Tuesday, July 31, 2007
- Epik High - Ride -
Time for a song change, and this time, it's something funky. Old school, like couple years back I liked this song, and now I can't get enough of it. So I put it on my blog. Give it, like, two weeks. Max. I highlighted my favourite line. It took me a while to know what scoo-tar was when he said
Baby~ Baby baby baby~ neoreul t'aneunge cham joa Baby
Baby~ Baby baby baby neowa talleeneunge joa Baby~
[Bridge]
I wanna ride with you My Baby~
(on my skateboard, on my scooter, In my car)
Epik High Mithra, Tukutz, Tablo!
[Tablo]
eelgwado kkeutnago ddeona pogop'ado
keu jobeun chadoweero where you gonna go?
Tablo Skateboard t'ago
Brake-do eopdago keoreeweero k'eunp'ado
keuseumeun toodeundoogeun joobyeon sarameun soongeun soogeun
nae palmeet'e ddeun keundoo-oon
jageun kkoomeul kkooneun na mamee p'yeonhaejyeo when Im with ya
kat'eun koseul hyanghae sarange p'yeonhaengseoneul keureeja
Rail Slidin' Kick Flipin' Grindin'
nan sanggwaneopseo jeo kyoocheege saeeren
nae meotdaero sarayo nae cheonsaneun keu-e nalgaereul palmoge tarattjyo
[Mithra jeen]
oneuldo tallyeo na-e scooter-neun paramsoge kalla
sokdoneun jom neureedahaedo wegwaneun talla
machee t'aengk'euwado kat'eun kaneenhamsoge
nawaneun chak tallapootneun hoheup manjok'ae
kkwak mak'een ee tosheereul noobeemyeo tallyeo eoneu keosheedeun
pooreureung enjeen soreeneun poolbooche noonee moeeneun
toroe heureumeul t'ago wechyeo nal porago
t'a porago ee tweetjaree-e jooeeneul chatjorago
nan weonhae ee toshee saebyeok konggeereul kareumyeo
too pallo nal aneumyeo param soge toolman namneun keot
nameun keon namdeure sseun sheeseoneul ta patneun keot
modoo ooseo neomgeel keunyeoran poseogeul chatneun keot
Baby~ Baby baby baby~ neoreul t'aneunge cham joa Baby
Baby~ Baby baby baby neowa talleeneunge joa Baby~
[Bridge]
I wanna ride with you My Baby~
(on my skateboard, on my scooter, In my car)
Epik High Mithra, Tukutz, Tablo!
[Tablo]
eelgwado kkeutnago ddeona pogop'ado
keu jobeun chadoweero where you gonna go?
Tablo Skateboard t'ago
Brake-do eopdago keoreeweero k'eunp'ado
keuseumeun toodeundoogeun joobyeon sarameun soongeun soogeun
nae palmeet'e ddeun keundoo-oon
jageun kkoomeul kkooneun na mamee p'yeonhaejyeo when Im with ya
kat'eun koseul hyanghae sarange p'yeonhaengseoneul keureeja
Rail Slidin' Kick Flipin' Grindin'
nan sanggwaneopseo jeo kyoocheege saeeren
nae meotdaero sarayo nae cheonsaneun keu-e nalgaereul palmoge tarattjyo
[Mithra jeen]
oneuldo tallyeo na-e scooter-neun paramsoge kalla
sokdoneun jom neureedahaedo wegwaneun talla
machee t'aengk'euwado kat'eun kaneenhamsoge
nawaneun chak tallapootneun hoheup manjok'ae
kkwak mak'een ee tosheereul noobeemyeo tallyeo eoneu keosheedeun
pooreureung enjeen soreeneun poolbooche noonee moeeneun
toroe heureumeul t'ago wechyeo nal porago
t'a porago ee tweetjaree-e jooeeneul chatjorago
nan weonhae ee toshee saebyeok konggeereul kareumyeo
too pallo nal aneumyeo param soge toolman namneun keot
nameun keon namdeure sseun sheeseoneul ta patneun keot
modoo ooseo neomgeel keunyeoran poseogeul chatneun keot
-{ missing you 7/31/2007 08:48:00 pm }-
- one cold evening... -
After (finally) watching 'Knocked up' this arvo with Jase, Niss, Kath and Whyetatt, it reminded me of this small incident way back in high school...
Me and Claire sit there doing our own thing and then XX comes into class late.
us: why are you late? You're always late. How many excuses can you come up with?
xx (male): well yeah, I just use the same ones mostly.
us: and what would they be?
xx: I just say I have morning sickness and can't wake up.
O_o This is in our year 11 human biology class. And he comes up with this lame excuse. We laughed so hard that - I dunno, we laughed REALLY hard. What a funny tool he was. Unfortunately, both he and I received C's in HB. My reason was I had a crappy teacher.
No wait, I think the stupid ass failed HB. Stupid ass is quite smart. He literally chose to fail it. ...as did I. . . *whistles*
Me and Claire sit there doing our own thing and then XX comes into class late.
us: why are you late? You're always late. How many excuses can you come up with?
xx (male): well yeah, I just use the same ones mostly.
us: and what would they be?
xx: I just say I have morning sickness and can't wake up.
O_o This is in our year 11 human biology class. And he comes up with this lame excuse. We laughed so hard that - I dunno, we laughed REALLY hard. What a funny tool he was. Unfortunately, both he and I received C's in HB. My reason was I had a crappy teacher.
No wait, I think the stupid ass failed HB. Stupid ass is quite smart. He literally chose to fail it. ...as did I. . . *whistles*
-{ missing you 7/31/2007 08:04:00 pm }-
- wishing well -
I wish I wish I wish!
I wish someone would make me some warm honey lemon tea NOW cos my throat hurts. And then put me to bed.
I wish someone would make me some warm honey lemon tea NOW cos my throat hurts. And then put me to bed.
-{ missing you 7/31/2007 01:49:00 am }-
Monday, July 30, 2007
- dream a dream -
What happens when you find someone that's out of your reach but is someone that you think is the perfect guy to stand next to you and be there to watch over you? You find that this guy does exist but doesn't exist in your life. Will you make it that he becomes part of your life? Will you go to all lengths to make sure he notices you? Or do you sit back and keep him at arms lengths and leave him be in your dreams?
I would just sit around and mope because what are the chances that I get him by my side? Because I will only choose to have him in my dreams.
No, he's not a celebrity, he is an average ordinary guy with a fabulous heart-melting smile.
The only sad thing is the first letter of his name.
~Listening to : Evan Yo - Can you hear me
I would just sit around and mope because what are the chances that I get him by my side? Because I will only choose to have him in my dreams.
No, he's not a celebrity, he is an average ordinary guy with a fabulous heart-melting smile.
The only sad thing is the first letter of his name.
~Listening to : Evan Yo - Can you hear me
-{ missing you 7/30/2007 02:17:00 pm }-
- cherish the day with a smile -
Last night dad said to me:
Lisa, don't drink smirnoff anymore. It's bad quality alcohol. It's not good for you. I'll finish it off so you don't have to drink it.
So many things wrong with this comment.
******
Anyway, I thought I would share with you the smile that has captured my heart:
This is the boy with the talent...
... and this is his smile.
Yay, Evan S2
And just a final note, wiki says:
A teenybopper is a teenager, especially a girl in her early teens, who follows teenage fashions in music, clothes, etc.
The term was introduced in the 1950s to refer to teenagers and their music, as a result of the new phenomenon of a popular music aimed at and enjoyed by teenagers (rock and roll). It again became used widely in the late 1960s, when there began to be increased awareness of marketing in pop music and fashion aimed specifically at that age group.
-{ missing you 7/30/2007 12:35:00 pm }-
Sunday, July 29, 2007
- How to make a girl happy 101 -
I've decided on this topic for my post. I can't believe I remembered it so I'm really excited. But this could be the post that could ultimately confirm singledom for the rest of my life. Unless Mr.$$$ comes along..
As you can see dollar signs and a male is involved. Put together, my topic is about money and BOIZ.
After many discussions and thought about this, I have come to the conclusion that women these days are superficial and materialistic. Period. Most girls love to buy stuff, love to receive gifts and LOVEE to be pampered. It's not a curse, it's a wonderful thing!!
It's so nice to have some money in your wallet to spend of some shoes, dresses and accessories, but sometimes, it's much better to NOT be holding the wallet.
Ok, I try to be subtly heading toward my actual topic but it's not working. All that is going through my head is BOYFRIEND AND MONEY.
What do girls look for in a guy? Superficially speaking, a goodlooking witty guy who knows how to look after his girl. That is, knows how to trigger the smile button on her face. So by saying so, sometimes that doesn't require taking out the wallet. But let me tell you something boys. There are some fundamentals to using the wallet. That is, when the wallet MUST come out.
Food. Any meal. A meal with friends, a candlelit dinner, a quick bite. THE WALLET MUST COME OUT DIRECTLY AFTER THE MEAL. I mean, the worst thing to see is the guy to be lurking around pretending not to notice that it is time to get up and pay the god damn bill. When it's a group thing, the guys should all rush up and pay so the girls can look all sweet and innocent and give "thanks" to the guys. :)) The boyfriend should not be hesitating to pay. If by chance you have a wonderful girlfriend who understands that you ALWAYS pay for everything, she will also take out her wallet to pay for the food. But even then should you decline her. NEVER, and I say NEVERR!!!! should the bill be split between a couple. ABSOLUTE NOOOOOOOOO. I can't emphasise that enough.
Clothes and material stuff. The boyfriend goes shopping with the girl, why? LOL. You are dragged there 'cos you are the BOYFRIEND. That's what you do. I think this isn't as necessary but, it is the sweetest thing if you offer to pay for the item. It is not cool to be standing outside the shop and wait for your girlfriend. I thought this was disgusting when I saw a whole bunch of guys lined up outside the shops in MidValley shopping mall in K.L last year. I was wondering, hrms, so. many. guys. LOL. Then I realised: they're girlfriends were all INSIDE the shop!! WOW, what losers! Grr. So yeah, I know sometimes we can really splurge, so it's ok if you don't pay for the dress that cost us the odd $100+.
Miscellaneous. This would be everything else. Like movie tickets, photos, misc tickets. If you get the gist, then these things are also a TAKE-OUT-THE-WALLET things. They won't kill you. PAY FOR IT. But other miscellaneous like flowers, gifts. I don't think they're a must buy. But it wouldn't hurt to buy a flower EVERY NOW AND THEN.
But if you want IMPRESS HER .. like REALLLLLLLY IMPRESS HER socks off ( or pants off >.<), then you would buy her 99 ROSES, tell her how special she is and that your love for her is expressed through the 99 roses ... AND that SHE is your one and only rose to make the 100. Or something corny and mushy like that (stolen from Flh's Calvin). If you know how, corniness can be pulled off.
I know this is really superficial.. but it's kind of true that guys should pay most of the time. It's like a wise woman once said: if you don't have a bit of money, then don't get a girlfriend. If you're not prepared for the financial side of a girlfriend, then you are not fully equipped.
There's a tip for you boys. Alternatively, there is the hope that you can find a girl that will be happy to pay for EVERYTHING. umm. Good Luck.
As you can see dollar signs and a male is involved. Put together, my topic is about money and BOIZ.
After many discussions and thought about this, I have come to the conclusion that women these days are superficial and materialistic. Period. Most girls love to buy stuff, love to receive gifts and LOVEE to be pampered. It's not a curse, it's a wonderful thing!!
It's so nice to have some money in your wallet to spend of some shoes, dresses and accessories, but sometimes, it's much better to NOT be holding the wallet.
Ok, I try to be subtly heading toward my actual topic but it's not working. All that is going through my head is BOYFRIEND AND MONEY.
What do girls look for in a guy? Superficially speaking, a goodlooking witty guy who knows how to look after his girl. That is, knows how to trigger the smile button on her face. So by saying so, sometimes that doesn't require taking out the wallet. But let me tell you something boys. There are some fundamentals to using the wallet. That is, when the wallet MUST come out.
Food. Any meal. A meal with friends, a candlelit dinner, a quick bite. THE WALLET MUST COME OUT DIRECTLY AFTER THE MEAL. I mean, the worst thing to see is the guy to be lurking around pretending not to notice that it is time to get up and pay the god damn bill. When it's a group thing, the guys should all rush up and pay so the girls can look all sweet and innocent and give "thanks" to the guys. :)) The boyfriend should not be hesitating to pay. If by chance you have a wonderful girlfriend who understands that you ALWAYS pay for everything, she will also take out her wallet to pay for the food. But even then should you decline her. NEVER, and I say NEVERR!!!! should the bill be split between a couple. ABSOLUTE NOOOOOOOOO. I can't emphasise that enough.
Clothes and material stuff. The boyfriend goes shopping with the girl, why? LOL. You are dragged there 'cos you are the BOYFRIEND. That's what you do. I think this isn't as necessary but, it is the sweetest thing if you offer to pay for the item. It is not cool to be standing outside the shop and wait for your girlfriend. I thought this was disgusting when I saw a whole bunch of guys lined up outside the shops in MidValley shopping mall in K.L last year. I was wondering, hrms, so. many. guys. LOL. Then I realised: they're girlfriends were all INSIDE the shop!! WOW, what losers! Grr. So yeah, I know sometimes we can really splurge, so it's ok if you don't pay for the dress that cost us the odd $100+.
Miscellaneous. This would be everything else. Like movie tickets, photos, misc tickets. If you get the gist, then these things are also a TAKE-OUT-THE-WALLET things. They won't kill you. PAY FOR IT. But other miscellaneous like flowers, gifts. I don't think they're a must buy. But it wouldn't hurt to buy a flower EVERY NOW AND THEN.
But if you want IMPRESS HER .. like REALLLLLLLY IMPRESS HER socks off ( or pants off >.<), then you would buy her 99 ROSES, tell her how special she is and that your love for her is expressed through the 99 roses ... AND that SHE is your one and only rose to make the 100. Or something corny and mushy like that (stolen from Flh's Calvin). If you know how, corniness can be pulled off.
I know this is really superficial.. but it's kind of true that guys should pay most of the time. It's like a wise woman once said: if you don't have a bit of money, then don't get a girlfriend. If you're not prepared for the financial side of a girlfriend, then you are not fully equipped.
There's a tip for you boys. Alternatively, there is the hope that you can find a girl that will be happy to pay for EVERYTHING. umm. Good Luck.
-{ missing you 7/29/2007 01:22:00 pm }-
Friday, July 27, 2007
- the thought that counts -
I was just thinking...
What makes you tell people things that you hold as personal? What makes one person privy to the information and another not? It is the common idea that your 'best friend' would be the one that has access to this information, and those less close with less private information known to them about your life. Is that the way it should work? Is that really the way you want it to work?
I don't like to categorise my friends, but I guess it's something that is unconsciously done. I want to think I have friends and acquaintences. I have friends I see often and friends I don't see so often. I have friends that I can talk little to and friends I can blab endlessly to. It's all the same. They all want the same thing. To be your friend. And to see you happy.
I used to have trust issues and I sometimes think I still do. I think it's more of a security thing, thinking if I trust people less, I won't get hurt as much as I used to when I trusted everyone. But did I trust everyone back then? I merely trusted the few I thought were my friends who turned out not to be. That's all. It sucks how a small group of individuals can effect a human being to never trust again. But unconsciously, I trust. I trusted and made friends. Which is a good thing. Recently there have been things I've told people that I never thought I would mention. But sometimes, things you don't want to talk about, should be talked about. It's not about the shame. It's not about the anger. It's about looking at this incident, this mistake that you made and saying, 'yes, it was an experience. One that I will keep reminding myself of. That there were good things to it. And that by smiling, means you have finally moved on.
No matter how much you talk about it, if you can smile after the thought or the telling of the story, you're over it. I think that's why I'm so happy this week. I told the story twice. And it made me feel good. Tingly all over.
I feel happy. I feel like smiling. Maybe one day, I can tell you too. I will. I promise, one day this post will come. Because it's a part of me. And I want you all to get to know me. Even if we don't talk that much :))
Smile people
What makes you tell people things that you hold as personal? What makes one person privy to the information and another not? It is the common idea that your 'best friend' would be the one that has access to this information, and those less close with less private information known to them about your life. Is that the way it should work? Is that really the way you want it to work?
I don't like to categorise my friends, but I guess it's something that is unconsciously done. I want to think I have friends and acquaintences. I have friends I see often and friends I don't see so often. I have friends that I can talk little to and friends I can blab endlessly to. It's all the same. They all want the same thing. To be your friend. And to see you happy.
I used to have trust issues and I sometimes think I still do. I think it's more of a security thing, thinking if I trust people less, I won't get hurt as much as I used to when I trusted everyone. But did I trust everyone back then? I merely trusted the few I thought were my friends who turned out not to be. That's all. It sucks how a small group of individuals can effect a human being to never trust again. But unconsciously, I trust. I trusted and made friends. Which is a good thing. Recently there have been things I've told people that I never thought I would mention. But sometimes, things you don't want to talk about, should be talked about. It's not about the shame. It's not about the anger. It's about looking at this incident, this mistake that you made and saying, 'yes, it was an experience. One that I will keep reminding myself of. That there were good things to it. And that by smiling, means you have finally moved on.
No matter how much you talk about it, if you can smile after the thought or the telling of the story, you're over it. I think that's why I'm so happy this week. I told the story twice. And it made me feel good. Tingly all over.
I feel happy. I feel like smiling. Maybe one day, I can tell you too. I will. I promise, one day this post will come. Because it's a part of me. And I want you all to get to know me. Even if we don't talk that much :))
Smile people
-{ missing you 7/27/2007 12:36:00 pm }-
- pang! goes the hammer within my head -
A mean-o cold + sore throat and a headache creeping on does NOT stop me from blogging!
Went to communications lecture today. As most of you know I have been dreading it. But sitting their in the crowd of unknown faces didn't quite shit me. Which is good 'cos most communication students shit me with their full of crap conversations and smug looks on their faces. I admit, I am ashamed to be one of/amongst them.
This stupid flu thing made me skip loitering and lunch with Michelle and the possibilities of NoL and Caz.
I'm applying for the busary for the China trip. If I can get it then it'll be great. It's a lot of effort to get the form completed and signed and looking for referee's.
I'm looking forward to getting good groups for Communications. I hope I do. *fingers crossed* Need to finish this final year of uni with a BAM! ZIP! POW!
jia you! jia you lisa.
Went to communications lecture today. As most of you know I have been dreading it. But sitting their in the crowd of unknown faces didn't quite shit me. Which is good 'cos most communication students shit me with their full of crap conversations and smug looks on their faces. I admit, I am ashamed to be one of/amongst them.
This stupid flu thing made me skip loitering and lunch with Michelle and the possibilities of NoL and Caz.
I'm applying for the busary for the China trip. If I can get it then it'll be great. It's a lot of effort to get the form completed and signed and looking for referee's.
I'm looking forward to getting good groups for Communications. I hope I do. *fingers crossed* Need to finish this final year of uni with a BAM! ZIP! POW!
jia you! jia you lisa.
-{ missing you 7/27/2007 11:52:00 am }-
Thursday, July 26, 2007
- I'm having these feelings -
Does anyone bother reading my titles I wonder? They're so small and insignificant.
Had a blast of a day today (woot!) *sarcasm* , it was so great I nearly fell asleep in linguistics. Now I have to ilecture it. -_-" Oh, maybe it was because I was so damn full from lunch. I kept squirming in my seat cos I was going to burst from fullness. Then I eventually got restless. I was quite awake in asian studies after though, how interesting..
Anyway. Feelings. So many feelings. So many things thrown at me to think about today. I'm definitely not going to get any sleep tonight! And all these conversations I've had over the week. A certain topic that risen couple of times from different people. It's funny how everyone would like to know the same things. And also funny that I have something to share. Today has given me chances to redeem myself, chances to explain myself, chances to be happy/ angry and chances to not care whatsoever. But it's all in good spirit. I chose to look these chances past.
I think I really want to quit Burswood. And if I really want to I should do it right? But, where will I get income? It's such a bad time to quit anyhow, so maybe for the sake of money I should stay on? Times like these, money is everything. Don't ever tell me you can't live without money.
That's all for now :))
Had a blast of a day today (woot!) *sarcasm* , it was so great I nearly fell asleep in linguistics. Now I have to ilecture it. -_-" Oh, maybe it was because I was so damn full from lunch. I kept squirming in my seat cos I was going to burst from fullness. Then I eventually got restless. I was quite awake in asian studies after though, how interesting..
Anyway. Feelings. So many feelings. So many things thrown at me to think about today. I'm definitely not going to get any sleep tonight! And all these conversations I've had over the week. A certain topic that risen couple of times from different people. It's funny how everyone would like to know the same things. And also funny that I have something to share. Today has given me chances to redeem myself, chances to explain myself, chances to be happy/ angry and chances to not care whatsoever. But it's all in good spirit. I chose to look these chances past.
I think I really want to quit Burswood. And if I really want to I should do it right? But, where will I get income? It's such a bad time to quit anyhow, so maybe for the sake of money I should stay on? Times like these, money is everything. Don't ever tell me you can't live without money.
That's all for now :))
-{ missing you 7/26/2007 05:23:00 pm }-
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
- promiscuity -
Am reading this book called 'Leaving Mother Lake'. Told by Namu, she gives a narrative account about her life when she left her small village for the big city. It's about one of the minority groups in CHina. A group called the Moso and their awesome lifestyle.
Firstly, it's a matriarchal society. But that's not as good as it gets. Their most interesting characteristic is that it's ok to have more than one lover. That's right. You heard me. Lover. Not husband. But lover. He comes to you room. You do your 'thing'. He leaves. And that's the end of that chapter.
And this goes on until nobody becomes attracted to you. And the pregnancies are bonuses. The bigger your family is, the better. And no one is to speak ill of who comes and goes in your room. Everyone respects the private matters that lay within the woman's room.
Like I said. AWESOME.
Firstly, it's a matriarchal society. But that's not as good as it gets. Their most interesting characteristic is that it's ok to have more than one lover. That's right. You heard me. Lover. Not husband. But lover. He comes to you room. You do your 'thing'. He leaves. And that's the end of that chapter.
And this goes on until nobody becomes attracted to you. And the pregnancies are bonuses. The bigger your family is, the better. And no one is to speak ill of who comes and goes in your room. Everyone respects the private matters that lay within the woman's room.
Like I said. AWESOME.
-{ missing you 7/25/2007 05:34:00 pm }-
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
- how was ur day today? -
Mine started with a nice early start to the day, with a 10am lecture. Small Asian studies which is usually held in the Social Sciences Lecture Room 1, had been shifted to the almighty 800+ capacity Octogon Theatre. Both my Asian studies units have lecturers that weren't supposed to be taking the course, so I was a little disappointed to not see Dobbs or Sigley. Even more so with Chinese Media and Society. I wouldn't even know where to begin about my dislikings of this unit. But this did not ruin my day.
First days back are always interesting. Faces that you haven't seen in a long while are pleasant. Good ol' Ref, where I'll be spending LESS of my time in, hopefully.
Course readers are already available and many things to sort out. Like the China trip, god I need that bursary. If not then I am off to China. WITH CAZ!!! Right Caroline??? RIGHT!!?!?
Oh interesting point of the day, Rong Chyi was walking down the stairs with this guy I work with, and I walked up the stairs being startled by his presence, not knowing that he actually will be doing Linguistics with me!! Soo so funny. We've said it before and I'LL SAY IT AGAIN.
PERTH IS A FUCKING SMALL PLACE.
Anyway, the LOSER called me fat!!!!!! It took me a while to realise. Well he didn't say that exactly. He said I looked pregnant in my dress. Wth? Although I do admit I only got the full gist of the offence when Rong Chyi pointed it out. He didn't understand the offence of it.
So I called him a FOB. He doesn't like that. I don't get it either. . . ;)) teehee
Had Taka's for lunch with RongChyi and Caroline, Caz who just watched us eat. And I found out abt the PO box thing. I don't need that. It will cost me $70 ANNUAL PAYMENT. The lady suggested a GPO address I could use and just go pick up my stuff when it gets here. Means I have to go check it every day to see when my *surprise* has arrived.
*message me when you read this so i can give you the addy*
That concludes my day. Off to ilecture and start my readings! WOOT! ON the way to smartness BAYBEEEE
First days back are always interesting. Faces that you haven't seen in a long while are pleasant. Good ol' Ref, where I'll be spending LESS of my time in, hopefully.
Course readers are already available and many things to sort out. Like the China trip, god I need that bursary. If not then I am off to China. WITH CAZ!!! Right Caroline??? RIGHT!!?!?
Oh interesting point of the day, Rong Chyi was walking down the stairs with this guy I work with, and I walked up the stairs being startled by his presence, not knowing that he actually will be doing Linguistics with me!! Soo so funny. We've said it before and I'LL SAY IT AGAIN.
PERTH IS A FUCKING SMALL PLACE.
Anyway, the LOSER called me fat!!!!!! It took me a while to realise. Well he didn't say that exactly. He said I looked pregnant in my dress. Wth? Although I do admit I only got the full gist of the offence when Rong Chyi pointed it out. He didn't understand the offence of it.
So I called him a FOB. He doesn't like that. I don't get it either. . . ;)) teehee
Had Taka's for lunch with RongChyi and Caroline, Caz who just watched us eat. And I found out abt the PO box thing. I don't need that. It will cost me $70 ANNUAL PAYMENT. The lady suggested a GPO address I could use and just go pick up my stuff when it gets here. Means I have to go check it every day to see when my *surprise* has arrived.
*message me when you read this so i can give you the addy*
That concludes my day. Off to ilecture and start my readings! WOOT! ON the way to smartness BAYBEEEE
-{ missing you 7/24/2007 07:03:00 pm }-
Monday, July 23, 2007
- around the corner, there you'll be -
I'm one episode off finishing Corner with Love. Although I contemplate about whether I should bother doing so. I mean, it's a typical romance (comedy) drama right? It's got to have a happy ending right? Of course I'm right! Even though it's not a fairytale ending, it's still a bloody ending where the poor boy is devastatingly in love with the rich girl and they live happily ever after in his small town in Taipei.
Woot! Even I can be a Taiwanese drama director. Or producer. Or I can be the cast recruiter. Teehee. The dreams...... okok.
Well, I did have something to rant about. But now I've forgotten.
Anyone know how to get a PO Box. I need one. I think I'll go tomorrow. But in the meantime, let me know if there's anything dodgy about them that they wont tell me about.
That and I need to do my tax return and I don't know how. Help!
You know I'm making a timetable for myself. You know, those things where it tells you to do what at what time?.. yeah. I hope to follow it. Give myself decent study/homework times, and little play times. Like I haven't played enough these holidays. And two days for work. Those bastards aren't getting no more than two days outta me. Which means more savings. I really want to get a pair of nice earrings. I'm thinking white gold.. so need to really save up.
I have a goal this semester. Not academic. Maybe it is actually. It will be more uni time and less k. . . less kt- . . . . omg I can't say it. Don't force me. These things take time. It'll be less . . . ' go out' times, then.
You know it's one thing to be in pain (emotional .. or physical) but I didn't realise that it feels good to know that some things you can finally say . . I'm fine. . (or am i?) . Well, I'd like to be positive and say 'good for me. I'm all better'. I'm moving on to a better tomorrow.
Tomorrow will always be a new hope for me. Oh that reminds me... need to check horoscope... meh something boring one.
Ok, off to sleep for a new day!
(I wonder how long I can uphold this optimism...)
Woot! Even I can be a Taiwanese drama director. Or producer. Or I can be the cast recruiter. Teehee. The dreams...... okok.
Well, I did have something to rant about. But now I've forgotten.
Anyone know how to get a PO Box. I need one. I think I'll go tomorrow. But in the meantime, let me know if there's anything dodgy about them that they wont tell me about.
That and I need to do my tax return and I don't know how. Help!
You know I'm making a timetable for myself. You know, those things where it tells you to do what at what time?.. yeah. I hope to follow it. Give myself decent study/homework times, and little play times. Like I haven't played enough these holidays. And two days for work. Those bastards aren't getting no more than two days outta me. Which means more savings. I really want to get a pair of nice earrings. I'm thinking white gold.. so need to really save up.
I have a goal this semester. Not academic. Maybe it is actually. It will be more uni time and less k. . . less kt- . . . . omg I can't say it. Don't force me. These things take time. It'll be less . . . ' go out' times, then.
You know it's one thing to be in pain (emotional .. or physical) but I didn't realise that it feels good to know that some things you can finally say . . I'm fine. . (or am i?) . Well, I'd like to be positive and say 'good for me. I'm all better'. I'm moving on to a better tomorrow.
Tomorrow will always be a new hope for me. Oh that reminds me... need to check horoscope... meh something boring one.
Ok, off to sleep for a new day!
(I wonder how long I can uphold this optimism...)
-{ missing you 7/23/2007 11:07:00 pm }-
Sunday, July 22, 2007
- ouch! why did you bite me? -
I cannot be seen because I am bruised. Where you ask?
EVERYWHERE. Where the fuck did I get these bruises and why do I have bruises? Did I piss someone off? But I recall most of the night, and nobody was threatening me. ZOMG! this is not happening.
I would really like to stay at home and not go near that place we once called home. I'd like to renounce that place as my home. I've had quite a year already. Maybe it's time to cut back on the pace. Whatever pace that may be.. and maybe I should give the liver a rest as well. Even though it goes down ok, I don't think liver can take it. Not the foul shit that goes down MY throat.
It's good that uni is starting. It means knuckliing down to procrastination and blogging at uni.
No. More. Clubbing. Godhelpme.
EVERYWHERE. Where the fuck did I get these bruises and why do I have bruises? Did I piss someone off? But I recall most of the night, and nobody was threatening me. ZOMG! this is not happening.
I would really like to stay at home and not go near that place we once called home. I'd like to renounce that place as my home. I've had quite a year already. Maybe it's time to cut back on the pace. Whatever pace that may be.. and maybe I should give the liver a rest as well. Even though it goes down ok, I don't think liver can take it. Not the foul shit that goes down MY throat.
It's good that uni is starting. It means knuckliing down to procrastination and blogging at uni.
No. More. Clubbing. Godhelpme.
-{ missing you 7/22/2007 02:56:00 pm }-
Saturday, July 21, 2007
- twinkle twinkle little star.. -
I don't think anyone updates their blog like I do. But then .. I haven't done so over the weeks have I? I forgot to go through my archives before I wrote this.. so I dunno...
Maybe it's 'cos I write so much shit that I can't remember it all. But in the past day or two, I've been having ideas on things to blog. And I'm sitting there squirming, trying to keep it in my head so the next time I come to the computer, I can remember it and blog it. But I can't remember!! Everything slips through me like grains of sand..
I'm amidst watching Corner with Love. And it's good. Typical love story. It's cute.
So....... who loves me enough to buy the things on my wish list for me?
Something triggered a thought for me the other day. It was really random. The thought of my lost sister. Ok she's not lost. Just gone. I never missed her so much until that day. And she's been gone for almost 6 years. She was the best sister I never had. I always thought she was just my really older friend who always came over to see me do nothing. I never thought about how much she taught me. All the little things in life.
Aware that she had unhappiness in her life, I always saw the smiled she had on her face and it was that and confindence that she portrayed to the world. I thought I'd never feel what she felt. Because her life was too dramatic. But that is life. Dramatic.
She always had time for me. No matter what. It never occurred to me that whenever I wanted to go over to her house I could. Whenever I wanted her at my house 'cos I couldn't be bothered to walk to hers, she would come. Whenever I wanted to go to the park she would take me.
When she left Australia, I was so angry that she never confided in me the tragics of her life. I could see it growing in her. I saw. Everybody saw. But she didn't say a word and continued smiling while her heart was crying. I could almost hear it. Slowly she became tired. I couldn't believe she was going through this alone. When she left she was definitely alone. WHy didn't she ever tell me??
But I was 14. What did I know? What could I have done? I had my suspicions when she was here and yet I never mentioned it to her anyway. So who am I to be angry? I was only her little sister. I couldn't tell her things would be alright, because I don't think they were going to be alright.
And now, it's been almost 6 years. I wonder how she's doing? Where she is.. If she's ok. If she'll ever come back here and drop in to say hi....
.. ask me how I'm doing.
Maybe it's 'cos I write so much shit that I can't remember it all. But in the past day or two, I've been having ideas on things to blog. And I'm sitting there squirming, trying to keep it in my head so the next time I come to the computer, I can remember it and blog it. But I can't remember!! Everything slips through me like grains of sand..
I'm amidst watching Corner with Love. And it's good. Typical love story. It's cute.
So....... who loves me enough to buy the things on my wish list for me?
Something triggered a thought for me the other day. It was really random. The thought of my lost sister. Ok she's not lost. Just gone. I never missed her so much until that day. And she's been gone for almost 6 years. She was the best sister I never had. I always thought she was just my really older friend who always came over to see me do nothing. I never thought about how much she taught me. All the little things in life.
Aware that she had unhappiness in her life, I always saw the smiled she had on her face and it was that and confindence that she portrayed to the world. I thought I'd never feel what she felt. Because her life was too dramatic. But that is life. Dramatic.
She always had time for me. No matter what. It never occurred to me that whenever I wanted to go over to her house I could. Whenever I wanted her at my house 'cos I couldn't be bothered to walk to hers, she would come. Whenever I wanted to go to the park she would take me.
When she left Australia, I was so angry that she never confided in me the tragics of her life. I could see it growing in her. I saw. Everybody saw. But she didn't say a word and continued smiling while her heart was crying. I could almost hear it. Slowly she became tired. I couldn't believe she was going through this alone. When she left she was definitely alone. WHy didn't she ever tell me??
But I was 14. What did I know? What could I have done? I had my suspicions when she was here and yet I never mentioned it to her anyway. So who am I to be angry? I was only her little sister. I couldn't tell her things would be alright, because I don't think they were going to be alright.
And now, it's been almost 6 years. I wonder how she's doing? Where she is.. If she's ok. If she'll ever come back here and drop in to say hi....
.. ask me how I'm doing.
-{ missing you 7/21/2007 02:28:00 pm }-
Friday, July 20, 2007
- lllloooonnnnnggggg straight hair -
I was thinking about how I keep saying that I'm gonna perm my long hair so I get that mature look. But truth is, I can't part with my rebonded straight hair!
It's just, so ... straight. Not to mention easy to manage. I don't know how long it will be until I actually part with straightness. And longness for that matter. Short doesn't cut it. Long is better. Long forever!! roflmao. Okok I'll stop .. for YOOU.
It's just, so ... straight. Not to mention easy to manage. I don't know how long it will be until I actually part with straightness. And longness for that matter. Short doesn't cut it. Long is better. Long forever!! roflmao. Okok I'll stop .. for YOOU.
-{ missing you 7/20/2007 07:33:00 pm }-
- wish me happiness -
I'm just gonna get straight to the point. It's my birthday in a couple of weeks and here is my wish list:
*ahem*
- a diamond ring
- Swarovski crystalled earrings
- car, maybe a Toyota Prius (they look so slick!)
- all expenses paid trip to China at the end of the year
- a laptop
- a new phone (I think I want to stick to sE, but Nokia can do me fine)
- a jetplane that will fly me to Taiwan to meet someone like Flh or Evan YO. Jay Chou might be a bit busy at the moment
- alternatively a jet plane flying me to Brunei to help WuZun open up his first fitness club.
I thinks that's about it. Hope I made it much easier for you guys. :))
..or you could always give me your smile to put in my pocket..
*ahem*
- a diamond ring
- Swarovski crystalled earrings
- car, maybe a Toyota Prius (they look so slick!)
- all expenses paid trip to China at the end of the year
- a laptop
- a new phone (I think I want to stick to sE, but Nokia can do me fine)
- a jetplane that will fly me to Taiwan to meet someone like Flh or Evan YO. Jay Chou might be a bit busy at the moment
- alternatively a jet plane flying me to Brunei to help WuZun open up his first fitness club.
I thinks that's about it. Hope I made it much easier for you guys. :))
..or you could always give me your smile to put in my pocket..
-{ missing you 7/20/2007 06:15:00 pm }-
Thursday, July 19, 2007
- badabababa... i'm lovin' it! -
Wang bu liao by She Wen Bin.
No not lovin' Macca's but Leehom! The new album is great.
Look at my horoscope for today:
The smiles that people will be giving you today will carry a slightly more risque message than 'Hi, how ya doing?' -- there is a lot of flirtatious energy around you today, and romance is most definitely favored. All this attention will leave you feeling good and ready to move a relationship to the next level. It's time to stop beating around the bush and tell that certain someone what you are feeling. They have been waiting for you to make the first move for a while.
Finally. I'm not the one who is waiting. Now all I have to do is find out who I have feelings for.
Sometimes I wonder how much I should share on my blog. Sharing is caring. But would YOU care? I know sometimes I do that 'say things in discretion' thing. And it's annoying for you to hear about something you know you aren't privy to. Bah. Can't help it. I was reading a magazine at the hair salon the other day about this blogger who blogged about her prostitute life that she lead during her college years. The article itself was quite interesting. She seemed so normal. None of that 'feel sorry for me' crap. She did it to get through college and she sold a skill that she was good at.
If you want to check out her blog it's called Confessions of a College Callgirl. She seemed to know where her line was and when to draw it. Sometimes things didn't work her way, but she hasn't let this become a depressing and lowly part of her life. How is it explainable that she seemed ok with what she did, that she did it out of no concern for what others thought, yet she still keeps an anonymous identity to her blog and name? I'm kinda confused as to whether I like her or not...
No not lovin' Macca's but Leehom! The new album is great.
Look at my horoscope for today:
The smiles that people will be giving you today will carry a slightly more risque message than 'Hi, how ya doing?' -- there is a lot of flirtatious energy around you today, and romance is most definitely favored. All this attention will leave you feeling good and ready to move a relationship to the next level. It's time to stop beating around the bush and tell that certain someone what you are feeling. They have been waiting for you to make the first move for a while.
Finally. I'm not the one who is waiting. Now all I have to do is find out who I have feelings for.
Sometimes I wonder how much I should share on my blog. Sharing is caring. But would YOU care? I know sometimes I do that 'say things in discretion' thing. And it's annoying for you to hear about something you know you aren't privy to. Bah. Can't help it. I was reading a magazine at the hair salon the other day about this blogger who blogged about her prostitute life that she lead during her college years. The article itself was quite interesting. She seemed so normal. None of that 'feel sorry for me' crap. She did it to get through college and she sold a skill that she was good at.
If you want to check out her blog it's called Confessions of a College Callgirl. She seemed to know where her line was and when to draw it. Sometimes things didn't work her way, but she hasn't let this become a depressing and lowly part of her life. How is it explainable that she seemed ok with what she did, that she did it out of no concern for what others thought, yet she still keeps an anonymous identity to her blog and name? I'm kinda confused as to whether I like her or not...
-{ missing you 7/19/2007 07:20:00 pm }-
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
- on a day like this -
I didnt even know that my bro had downloaded Leehom's new album. So far, I liked as much as I've heard so far. I need some relieving after hearing some Leehom bashing not long ago this arvo.
I woke up at 11 ish, when I was supposed to wake up earlier and head to town. But seeing as it was late, I decided to wait for mum to cook lunch before I headed off and I ended up leaving at 1ish. Realised that I was on my own, I tried to think of people to call up. But gave up not long after. It was such a nice day. And I was by my lonesome self. But it didn't matter cos I was out to look for a salon to get those extensions I've been patiently waiting for. Seeing as though I couldn't find a place, I was going to give up, headed to Tea Fusion and slowly contemplating of making my way home. But while walking, I bumped into [wushu] Edmond and EuKim. *saved!* I thought! It was odd because I was thinking about calling him up before. he suggested I go to St James so I did, and landed myself an appointment for a second attempt at dying my hair, yet again. But this time it's not going to be as cheap as before, and it will hit the bank account HARD. Kind of scared. But MEH. It's going to be early tomorrow morning.. can't wait.
Then I went back to find Edmond and Eukim.. and hung with them for the rest of the arvo. Funny topics of people came up. The usual people we kind of end up talking about were talked about. No, we don't bitch. We just analyse! Talked a bit abt their performance on Sunday. I got lots of insights into their opinions of stuff. And then one thing lead to another and I heard Eukim say,
'Isn't Leehom like gay or something?' LIKE WTF. That news was soo 6 years ago!! That comment came AFTER they said this:
[I brought up Fahrenheit] 'Oh, yeah my cousin knows one of their girlfriends....' So me still being a Flh fan I started hyperventilating. On the edge of my seat and locking a stare at Ed, I demanded a name. But he didn't know who. But I did. I already knew. 'Cos Edmond is Malaysian. And I recalled that he had to go Brunei for a wedding one time. Brunei. Only one boi in Flh is Bruneian. *sobs quietly*
'OMFGGGGGGGG, it's WUZUN!!! But why!?! Are you sure?!?!' I was totally yelling by then. He said that it's one of those things where they have to keep it a secret and all for the sake of being a boyband I guess. She flies in and out to go see him. And his cousin was good friends with the girlfriend. Ok, maybe I'm not surprised that Wuzun's got a gf. He is so fuckin' Hot. I guess it would be a crime if he DIDN'T have a girlfriend. To top it all off, Ed says, 'I t hink we just shortened Lisa's life a few years. Not a good day for her.' Like they were fully out to BREAK me!!! Those boys are trouble!!!
So besides the tragedy in that area of my life, it was a good arvo. I wished I planned something though because it was such a nice day today.
I'll try to stay home tonight so mum can keep her sanity.
I woke up at 11 ish, when I was supposed to wake up earlier and head to town. But seeing as it was late, I decided to wait for mum to cook lunch before I headed off and I ended up leaving at 1ish. Realised that I was on my own, I tried to think of people to call up. But gave up not long after. It was such a nice day. And I was by my lonesome self. But it didn't matter cos I was out to look for a salon to get those extensions I've been patiently waiting for. Seeing as though I couldn't find a place, I was going to give up, headed to Tea Fusion and slowly contemplating of making my way home. But while walking, I bumped into [wushu] Edmond and EuKim. *saved!* I thought! It was odd because I was thinking about calling him up before. he suggested I go to St James so I did, and landed myself an appointment for a second attempt at dying my hair, yet again. But this time it's not going to be as cheap as before, and it will hit the bank account HARD. Kind of scared. But MEH. It's going to be early tomorrow morning.. can't wait.
Then I went back to find Edmond and Eukim.. and hung with them for the rest of the arvo. Funny topics of people came up. The usual people we kind of end up talking about were talked about. No, we don't bitch. We just analyse! Talked a bit abt their performance on Sunday. I got lots of insights into their opinions of stuff. And then one thing lead to another and I heard Eukim say,
'Isn't Leehom like gay or something?' LIKE WTF. That news was soo 6 years ago!! That comment came AFTER they said this:
[I brought up Fahrenheit] 'Oh, yeah my cousin knows one of their girlfriends....' So me still being a Flh fan I started hyperventilating. On the edge of my seat and locking a stare at Ed, I demanded a name. But he didn't know who. But I did. I already knew. 'Cos Edmond is Malaysian. And I recalled that he had to go Brunei for a wedding one time. Brunei. Only one boi in Flh is Bruneian. *sobs quietly*
'OMFGGGGGGGG, it's WUZUN!!! But why!?! Are you sure?!?!' I was totally yelling by then. He said that it's one of those things where they have to keep it a secret and all for the sake of being a boyband I guess. She flies in and out to go see him. And his cousin was good friends with the girlfriend. Ok, maybe I'm not surprised that Wuzun's got a gf. He is so fuckin' Hot. I guess it would be a crime if he DIDN'T have a girlfriend. To top it all off, Ed says, 'I t hink we just shortened Lisa's life a few years. Not a good day for her.' Like they were fully out to BREAK me!!! Those boys are trouble!!!
So besides the tragedy in that area of my life, it was a good arvo. I wished I planned something though because it was such a nice day today.
I'll try to stay home tonight so mum can keep her sanity.
-{ missing you 7/17/2007 05:22:00 pm }-
Sunday, July 15, 2007
- play catch up -
I've just realised that I haven't been at home much the past week since Tuesday, which is probably why parents so agro. From tuesday night it has been work-work-theBrisbane/LuxeBar/supper-steamboat/ktv-work/Metroz. Busy busy I have kept.
Today went to check out the KungFu/Wushu State Comp. Me-Mishnkim went in the arvo, catching the round ups of most of the performances. I found them most interesting to watch.
Major CONGRATS to Alan who got GOLD in ... all round state Kungfu? LOL, please DO correct me if I'm wrong. But yeah, that was really good! AND of course JASE who one many medals himself, a few gold among them. And then to the rest of the boys who don't read my blog : congrats :))
So by winning means Alan must shout me a drink. Cos somebody didn't tell me about an ENTRANCE FEE that needed to be paid.
Today went to check out the KungFu/Wushu State Comp. Me-Mishnkim went in the arvo, catching the round ups of most of the performances. I found them most interesting to watch.
Major CONGRATS to Alan who got GOLD in ... all round state Kungfu? LOL, please DO correct me if I'm wrong. But yeah, that was really good! AND of course JASE who one many medals himself, a few gold among them. And then to the rest of the boys who don't read my blog : congrats :))
So by winning means Alan must shout me a drink. Cos somebody didn't tell me about an ENTRANCE FEE that needed to be paid.
-{ missing you 7/15/2007 05:56:00 pm }-
Saturday, July 14, 2007
- smile at me -
Why is everyone so happy? More correctly asking, why is it that I am still sad?
After reading his poem for the umpteenth time, I felt so sad and a slight sense of comfort that there was still light at the end of the tunnel. Gladly knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel, but I have been walking for days, for months now. And I have yet to reach the light.
How come they all can be so happy after .. me? But it is not a question worth asking. I was their ball of string. That is why they are happy. But it's not fair!
I want my happiness. I will sulk, I will cry and throw my tantrum because they have theirs and I don't have mine. I will act immature until I am satisfied. I am weak because I wear my heart on my sleeve. And only those who notice, will use it to their advantage.
Because I am weak.
I know I am naive, I am not afraid to show it.
I show it when I look at you, when you talk to me, when you see me look away. I tend to show it when I see you happy but maybe there was an exception somewhere. Because I didn't know I saw you. But you seemed surprised to see me there. Our one second encouter on the same side of the pathway. Why was my heart beating a steady beat? That second was followed by the possibility that I thought our paths met again.
How come it was you?? How come I did not realise? WHy do I remember both your happy faces? Why weren't you happy like that when I was there instead?
A small part of me remembers that you kept quite a fixed eye on me, while I did not notice you. A very very small part of me wishes to think that you were reminiscing the second time you met me. When I was a 'school girl' with whisky spilt into my Cons =) .your whisky.
A miniscule part of me thinks you'll come back. Come back to me on your knees, which I will have the pleasure of rejecting you. No! I will not reject you. I will embrace you and accept you knowing that I will be left dumbfounded with the absense you will leave me with after you find your happiness again. Because I am weak.
And just as you hurt me, I will do to others, because that's the way it works... that's the way our type do things.
After reading his poem for the umpteenth time, I felt so sad and a slight sense of comfort that there was still light at the end of the tunnel. Gladly knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel, but I have been walking for days, for months now. And I have yet to reach the light.
How come they all can be so happy after .. me? But it is not a question worth asking. I was their ball of string. That is why they are happy. But it's not fair!
I want my happiness. I will sulk, I will cry and throw my tantrum because they have theirs and I don't have mine. I will act immature until I am satisfied. I am weak because I wear my heart on my sleeve. And only those who notice, will use it to their advantage.
Because I am weak.
I know I am naive, I am not afraid to show it.
I show it when I look at you, when you talk to me, when you see me look away. I tend to show it when I see you happy but maybe there was an exception somewhere. Because I didn't know I saw you. But you seemed surprised to see me there. Our one second encouter on the same side of the pathway. Why was my heart beating a steady beat? That second was followed by the possibility that I thought our paths met again.
How come it was you?? How come I did not realise? WHy do I remember both your happy faces? Why weren't you happy like that when I was there instead?
A small part of me remembers that you kept quite a fixed eye on me, while I did not notice you. A very very small part of me wishes to think that you were reminiscing the second time you met me. When I was a 'school girl' with whisky spilt into my Cons =) .your whisky.
A miniscule part of me thinks you'll come back. Come back to me on your knees, which I will have the pleasure of rejecting you. No! I will not reject you. I will embrace you and accept you knowing that I will be left dumbfounded with the absense you will leave me with after you find your happiness again. Because I am weak.
And just as you hurt me, I will do to others, because that's the way it works... that's the way our type do things.
-{ missing you 7/14/2007 03:01:00 pm }-
Thursday, July 12, 2007
- Wishy- washy -
Had so many discussions lately it's driving me up the wall that such conversations could go unblogged. Yes, I am glad for such intense conversations. I feel that my life is full of worthlessness always ranting on about my life issues. And to have a worthy conversation sometimes brings back the sanity of the mind. Looking through my list-of-things-to-blog makes me weary. Looking at it reminds me of homework.
I still haven't done my book review yet. But I cbf now. Last two days of work have been functions held for the Western Force rubgy team and the Freo Dockers FC. I had Matt Gitteau on my table and didn't realise until half the night. He was quite decent. And I didn't know how hot rugby players were. And not a dockers fan so didn't know much.. probably had players on my table? But I don't know..
Hey, just noticed I've hit 7k mark. Yay for me.
Starbucks SG. Waiting for *bleepin* Jerry. Sigh. Thinking of those holidaying days. Were fun days. On our own. Independence. The year when I was 19..
I still haven't done my book review yet. But I cbf now. Last two days of work have been functions held for the Western Force rubgy team and the Freo Dockers FC. I had Matt Gitteau on my table and didn't realise until half the night. He was quite decent. And I didn't know how hot rugby players were. And not a dockers fan so didn't know much.. probably had players on my table? But I don't know..
Hey, just noticed I've hit 7k mark. Yay for me.
Starbucks SG. Waiting for *bleepin* Jerry. Sigh. Thinking of those holidaying days. Were fun days. On our own. Independence. The year when I was 19.. Does it not seem far away? Does this photo not look like us? I think we look different. There is a word I rather not use now. But on the topic of 19 is what I wanted to get at.
19. Evan Yo's album. Hahaha.. no, I am talking about the age. 19 I am and was since August last year. And what an age to be. I have met so many people and done so much in this one year as compared to my many other years of living. Somehow it has been really significant for me. It also feel like the last time I can really get down and.... mess things up before I hit 20. Which is a good month away. Can't believe it. After all the comotion all you guys caused, I'm getting that feeling too.
Which reminds me, why don't we have Carlsberg here? If we want to talk about change we can.
I've done it many a times. I've changed. 19 has changed me. It's the age that makes you realise how old and young you really are. That life expects so much responsibility and caution. I can only tell you this because I have failed in these areas. Lots of mistakes made also, which mean that I've learnt heaps as well right?
This post is taking longer than I wanted and it lacks commitment. Nobody likes an uncommitted post. I think I am.. pub crawling tonight?
MEH
p.s YES I like Buble.
-{ missing you 7/12/2007 02:23:00 pm }-
Monday, July 09, 2007
- michael buble - everything -
[told you it would change]
You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to see.
And you play your card,
but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy timesI
t's you, it's you,
You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to see.
And you play your card,
but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy timesI
t's you, it's you,
You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
-{ missing you 7/09/2007 10:33:00 pm }-
- s.h.e - p l a y -
RE. You.
永 远 的 字 我 还 是 不 懂 。 我 没 想 过 我 能 爱 ， 能 喜 欢 一 个 人 到 永 远 。 没 想 到 是 可 能 的 事 。
Even after halfway reading Harry Potter (V), I got a little frustrated. Man does he have EMOTIONAL problems in this volume. I'd loved to see how this plays out in the movie.
On the up side, I passed my units, got my academic shit sorted. And had a fairly good weekend.
WOrk turned out ok. Some funny shit happened, this guy was chasin' me with 'dirty hands' asking me, 'LISAA! Do you wanna get dirty!?!?!'
FUnny shit.
And what? Would you believe me if I said I went to Metros and was sober? And had a relatively good night? No, I didn't think so. No one believes me anymore. Thinks I'm this alco. And Metz is my PLAYground. Yeah, all you guys are givin' me the same shit. Is it getting old? Yes. Is my act getting old? No. Haven't quite PLAYed it all out yet. So leave me alone. I'm fine.
I need that ktv fix again. Someone.. buy me a ktv room.
永 远 的 字 我 还 是 不 懂 。 我 没 想 过 我 能 爱 ， 能 喜 欢 一 个 人 到 永 远 。 没 想 到 是 可 能 的 事 。
Even after halfway reading Harry Potter (V), I got a little frustrated. Man does he have EMOTIONAL problems in this volume. I'd loved to see how this plays out in the movie.
On the up side, I passed my units, got my academic shit sorted. And had a fairly good weekend.
WOrk turned out ok. Some funny shit happened, this guy was chasin' me with 'dirty hands' asking me, 'LISAA! Do you wanna get dirty!?!?!'
FUnny shit.
And what? Would you believe me if I said I went to Metros and was sober? And had a relatively good night? No, I didn't think so. No one believes me anymore. Thinks I'm this alco. And Metz is my PLAYground. Yeah, all you guys are givin' me the same shit. Is it getting old? Yes. Is my act getting old? No. Haven't quite PLAYed it all out yet. So leave me alone. I'm fine.
I need that ktv fix again. Someone.. buy me a ktv room.
-{ missing you 7/09/2007 10:20:00 pm }-
Saturday, July 07, 2007
- the beauty that truly exists -
Have to fuckin' work at 5pm tonight. That means it's going to be a long night. The good thing usually is that work isn't all that bad when you're actually working. It's bad thinking about going to work on a Saturday when everyone else is having fun. I'm working next Saturday too so FUN is out of the picture for me. What? All of sudden I have three shifts next week? Bloody fucked that is.
I'm just looking at the list of things I could blog about that I wrote up just before exam study week. And it occurs to me that they were issues on my mind then. Not now. Not so much, and I can't put myself into that train of thought that I once had, to 'discuss' these points. It's quite depressing to think that I can't be as passionate about the points that I wanted to express on my blog. Aiyz. Too much on my mind now. Adding to that, is my stupid units. Grr.
Let me try..... one of the points is 'beautiful sadness'.
[edit] I had the song 'SHape of my heart' by Backstreet Boys here, but it doesn't have seemed to have appeared but this is the part I was referring to;
[edit] I had the song 'SHape of my heart' by Backstreet Boys here, but it doesn't have seemed to have appeared but this is the part I was referring to;
Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragical
So help me i can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man i've become
This is where I heard it.. and is it not the biggest oxymoron ever? Then there was this;
I love life...Yeah, I'm sad, but at the same time, I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like...It makes me feel alive, you know. It makes me feel human. The only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt something really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good. So I guess what I'm feeling is like a beautiful sadness. (Parker and Stone)
This is actually an optimistic view of being sad. Initially, I thought it was just plain pathetic. But I think it makes you think and realise that it's true. Sadness is beautiful. I think no one is ever lonely. You only think you are alone when really, you are feeling sad most of the time. How can a child feel truly sad? Which they cannot because there will always be that something that made them happy at least once in their life. There will always be someone, anyone that loves you and whoever that may be, family, friend or lover, it will make you happy. And the sadness will come after.
It also points to how rare happiness is and that it can never be sustained. Happiness is not constant and is bound to cease at any point in time. Just like life. You never know when it is the day that is your last. And it's not that you just try to be happy every day of your life, live life to the fullest like they always say because that's really full of crap. I think it's more like indulge in your emotions, soak up every last bit of it. Feel it all, happiness, sadness, anger, envy, lust and anything and everything. If you don't feel hatred toward someone, how will you know how awful it feels? And that it should never happen again? Same goes with happiness. Why should we just dwell on happiness and realistically all of the above apply to life as well? They don't exist for people to try and ignore.
Does that explain much? Like how some people like to take the full throttle of their emotions to the extremes? There's nothing wrong with being emotional. Maybe it's just a female thing. MAYBE women understand life better than men do. And that's why there is such a barrier between us.
SOmetimes. Women take it too far. There is nothing wrong with that except for the fact that it permeates their decision making and confuses what is real and what is not. It makes them unsteady and uncertain about the things that they say, the things they decide.
SOMETIMES, it makes them love the wrong people. Then it makes them doubt their existing love. That's why I don't believe in eternal love as put by .. [insertnamehere]. Eternal love is indeed doubtful. I don't like it and I don't trust it. Maybe it's just me, that I have no faith in eternity. Why should I? If life itself cannot even be made eternal? Love can exist undenyingly, meaning you can turn left and right, and the love will always be there as long as you live. But it will not stop you from loving other people.
Can you see how emotions can make something so simple, like love, so complicated?
It's sad. But no one can deny that love is beautful. And that is why sadness is beautiful, because it came from love.
-{ missing you 7/07/2007 02:09:00 pm }-
Friday, July 06, 2007
- when i say evan you say yo yo yo! -
There is no other way to put it.
I've semi- ditched Fahrenheit - - - - - ok wait.. 3/4ly ditched them..
FOR EVAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've moved on from yting flh and now eyeing my EVAN. He's EVERYTHING!
AANNDD he's NOT LIKE JirO 不 是 初 男 。 He's the only one who can look at the camera, smile and melt me. AND I MEAN MELT *drool* LIKE, not even FLH can do that to me. NOT EVEN JAY. OR LEEHOM.
ANd he's 20. YOUNGER than DANSON. And this major success. Violin. Piano. Guitar. Punk rocker.
Poor guy. I'm watching 'Yu le bai fen bai' and Show (Luo Zhi Xiang) is asking him such awkward questions and he's answering them all wrong. 'Cos it's about his first love and he's never had a first love! OR a first KISS!!!!!!!!!! zomg how INNOCENT. I LOVE HIM MOREEEEEEEEEE!!
Unlike JIRO who was HAPPY to share his FIRST TIME losing his virginity to the whole Taiwanese nation. ANd omg (btw I'm still watching it as I write this so I can make all these comments) he's got this reputatiion as being a 乖 的 周 杰 伦 !!! And that might turn him BAD!!!! NOOOO!!.
Side note. JAY CHOU DOESNT LIKE TO WEAR UNDERWEAR???? How am ... I supposed to react to that????????
And this guy... DAMN iNNOCENT. Is that like a good thing or a bad thing? Looking at a pessimistic perspective, he is bound to be corrupted by.. FAME!!!! ALL these CRAZY girLsss after him cos he's got A DAMN ASS addictive SMILEE.
Man, have they emphasised how GOOD (乖 ) he is!!
Oh no, now they've set the ultimatum for him that if he doesn't go out with 6 girls within the 3 years, they will question his sexuality!! grr. wtf. Man, maybe I should give you g uys the links as to what I'm watching so you get what I'm on about.
SOmetimes you can learn quite a lot about singers and famous people through these showss. LIke HE USES MSN HEAPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I will really be heart broken when he finds someonE. I WANT TO BE HIS FIRST KISSSSSS!!!!!!!.
*breathes*
Sorry. I'm getting crazy. Everytime he says something innocent, it's the cutest thing alive. It looks soo genuine as well. And the smile! Can't get any more genuine.
Ok I'll have to link it later. Mum woke up just to yell at me how expensive her electric bill is. I just needed my desparate EVAN rant.
sighsighsigh
I've semi- ditched Fahrenheit - - - - - ok wait.. 3/4ly ditched them..
FOR EVAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've moved on from yting flh and now eyeing my EVAN. He's EVERYTHING!
AANNDD he's NOT LIKE JirO 不 是 初 男 。 He's the only one who can look at the camera, smile and melt me. AND I MEAN MELT *drool* LIKE, not even FLH can do that to me. NOT EVEN JAY. OR LEEHOM.
ANd he's 20. YOUNGER than DANSON. And this major success. Violin. Piano. Guitar. Punk rocker.
Poor guy. I'm watching 'Yu le bai fen bai' and Show (Luo Zhi Xiang) is asking him such awkward questions and he's answering them all wrong. 'Cos it's about his first love and he's never had a first love! OR a first KISS!!!!!!!!!! zomg how INNOCENT. I LOVE HIM MOREEEEEEEEEE!!
Unlike JIRO who was HAPPY to share his FIRST TIME losing his virginity to the whole Taiwanese nation. ANd omg (btw I'm still watching it as I write this so I can make all these comments) he's got this reputatiion as being a 乖 的 周 杰 伦 !!! And that might turn him BAD!!!! NOOOO!!.
Side note. JAY CHOU DOESNT LIKE TO WEAR UNDERWEAR???? How am ... I supposed to react to that????????
And this guy... DAMN iNNOCENT. Is that like a good thing or a bad thing? Looking at a pessimistic perspective, he is bound to be corrupted by.. FAME!!!! ALL these CRAZY girLsss after him cos he's got A DAMN ASS addictive SMILEE.
Man, have they emphasised how GOOD (乖 ) he is!!
Oh no, now they've set the ultimatum for him that if he doesn't go out with 6 girls within the 3 years, they will question his sexuality!! grr. wtf. Man, maybe I should give you g uys the links as to what I'm watching so you get what I'm on about.
SOmetimes you can learn quite a lot about singers and famous people through these showss. LIke HE USES MSN HEAPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I will really be heart broken when he finds someonE. I WANT TO BE HIS FIRST KISSSSSS!!!!!!!.
*breathes*
Sorry. I'm getting crazy. Everytime he says something innocent, it's the cutest thing alive. It looks soo genuine as well. And the smile! Can't get any more genuine.
Ok I'll have to link it later. Mum woke up just to yell at me how expensive her electric bill is. I just needed my desparate EVAN rant.
sighsighsigh
-{ missing you 7/06/2007 02:14:00 am }-
Thursday, July 05, 2007
- the snag trend -
When I was getting my hair washed at the salon (after the dying part), the lady got the guy to wash it for me. He looked like a trainee.
A while ago back in Malaysia, I discovered the cute hairdresser guy that was good eye candy while getting your hair done. Malaysia is full of them. As Caroline Michelle and Yohanna discovered when they went to Malaysia before going to China, the salons are full of youthful teenagish guys who opt to be a hairdresser for god knows what reason. It could possibly be that the money is good and THEY get a bit of eye candy themselves, the majority of customers being female. When getting my hair done, I prefer a guys touch to a lady one. Them being the opposite sex is (quote Alan) a minor detail, but they seem to 'handle with care'. Your hair that is. They're much more gentle and don't seem to tug and pull at you head. And in the process, an innocent flirt is a must!
Anyways, that was Malaysia. THIS guy, he was a trainee as I assumed earlier, and I don't think he knew how to carry a conversation yet. All he said to me when blowdrying me hair was,
"You have very thick hair." Hrms. Yes I know I have thick hair. But I didn't know how to respond to the comment, as I did not know what the hell he meant by it! Of course (and I can only assume) that he meant well.
I'm putting ALL of my photo's into a Yahoo Album thing. So if you think there are photo's that I have of you guys that you want, then I'll try get you the password to access the albums. Let me know.
A while ago back in Malaysia, I discovered the cute hairdresser guy that was good eye candy while getting your hair done. Malaysia is full of them. As Caroline Michelle and Yohanna discovered when they went to Malaysia before going to China, the salons are full of youthful teenagish guys who opt to be a hairdresser for god knows what reason. It could possibly be that the money is good and THEY get a bit of eye candy themselves, the majority of customers being female. When getting my hair done, I prefer a guys touch to a lady one. Them being the opposite sex is (quote Alan) a minor detail, but they seem to 'handle with care'. Your hair that is. They're much more gentle and don't seem to tug and pull at you head. And in the process, an innocent flirt is a must!
Anyways, that was Malaysia. THIS guy, he was a trainee as I assumed earlier, and I don't think he knew how to carry a conversation yet. All he said to me when blowdrying me hair was,
"You have very thick hair." Hrms. Yes I know I have thick hair. But I didn't know how to respond to the comment, as I did not know what the hell he meant by it! Of course (and I can only assume) that he meant well.
I'm putting ALL of my photo's into a Yahoo Album thing. So if you think there are photo's that I have of you guys that you want, then I'll try get you the password to access the albums. Let me know.
-{ missing you 7/05/2007 07:39:00 pm }-
- untranslatable minds -
Maybe I shall re-establish that part where I said my hair didn't turn out like I wanted it to.
It didn't turn out at all. So yeah, please don't "look forward" to seeing my new hairstyle. 'Cos you won't be surprised.
What is with the sadness these holidays?!? I'm supposed to be glad and relaxed and lazy. Well yes the lazy part is right. But so much stress build-up. Now I have uni issues!! I like, fuckin' attract so many problems, I'm just gonna explode. Gimme back my boring life damnit!!!
.. and so I wonder. If I don't get to go to China at the end of the year, whether mother and father will allow me to go back to Malaysia and Singapore? Or maybe I should go to Sydney and Melbourne instead!
Oh, I am hating 'people' at the moment. People, like, in general. No one in specific. But just people are gay. Give me the shits.
I want my boring life back.
Now is thinking about purple extensions to go with my imaginary purple hair. That means Michelle, you gotta get blue ones! Which means I gotta spend less on unecessaries.
Oh, you know what? Caroline is my cupid! It's funny, I wonder if you guys will get it....
Did I mention I want my boring life back?
I was gonna change the 'song' to this nicholas tse song 'yi liao bai liao' but I can't translate it nor could I find it. So I decided to stick with Evan Yo. Loving him more and more. I like his songs. I wonder if its got anything to do with the Avril inspi'? This is a boppier song. But I like it. Boppy can only stay on this blog for so long, so bare with me for a couple of weeks, k?
And there is nothing wrong with Danson Tang. Good the way he is. Hearts for all.
It didn't turn out at all. So yeah, please don't "look forward" to seeing my new hairstyle. 'Cos you won't be surprised.
What is with the sadness these holidays?!? I'm supposed to be glad and relaxed and lazy. Well yes the lazy part is right. But so much stress build-up. Now I have uni issues!! I like, fuckin' attract so many problems, I'm just gonna explode. Gimme back my boring life damnit!!!
.. and so I wonder. If I don't get to go to China at the end of the year, whether mother and father will allow me to go back to Malaysia and Singapore? Or maybe I should go to Sydney and Melbourne instead!
Oh, I am hating 'people' at the moment. People, like, in general. No one in specific. But just people are gay. Give me the shits.
I want my boring life back.
Now is thinking about purple extensions to go with my imaginary purple hair. That means Michelle, you gotta get blue ones! Which means I gotta spend less on unecessaries.
Oh, you know what? Caroline is my cupid! It's funny, I wonder if you guys will get it....
Did I mention I want my boring life back?
I was gonna change the 'song' to this nicholas tse song 'yi liao bai liao' but I can't translate it nor could I find it. So I decided to stick with Evan Yo. Loving him more and more. I like his songs. I wonder if its got anything to do with the Avril inspi'? This is a boppier song. But I like it. Boppy can only stay on this blog for so long, so bare with me for a couple of weeks, k?
And there is nothing wrong with Danson Tang. Good the way he is. Hearts for all.
-{ missing you 7/05/2007 04:24:00 pm }-
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
- the fetish for blue -
Pro. Went to Garbo to get my hair dyed.
Con. didn't turn out as well as I wanted.
Wasn't supposed to blog about it.. but eh. there we go. Michelle had issues. And then went with dying hers blue. Her's is blue and mine is purple. Just keep that in mind. I'm going to go back for extreme purple so I can actually see where my money is going. Maybe just highlights. Not too extreme.
ANd then Michelle went and bought these hot BLUE shoes. Which I take 100% blame for. 'Cos she's gonna love them. ANd it will be kudo's to me.
Everyone's talk about phones and getting new phones makes me wanna get one too. Which reminds me, new pair of earrings have made it onto the must buy list..
Con. didn't turn out as well as I wanted.
Wasn't supposed to blog about it.. but eh. there we go. Michelle had issues. And then went with dying hers blue. Her's is blue and mine is purple. Just keep that in mind. I'm going to go back for extreme purple so I can actually see where my money is going. Maybe just highlights. Not too extreme.
ANd then Michelle went and bought these hot BLUE shoes. Which I take 100% blame for. 'Cos she's gonna love them. ANd it will be kudo's to me.
Everyone's talk about phones and getting new phones makes me wanna get one too. Which reminds me, new pair of earrings have made it onto the must buy list..
-{ missing you 7/03/2007 07:19:00 pm }-
- moving on.. -
.. frm d fotoz. its happenin agen. dat thing dat happend b4. hw cum it alwyz cums 'roun? y me? its me. hw cum it cnt js b lyk all d tym? lyk wen i had no probs. bt nw, its lyk ther must b probs or else lyf jus isnt lyf nemore.
its me nt u. its always me. sumfin happend n i js cnt seem 2 put my finger on it. bt it chnged evrithing abt who i am n wot i believd in. i alwys think i can overcum it n pretnd evrithin is ok. bt its not and it nvr is. i cant help it. i cnt b helpd. dun try to help me. dun try to save me. cos its nt worth d pain. i wont let u. even [s]uperman cnt help me now..
i told u happiness ws rare. i ws merely bein a realist. nt emo or nethin. js a realist. happiness is js nvr meant to b. for me? or 4 evri1 too? i dunno. u decide. i aint gnna tell u wot ur lyf sposd 2b. nt my prob.
dun tink it helpd 2 take a few mouthfuls from d bottle. js upset d stomach.
i dun get it. i laugh at my own stupidity. thot evrithin woz fyn.
its me nt u. its always me. sumfin happend n i js cnt seem 2 put my finger on it. bt it chnged evrithing abt who i am n wot i believd in. i alwys think i can overcum it n pretnd evrithin is ok. bt its not and it nvr is. i cant help it. i cnt b helpd. dun try to help me. dun try to save me. cos its nt worth d pain. i wont let u. even [s]uperman cnt help me now..
i told u happiness ws rare. i ws merely bein a realist. nt emo or nethin. js a realist. happiness is js nvr meant to b. for me? or 4 evri1 too? i dunno. u decide. i aint gnna tell u wot ur lyf sposd 2b. nt my prob.
dun tink it helpd 2 take a few mouthfuls from d bottle. js upset d stomach.
i dun get it. i laugh at my own stupidity. thot evrithin woz fyn.
-{ missing you 7/03/2007 05:42:00 pm }-