prepared to just walk out with ANything. I guess.. especially on the weekdays, I'm actually looking for non-alcoholic night outs. YES NON-alcoholic. Don't believe me Ay? Well when I have to drive myself down to nB, I really don't want to risk dying on the way back home. Drink-driving is a no no people.

I can't remember when, but sometime.. this or last week. I met this person.. reminded me HEAPS of someone I once called a friend. Ok. FIne maybe I'll still call them a friend.. just not a close one.. or were they ever close...? Anywayz, there were so many similarities that I couldn't help but stare at her. LIterally, she probably thought I was .. strange, if she noticed that is. Hopefully she didn't. And then I got that wave of emotions I usually get when I get reminded of my teenager past.

Speaking of meeting new people, I did exactly that last night. Keeping it short, we were supposed to go to Carnegies, but went there too late and spent most of the time in the line. But before that we (me and Caroline) were in Utopia waiting for ALan, while Kim and Simone were (also with us) waiting for their friend so they could go Cas. When ALan arrives, he arrives with their friend[s] as well as a bunch of others. Kath was there too! Ok, if memory is on my side, the others were... ALastair, Yan and Mel. Yay. I'm pretty sure that was it.. I hope. We all spent way too much time at Utopia (not singing. JKZ) when we could've got into Carnegies. But yeah I feel bad now cos, most of them all (and Caz) had 12pm curfews so we couldn't even make up for not getting into Carnegies. Boy it's really annoying trying to type that word. There was the odd 15 minutes at Belgium Beer Garden, where nobody was keen on drinking. So yeah. Kwun was there but I felt like I missed out most of the night already. Poo.

Here comes the best bit.

So after everyone went home Alan came back to nB and we went to play pooL. Like I ain't keen.. since it brings back sad and unwanted feelings of such a time and space. But yeah, I fought the sadness with the determination to win. Which I knew was impossible. But then I had good 'ol flukey on my side and won 2-1!!!!! And then that's when the 'no self control' of me kicks in. Two things. I didn't want to go home. And I was confident to win another game giving me 3-1 to boast about. OH! And in the second round, I sunk 6 balls at once. That my friends, was skill. Well things went downhill from there. I lost heaps and sunk the black ball in two rounds. Which meant I had lost my 2-1 lead and had to pay for the game. I have more confidence with Pool now and I've gotten rid of the 'unwanted' feelings.

So I'm feeling pretty damn proud. The only thing I'm not confident on is 'hopping on the table' as ALan kept telling me when I couldn't reach for the ball. Like what the hell?!? I just don't think it was right. Especially which two guy Fobs on the table next to us. Hrms, get me started on fobs ay? Both short and one of them looked like a dbz character, which reminded me of that short topless b-baller way back in 2nd year. I wonder who remembers that? .. Anywayss. dbz guy was pretty good. Not that I was watching but Alan said something about him playing good. I don't like it when I know people are watching me play. And I felt eyes. rawr.

ANd omg, we had lesbian's on the other side. I was trying to be like. yeah. liberal.. they should have the right to express their homosexuality. But it's oh-so-wrong in front of Lisa's innocent eyes!!! Gawwwwsh.

Which reminds me. I had a STRANGE dream. Actually it was a good- ish dream involving someone unexpected.. oh that's what I was supposed to do.. look it up.

So since I've woken up today, it's just been .. blog-surfing and blogging. WOke up heaps late!!

Remember when I had to go on Burswood orientation, the time I skipped uni for it? Well go to Shaun's blog for the review. He actually properly gave a full account on it. Something I was too lazy to do. He even made it blog-citing. I couldn't manange to express the fun-ness of it. I'm not vocabularily equipped.

Mann. I'm not going to get over this dream. I'm sorry I keep ranting about it. Since I ain't gonna tell you what it was anyway.

You know what sucks. I have to get ready for work.

Now I'm falling asleep#And she's calling a cab#While he's having a smoke#And she's taking a drag#Now they're going to bed#And my stomach is sick#And its all in my head#But she's touching his chest now#He takes off her dress now

WAHHH why do I hate going to work so much these days. I need money!!

Your Mind is 62% Cluttered

Your mind is quite cluttered. And like most clutter, it's a bunch of crap you don't need. Try writing down your worst problems and fears. And then put them out of your mind for a while.

It's how I feel today. 62% cluttered. Just realised that there are so many little things to worry about. Not necessarily worry about, but it's on my mind.

I can't express how.. confused I am. COnfused about what you ask. About these holidays!! So far, I've been quite unproductive, working not so much (too afraid to) and not going out as much as I should be. SO hence, I'm... and I didn't want to use this word... but.. b o r e d.

And I think I've established many times that I'm fkn capped. So no yTing, downloading, and everything is just godamn slow that it is excruciating. And while the wait, there is no one on Msn to bloody chat to. And I'm not quite ready to blog from 'the list of things to blog'. Also not prepared to clean my room, burn my notes or sort through my photoz. All I'm doing is eating. Which is good. Finish exams already guys!!

Alison, Noelle, Caz and me at Ambar bar one night. A night I recall .. that I don't wanna recall. See that red shit in the photo? It's our sinister Aura. That or 'they' are trying to tell us something.

So over this post already. I want my flh. *cries* Rong Chyi took my WuZun. *sobs*pouts*

Your Love Style is Ludus

You like to think of love as the ultimate game And you love to play... even if it means lying a little You're a bit afraid to be close, and you don't get too attached A serial dater, you tend to date a few people at once And it's all good, until one of your sweeties finds out!

A few people at once?!?! Who are we kidding here?!?!

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A toast to us: For getting to where we did, where we are. For breaking past all the ego, arrogance, stubbornness and immaturity displayed between us. I am truly happy to have taken that step because I almost threw in the towel. And thank god for the hesitation. Because the hesitation was there, I knew that throwing in the towel would mean losing someone like you. I knew it would've meant throwing away something important.

Maybe the problems still exists and maybe there will still be a tinge of sadness. But we're on our way towards recovery and we'll do it on our own. It's just you and me and nobody else. (Although I hope you don't mind me blogging this now =P)

I learnt an important lesson here; the lack of communication was the vital problem and in this case, ignoring the issue was not going to solve things. Pretending like it will go away was not the key. That was the mistake and we learnt our lesson the hard way. To everyone else, when you have somethhing important in your life, think about your actions and if it's worth losing, think HARD about how much you REALLY tried to fix things and think hard about the consequences.

I know we still have much to learn, understand and talk about, but I'm not worried anymore because we have all the time in the world to get it together.

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And who just got 50% of their exams over and done with (50% being one exam)????

THAT'S RIGHT. Yours truly. And did I FUCK. IT. UP. Let me just tell you what I did last night. Ahem. Starting from dinner - eat - talk to mum - study - download song *chaoxihuanni* - download another song *zenmeban* - eat - sit in front of the heater - study - eat - eat - turn on tv - turn on hana kimi - WATCH ONE EPI of hana kimi - eat - finish watching hana kimi - stare blankly at the empty piece of paper - walk to the computer - listen to downloaded songs - accidentally click on msn - chat a little - blog surf - visit h.e.r - got TEMPTED to blog but didn't - read everyone elses blog - chat - chat sumore - get off computer altogether - day dream about JIRO - GET SOME WORK DONE.

And then I rock up with no notes this morning. Like, there's no point really. If I don't know it, I don't know it. So, while falling asleep while writing the first essay, I felt really pointless sitting there in that exam room while everyone was scribbling away. And I mean scribbling AWAY. When I put my head on the table to get some 15 second shut-eye, I heard the other five or six pens on the table scratching furiously at their answer booklets. While I slowly and neatly printed my huge writing on the lines provided. And left 15 minutes early. You should have seen me! I sighed this huge breath of relief when I left and this girl walked passed me giving me a kind of 'yeah..' look. Um. Don't ask me how it looked. So that was my day so far, the rest of the day is gonna filled with mass HANA KIMI and JIRO LOVING.

While we are on the topic of JIRO, what was the point of him asking for his 'first kiss' back? That was totally stupid. People like that are stupid. WHy must he be stupid? It makes me love him less *cries*.

So tracking back to the past... week? I haven't blogged? Yeah as you can see, I'm making up for it big time. The last week of uni was the shittiest week of the year. Shit LIKE HELL. I hated it sosososososos much. Yep, that much. But it's far away now, so no need to dwell. Swot VAC (whatever the hell that means, it's study week for those who dunno) was on the other hand a fun, week. Not much study done but fun. But the whole day-at-uni thing took much of a toll on us as we stopped staying at Reid past 6 on Thursday onwards. It lasted 3 days... sigh. But what fun times! So much procrastination and so much love for water! I've never seen people so eager to refill their water bottles... our moments at dinner, at Utopia. Yes Utopia, we went. Be greatful we didn't end up at HS.

On a short note, I have a pop-up problem. This stupid pop-up keeps telling me to smash the pinyata. I'm so tempted to smash my computer but I know that's not a good idea. Speaking of which, how funny was the pinyata at Kath's bbq! I have video footage of Kath gone wild! LOL. oopz. Shouldn't have made the -GOne wild reference. err. umm. yeah....

Back to HS. I mean, studying. Well.. the studying bit ain't so interesting and I can't remember much more. Oh except the part where I was playing with Noelle's AWESOME laptop, scribbling away sweet nothings. I may upload that pic and all the other pics I'm supposed to upload a little later. I saw more of someone I could see less of in the Library. But really, who am I to have grudges. No more avoiding. No more 'tones' after his name.

Oh and there was steamboat with my EC buddies! Yumyumyum! TomYUM was the best. So I AM gonna arrange a steamboat after exams...it's ALL you can EAT STEAMboAT!!! You know who I'm referring to! everybody that is. Watch out for the email guys.

*yawn*

I was supposed to come home and sleep. But doesn't look the case. Or I could go sleep now. And not eat. But I am hungry.

I'm pretty sure - I'm VERY sure I left NOTHING out. So don't come to me telling me I didn't add this or that in. As LONG as this post was, it is full of generalities. Not a every second detail account of my life.

Oh I just found a card in my pocket... for Dino's .. Yeah. I went there sometime this week.

SICK OF ME YET? Bet chu r.

Btw, I never got to say ... I MISS YOUUUUUU

I miss you my dear blog, sorry for the abandonment, I was a little preoccupied. I'm back now and that's all that matters.

- JiRo love_ S2