Friday, September 28, 2007

- thoughts in my head. -

it's times like these, when you need ur frends, and theyre not around. because only they know what it is that bothers you. and they know how to make it all better. now that theyre not here, i have no escape and i cant breathe. it's just not the same without u guys. everything that was so right seems so wrong now and i dunno why i'm so down. i dont know why i couldnt sit in my seat and not turn my head because i knew the presence would be met. but i dont care. but i do. but why do i. but why is this whole situation being made unbearable. why must i care. why must i drone on.

all my muscles ache. i am unable to do my work. because my heart and mind are adrift. floating..
-{ missing you 9/28/2007 09:19:00 pm }-

- mounting bridges, dinosaurs and yes. thunderbirds? -

Yawn. I'm sooo frickin' tired. A big day out. I had such a great time. I think i may have photos, I don't know. But I forced myself to write this because it's been such a long time since I had an awesome time. Especially what it takes to pull me away from those memories of Kings Park..

Well. It was a bbq held by Niss at Kings Park. There was, um, food and um, people, yeah, it was cool. I was absolutely incoherent and blonde the whole frickin' time it was pathetic. Now people think I have an I.Q of .. 80 or something.

Quite a lot of people left after the food. The rest of us packed up and found ourselves entertainment with the Twister board. Yes played in front of many many people. And that only the beginning of the embarrassment.

Yes we mounted bridges. And dinosaurs. ANd what we thought was a thunderbird. And boy. Are boys immature. I had the laugh of my life. I haven't laughed so hard and so much than any other day for so long already. It felt good. But seriously. Who knew *cough*shaun* had SUCH a IMPURE MIND?!?!

And the attempt that a bunch of 20 y.o's took to play games played by 5 y.o's failed miserably.

Sigh. Such a great day, and then I had to battle the dna tower. I mean, it was tough, but I tried. I couldn't go on it though. Every step, every embrace, every picture, every touch. Somethings are quite hard to forget and erase from the mind. We've got to move on. I've got to move on. I should've just went up the bloody structure.

Anyways. LIke I said. Great day. :)))
-{ missing you 9/28/2007 08:04:00 pm }-

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

- after a long hard week -

Like. Woah.

You know something is wrong when you're trying to type something in English, whether it be during an online conversation or in writing as essay, that when you have to reach for the CHINESE dictionary, because you don't know how to write '要 求 in English. Dodgy.

Well. Stress is the key word for these couple days. Give or take a day. Maybe like, Saturday? Shites.. two weeks in a row. If you catch my drift. It can't be any 'lax at this stage. I have essays to write. To research for. Gah.

I think I wanted to go to the Royal Show, now I'm not so sure. I want to see Hairspray cos I'm in love with Zac Efron the teeny-bopper way. And I want to go on a splurge. I need shoes.

I dunno. I hope I can blog more often in the next few days. I'm really blog-dry at the moment.

+newbeginning+
-{ missing you 9/26/2007 07:59:00 pm }-

Saturday, September 22, 2007

- unknown title -

I know haven't bloogged for a while. At least not proper posts. And I guess this one won't be any proper. I'm just scared if I tried, all I'd be doing is complain about my shit week. And for once, I am thinking about my readers and how I don't want to bore them with my incessant emo behaviour.

Other than the shit week that I've had, not much has been happening.. all of a sudden I'm having sharp pains in my finger which I cut at work. I think I'm bending it too much. Gotta stop typing.

peaace, until a better day comes my way, ok?
-{ missing you 9/22/2007 07:45:00 pm }-

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

- *SIGH* -

ZOMFG. TALK ABT SPEAKING TOO SOON. NOW MY DOCUMENTARY FILM IS FALLING APART. I JUST CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE REJECTION THIS WEEK. CAN'T. CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE BAD NEWS...
-{ missing you 9/19/2007 07:10:00 pm }-

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

- what more could go wrong or have i spoken too soon? -

AND I LOST MY $100 DEPOSIT MONEY.
-{ missing you 9/18/2007 08:54:00 pm }-

Monday, September 17, 2007

- and the world goes 'round -

You know what it feels like to have something and have it taken back from you?

Like going to karaoke for only one hour and leaving with a long list of unsung songs?

Like going to dinner and having to leave after entre?

Like having one lick of ice-cream and the i/c falls off your cone?

Like being told you won lotto, and the next day you lose the ticket?

It's rot. It's fuckin' rot.

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Try this. Today. Unable to book JayChou tickets in Shanghai. That I can live without.

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And then telling me I didnt actually get the bursary for China which means no China altogether. Abso-fucking-lutely rot.

And on top of that, a shit mark for our group proposal assignment and no apologies for fucking up my trip from the coordinator.

Guess who had a fan-fucking-tabulous day?
-{ missing you 9/17/2007 08:23:00 pm }-

Sunday, September 16, 2007

- by the way.. -

Did I mention I'm going to CHina anywhere?!? LOL. I guess I've TOLD everyone so I forgot to blog about it.

I'll give you something to think about yeah?

X said to Y online over an instant messaging (thing) : WHo are you?

and Y replied: Think back.. last night at club Z...

What is your initial reaction? What would you do if you were X? Wouldn't it be like WOAH! What did I(X) get up to?!

HAHA. But is it possible to make a friend at night at club Z with no such "connotations" attached? SUre there is!

Things to be looking forward to in the next couple weeks:
- paying for my china ticket
- bbq
- noelle's talent night

Things not to be looking foward to:
- uni
- getting proposal[s] back
- giving my seminar presentation
- starting production
- ASIA coctail (but everyone is making me go >.<)

More on NOELLE's TALENT NIGHT, she needs all the support she can get so come to talent night, it's $10 entry and support the AWESOME, TALENTED
-FANTABULOUS!!!!!- NoL!!!

I'm expecting a certain state champion to return the favour as he did get state champion with partial thanks to a certain three girls who came to give cheers and congrats.

COme to me to get tickets!
-{ missing you 9/16/2007 08:33:00 pm }-

- our night-half-life -

I can't believe I didn't make my 'one month'. A little disappointed, but nevertheless the night wasn't a complete letdown.

Last night that is. That was. Finished work at an all time record of 9pm. Waited two AND A HALF hours for Mish and headed to Metro's where everyone was. Wasn't REALLY everyone which was disappointing. Music was yet again disappointing. People were the same. As I proposed the question last night, WHY THE HELL DO WE ALWAYS COME HERE?!

Bah. It's Perth and there is no where else.

Three drinks- feelin' good and drove home. Safely that is. That was?

*uni tmz*cries* I have a tonne of shit that I haven't done all week.
-{ missing you 9/16/2007 02:26:00 pm }-

Saturday, September 15, 2007

- coyote ugly ost -

Heard it. Thought it was nice. And I was getting tired of Soda Green. But it's these lyrics I'm lovin':

Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
A mistake I'm making
But what you're giving I am happy to be taking
Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're something I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
I should try to run
But I just can't seem to
Cause everytime I run you're the one I run to
Can't do without, what you do to me
I don't care if I'm in too deep
Know all about
About your reputation
And how its' bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong

. . . .
-{ missing you 9/15/2007 12:55:00 am }-

Friday, September 14, 2007

- send me posies, and i'll send u kisses -

Looking through my tute blog posts, I quote an individual saying: "..the phrase 'lifelong relationship' is something of an understatement.." (end quote). I thought it was quite funny. Is this a common thought amongst us? Is there a difference between the use of 'lifelong' as opposed to 'eternal'? Has this individual been through an experience to believe that these terms are merely metaphorical and don't really exist in the reality of things?

On a different note, I'm always putting myself asleep at appalling times. I should try to get into a healthy sleeping pattern while I can. But I don't. Last night wasn't any better. Reaching to that third drawer and pulling out that book. Gah. You know I have this line in my head and I don't know where I got it from. It sounds like an old song we sang in primary school.. "Where have all the flowers gone? Long time dreaming.." You know this year has gone by like the wind? And if you think about it, March wasn't that long ago. Sure, 6 months ago, but it's not even a year yet. Although all the things that happened then, seemed like years away. I feel like I've been through so much time already and that I've grown so strong and independant from relying on those I feel vulnerable to. But it's only been months!

We've come such a long way within such a short period of time. And that always seems to be the case. Things occur too fast in a small time frame that it makes the situation all too hard to handle.

That's why I congratulate us for still being 'happy' and moving on with things during this period. I'm glad my last year of university will be the most exciting, because it sets me on a journey of decisions. I know what I don't want and that's good enough for me. Half of us will be leaving UWA, and Perth for that fact. I can feel the ground beneath us separating already. I wonder how our lives will become and what adventures we'll get ourselves into next?

Life is short right? Go find yourself some innocent trouble. It's fun. Don't waste your time thinking about how to make it right and just let it all go wrong. It's the only way you will learn.

-Sg '08- my independence
-{ missing you 9/14/2007 01:33:00 pm }-

Thursday, September 13, 2007

- asian fusion @ tiger lil's -

Pictures from Grace's 20th at Tiger Lil's..
That's Gracii in the black..

Three stooges fighting for one lychee. Fern, on the right there, came out as champion.

Birthday girly with her malteser great. Rich in chocolatey goodness.

Did I mention how much I LOVE kath's camera?!

The camera couldn't wait for Grace..


Who's the odd fella on the right there? (I was gonna ps him out. Jkz, my skills aren't good enough)


Timer taken pic. Yay
K-food pics and cam-whoring will come another time. I cbf.


-{ missing you 9/13/2007 09:54:00 pm }-

Friday, September 07, 2007

- mama told me only big girls wear high-heels -

What does it mean when people don't understand you? Are we always expecting everybody to make sense of your actions, emotions and rantings? What is it about social interaction that we need to know in order to steer clear of not offending someone?

Why can one person be so offended by what seems to be the smallest comment that was just taken out of context yet someone else endure the 'jokingly' 'laxed taunts of another?

I hate this thing called hypocritism and the way it manages to work itself into every aspect of our lives and make us contradict every fucking thing we say. I haven't yet met a person who has been a hypocritical sob. We're all hypocrites. And what can you do about it?

But it shits everybody. Everyone wants to think that they're normal and that they're being the good person. But who fucking cares right? No one but you. Prove to yourself that you're a good person and at the end of the day you can sleep easy.

And to that end, I am going to bed.
-{ missing you 9/07/2007 01:10:00 am }-

Thursday, September 06, 2007

- Grey -

Check out my grey world of snapshots. Its my 365 project. Don't expect pro pictures. I'm so un-pro.
-{ missing you 9/06/2007 09:05:00 pm }-

Monday, September 03, 2007

- car keying 101 -


Christmas at PEnang is awesommmmmmmmmme. That and I had a lot of glow sticks to play with :)))

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If stealing wasn't enough, try vandalism. Let me tell you something. Never try to key someone's car - WITH A HONDA CAR KEY. Feck, they're so useless being rounded off and all. Don't start lecturing me now. The cow deserved it. I hope karma comes her way. I guess it's gonna come my way too.

DO you like SODA GREEN? I like them.

-{ missing you 9/03/2007 08:11:00 pm }-

Sunday, September 02, 2007

- abstract art -


When I ktv two nights in a row, spontaneously, I don't know whether it is a good thing or bad. Both were good in retrospect that they were actually two very different nights, containing two very different groups of individuals and having two VERY different outcomes.
Let me vaguely inform you that: I/we have found a better singer. *ahem* Mr. Wherever you will go has been replaced by Mr. Can sing anything with THAT voice *drools*
Poor Fern was squished by me .. because I kept moving next to her.. and she didn't know why. That and she had a few spatial issues with a certain other. Um..
Poor Caz and her car, I couldn't help but laugh.
I need to do some work. Gah. I've done nothing. My past few days have been full of sleep, work .. and *ahem* ktv.
I wanna go to Red Party!!! *sulks*
SONG CHANGE - Soda Green - 小 情 歌
-{ missing you 9/02/2007 04:37:00 pm }-