Thursday, October 25, 2007
- hurting like it never hurt before - story of my life -
It's called being Lisa. Do you call yourself my friend?
Being Lisa. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve. You've just got to understand it's all underneath the facade of this person I don't even know. You've got to understand I am human and I hurt and you say things that hurt. I forgive you because you are my friend and I know people aren't perfect. You don't know what it takes to make this hurt go away.
Life brings about many problems. Everyone has their problems. No one but you can deal with them. You contrdict yourself when you said that to me. Then I remember one day you said that friends are always there for you to depend on. Lisa is a very stupid girl. Simple-minded and needs not any mind games. You contradict yourself and confuse me. What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to think of you?
Why can't I hide behind my blog? Why can't I hide what I say? Is it a crime to do so? Call me whatever you want. I'm too tired to care.
WHy should I care? Why should I hurt? Why should I cry, when crying does nothing to help me? Why should I talk or listen?
After everything I've done...why can't it just work? Why can't anything just work out for once in my fucking life.
Being Lisa. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve. You've just got to understand it's all underneath the facade of this person I don't even know. You've got to understand I am human and I hurt and you say things that hurt. I forgive you because you are my friend and I know people aren't perfect. You don't know what it takes to make this hurt go away.
Life brings about many problems. Everyone has their problems. No one but you can deal with them. You contrdict yourself when you said that to me. Then I remember one day you said that friends are always there for you to depend on. Lisa is a very stupid girl. Simple-minded and needs not any mind games. You contradict yourself and confuse me. What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to think of you?
Why can't I hide behind my blog? Why can't I hide what I say? Is it a crime to do so? Call me whatever you want. I'm too tired to care.
WHy should I care? Why should I hurt? Why should I cry, when crying does nothing to help me? Why should I talk or listen?
After everything I've done...why can't it just work? Why can't anything just work out for once in my fucking life.
-{ missing you 10/25/2007 12:58:00 am }-
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
- zomgzomgzomg! -
I wanted to show you what I was excited about but blogger won't let me upload photos. But you'll just have to suffer through my words.
What or who, you ask?
His name starts with j- and ends with chou. No, not about his new upcoming album, because I have yet to hear it.
It's about his SECRET. And if YOU don't know what his SECRET is, YOU SUCK.
YES!! He's done it this time!! A successful production, cos he did EVERYTHING himself. Script- produced- directed- the music. Trust me and you will watch the best Movie Jay has ever starred in.
What or who, you ask?
His name starts with j- and ends with chou. No, not about his new upcoming album, because I have yet to hear it.
It's about his SECRET. And if YOU don't know what his SECRET is, YOU SUCK.
YES!! He's done it this time!! A successful production, cos he did EVERYTHING himself. Script- produced- directed- the music. Trust me and you will watch the best Movie Jay has ever starred in.
-{ missing you 10/23/2007 02:08:00 pm }-
Friday, October 19, 2007
- your love for him, but he loves you more -
WHy? Because he took a bullet for you. Like he said he would. Did you know? It only occurred to me why someone would take the blow of humiliation and embarrassment for no reason whatsoever. ANd now I know the reason. It's all because of you. Who said fairy tales don't exist? I'm seeing one right now.
-{ missing you 10/19/2007 08:50:00 pm }-
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
- dear diary -
Dear diary,
I've been thinking. And thinking. And I think I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying put because I want to have this chance of liking him. It doesn't matter that he doesn't know and he's not here. I can sit here and wait 'til he is here. And even if he doesn't come, then that's ok. Because he can be with me in my dreams.
If people ask me, I will say my heart is drifting. I cannot stop my heart from growing wings. It will fly until someone can clip them and claim my heart as their own. I hope it is him. But if it isn't, I will wait for someone ..
I don't ask for much. I just want to sit here and wait is all. Leave me in peace and let me wait. I know he will come to me when fate decides to direct him in my direction. I will wait.
_Lisa.
I've been thinking. And thinking. And I think I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying put because I want to have this chance of liking him. It doesn't matter that he doesn't know and he's not here. I can sit here and wait 'til he is here. And even if he doesn't come, then that's ok. Because he can be with me in my dreams.
If people ask me, I will say my heart is drifting. I cannot stop my heart from growing wings. It will fly until someone can clip them and claim my heart as their own. I hope it is him. But if it isn't, I will wait for someone ..
I don't ask for much. I just want to sit here and wait is all. Leave me in peace and let me wait. I know he will come to me when fate decides to direct him in my direction. I will wait.
_Lisa.
-{ missing you 10/16/2007 10:45:00 pm }-
Monday, October 15, 2007
- for the love of J.... -
Let them take over our senses. Let him take over my heart.
Take my hand and hold me tight
Take a place in my heart so you can feel the heat of us
It's unbearable, how you tremble
And I want to pull you close
Forever
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
Your touch is warm like the first sunlight
Now I know why those people are saying love is blind
I believe my heart belongs to you I love you (more than I thought I could)
You spread through my heart like fire
I love you when I saw you, when I touch you, when I feel you
When I fell in love
It's an endless passion
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
You live and breathe inside of me
Sometimes I'm almost afraid of what I feel
The love you've given me drowns me
I know our love is a miracle
You ease the pain in me and slowly
It becomes eternity
My love (saves me)
Stolen my heart, stolen my soul
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
Your touch is warm like the first sunlight
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight.
Like tonight, and every other night...
Take my hand and hold me tight
Take a place in my heart so you can feel the heat of us
It's unbearable, how you tremble
And I want to pull you close
Forever
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
Your touch is warm like the first sunlight
Now I know why those people are saying love is blind
I believe my heart belongs to you I love you (more than I thought I could)
You spread through my heart like fire
I love you when I saw you, when I touch you, when I feel you
When I fell in love
It's an endless passion
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
You live and breathe inside of me
Sometimes I'm almost afraid of what I feel
The love you've given me drowns me
I know our love is a miracle
You ease the pain in me and slowly
It becomes eternity
My love (saves me)
Stolen my heart, stolen my soul
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight
Your touch is warm like the first sunlight
Stolen my soul, stolen my heart
You consume me till I can't even breathe
Like a child caught in the rain
Like love scattered across the earth
Like tonight.
Like tonight, and every other night...
-{ missing you 10/15/2007 03:10:00 pm }-
Sunday, October 14, 2007
- the birthday thing i went to last night -
Drunken nights? No way.
I'll show you something that'll amaze you:
Featuring...Lisa! Not drunk-off-her-face-screaming-obscene-profanity-at-people. I was as sober as 6 drinks could be consumed over a 7 hour period.
Ok. Let's back track, from left to right in the picture we have serene (my new best friend :D) - me and ANDREWWWW, the post birthday boy. A shared 21st bash held at Onyx Bar. It was a great night, one I would've thought to be leaving at 10 something. But I stayed. Til the music died. Which was 2am, their new time change. Yay! The night was so eventful, free drinks (mwahahahaha) and I was nicely sober at the end of it. Not to mention having to take care of the drunkards.. and the failed attempt to sober them up at Fast Eddies.
Sober, yes I was. Intoxicated, probably over the drink-driving limit, and there goes me again. Anywho's . . . . i had fun. :))))))
I just put an order in for nana 1&2 the movie. It was a spontaneous move. o__o excitinggg. Hoping for more spontaneous moves to come. my way.
Later dayz
-{ missing you 10/14/2007 08:00:00 pm }-
Saturday, October 13, 2007
- the day i came to uni on a saturday -
zommg. Falling asleep again while I'm trying to do my work.. gah gah gah.
It's Saturday and a lovely day today at a top of thirty-two degrees. Lovely weather for the beach or a picnic at the park.
Did I just sound like a weather reporter? Sigh. It's all true though. And whilst everybody is busy with stuff, I had no where to go and know one to go with. So what do I do?
Like all sane people, I come to uni. Yep. Saturday with nothing to do but assignments. I thought I would try out the uni-on-a-Saturday atmosphere, and boy , does it NOT change anything.
Yanwing as usual, getting distracted by the net as usual, NOT DOING MY WORK as usual. Even writing this blog is makin gmy eyelids heavy. Now that's something to worry about.
Anyways, how can my units be interesting and worth-while learning whilst at the same time be such a bore and tediously painful? I cringe at the thought of sitting my exams.
I swear to god. my eyes need some candy, or else they will shut.
omg, all I'm doing is nodding off at random times. Ithink the people around me are seeing it too. I'm doing it now!
So what do you do when you are falling asleep? I went outside and walked.
It's warm outside, and I've been pretty much indoors most of the time and I'm kinda cold-ish.
I shoulda.. put a time to each time I wrote.. it's like, 1.03pm now. I think I'll give up at 2, go to ed's ktv, and then rush home and get ready and go to onyx. At least I got SOME work done right?
yeah, I WILL keep telling myself that.
It's Saturday and a lovely day today at a top of thirty-two degrees. Lovely weather for the beach or a picnic at the park.
Did I just sound like a weather reporter? Sigh. It's all true though. And whilst everybody is busy with stuff, I had no where to go and know one to go with. So what do I do?
Like all sane people, I come to uni. Yep. Saturday with nothing to do but assignments. I thought I would try out the uni-on-a-Saturday atmosphere, and boy , does it NOT change anything.
Yanwing as usual, getting distracted by the net as usual, NOT DOING MY WORK as usual. Even writing this blog is makin gmy eyelids heavy. Now that's something to worry about.
Anyways, how can my units be interesting and worth-while learning whilst at the same time be such a bore and tediously painful? I cringe at the thought of sitting my exams.
I swear to god. my eyes need some candy, or else they will shut.
omg, all I'm doing is nodding off at random times. Ithink the people around me are seeing it too. I'm doing it now!
So what do you do when you are falling asleep? I went outside and walked.
It's warm outside, and I've been pretty much indoors most of the time and I'm kinda cold-ish.
I shoulda.. put a time to each time I wrote.. it's like, 1.03pm now. I think I'll give up at 2, go to ed's ktv, and then rush home and get ready and go to onyx. At least I got SOME work done right?
yeah, I WILL keep telling myself that.
-{ missing you 10/13/2007 11:57:00 am }-
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
- quizzical -
It has been a long while since i done a quiz. This one is courtesy of ryeei..
one]. Spell your name without an A.
Lis
[two]. Are you single?
yup
[three]. Whats your favorite number[s]?
5
[four]. Whats your favorite color[s]?
green
[five]. Least favorite color?
there isn’t any
[six]. What are you listening to?
"you’re wayy tooo beeeaauuuuutifulll gurLLlll…..”
[seven]. Are you happy with your life right now?
right now? Not right now no.
[eight]. What was/is your favorite subject in school?
history..
[nine]. Do you shop at abercrombie?
no/not applicable
[eleven]. Where do you wish you were right now?
leedy.
[twelve] What should you be doing right now?
online lectures…
[thirteen]. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No
THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?
’course I can
Can you touch your toes?
yessir
Can you wiggle your ears?
in unusual circumstances, yes
Can you roll your tongue?
I can do something to it :S
THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor?
sure did
Do you believe in God?
sure there’s a GOD somewhere up there
Do you like roller coasters?
sometimes
Do you want to be a firefighter?
Naww
When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
omg! Like….totally on Tuesday arvo!
What was the last thing you drank:
water
What was the last thing you watched?
the news…
THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my manager.. *poo*
Who was the last person to call you?
edmond? …
Who was the last person to text you?
andrew
Who was the last person you hugged?
someone on Saturday night. Like I really dunno..too many hugs being xchanged..
CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing?
white
Pants?
green
Have any tattoos?
naww
Straight hair or curly hair?:
long and straight
Happy?:
I’m abt to go bake stuff.. so yes happy and excited
Other Stuff
1. What plans do you have for tonight?
make those cheesey twists & choc-nut puffs, do my lectures, finish that assignment and prep those lecture notes. Too much?
2. Do you hate liars?
hate is such an awful word..
3. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
lol.. this is a hard one…. Next!
4. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired gals?
I don’t prefer gals.
6. Have you done anything in your past that you regret?
DUHH ‘course!
8. Do you have a gal best friend?
yeh why not. Besties are totally cool
9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
grow.. up?
10. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
0_o course not.
13. Did you ever have your heart broken?
my heart is too cold and dark
16. How are things between you and your parents?
funny you ask..!
18. Do you like your life?
soso … (teehee vivi feat. Nicky.)
19. What is your fave food?
penang laksa. Or maybe local alor star laksa is better.. *drools*
20. whats your fave love movie?
arghs. All time would be fly me to polaris
21. What is your best physical feature?
long straight hair?
22. Do you forgive or forget?
Depends who you are ;P
24. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
I have more friends than you do.
25. How long have you had myspace?
SIF myspace.
27. Have you ever given anyone a back rub?
Yesh
30. What is one of your biggest fears?
stuff with more than two legs.
31. Has anyone close passed away?
guess not... (thanks mish o__o)
34. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
F&$% yeh.
37. What color is your underwear?
lellow
43. Do you ever wish you were famous?
nup
44. Do you ever wish you were a girl?
…no
45. Do you ever hear a song that reminds you of an ex and you think of them?
that’s wat songs do!
one]. Spell your name without an A.
Lis
[two]. Are you single?
yup
[three]. Whats your favorite number[s]?
5
[four]. Whats your favorite color[s]?
green
[five]. Least favorite color?
there isn’t any
[six]. What are you listening to?
"you’re wayy tooo beeeaauuuuutifulll gurLLlll…..”
[seven]. Are you happy with your life right now?
right now? Not right now no.
[eight]. What was/is your favorite subject in school?
history..
[nine]. Do you shop at abercrombie?
no/not applicable
[eleven]. Where do you wish you were right now?
leedy.
[twelve] What should you be doing right now?
online lectures…
[thirteen]. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No
THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?
’course I can
Can you touch your toes?
yessir
Can you wiggle your ears?
in unusual circumstances, yes
Can you roll your tongue?
I can do something to it :S
THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor?
sure did
Do you believe in God?
sure there’s a GOD somewhere up there
Do you like roller coasters?
sometimes
Do you want to be a firefighter?
Naww
When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
omg! Like….totally on Tuesday arvo!
What was the last thing you drank:
water
What was the last thing you watched?
the news…
THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my manager.. *poo*
Who was the last person to call you?
edmond? …
Who was the last person to text you?
andrew
Who was the last person you hugged?
someone on Saturday night. Like I really dunno..too many hugs being xchanged..
CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing?
white
Pants?
green
Have any tattoos?
naww
Straight hair or curly hair?:
long and straight
Happy?:
I’m abt to go bake stuff.. so yes happy and excited
Other Stuff
1. What plans do you have for tonight?
make those cheesey twists & choc-nut puffs, do my lectures, finish that assignment and prep those lecture notes. Too much?
2. Do you hate liars?
hate is such an awful word..
3. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
lol.. this is a hard one…. Next!
4. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired gals?
I don’t prefer gals.
6. Have you done anything in your past that you regret?
DUHH ‘course!
8. Do you have a gal best friend?
yeh why not. Besties are totally cool
9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
grow.. up?
10. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
0_o course not.
13. Did you ever have your heart broken?
my heart is too cold and dark
16. How are things between you and your parents?
funny you ask..!
18. Do you like your life?
soso … (teehee vivi feat. Nicky.)
19. What is your fave food?
penang laksa. Or maybe local alor star laksa is better.. *drools*
20. whats your fave love movie?
arghs. All time would be fly me to polaris
21. What is your best physical feature?
long straight hair?
22. Do you forgive or forget?
Depends who you are ;P
24. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
I have more friends than you do.
25. How long have you had myspace?
SIF myspace.
27. Have you ever given anyone a back rub?
Yesh
30. What is one of your biggest fears?
stuff with more than two legs.
31. Has anyone close passed away?
guess not... (thanks mish o__o)
34. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
F&$% yeh.
37. What color is your underwear?
lellow
43. Do you ever wish you were famous?
nup
44. Do you ever wish you were a girl?
…no
45. Do you ever hear a song that reminds you of an ex and you think of them?
that’s wat songs do!
-{ missing you 10/10/2007 09:15:00 pm }-
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
- wwjd!!!! -
WOAH talk about.. NOt blogging
I've lost my blogging instincts, it's like. So weird now. past week or so has bn crazy wat with the assignments , talent night, ktv, spring feast, ktv, cocktail, work... assignments. gah. it's not going to get any better though.
I'll tell ya what has though. work is not so much of a hassle anymore. maybe cos i dun got many shifts. but then that means i dun got much money.. and talk about spending.
today i went to buy my juicy couture bag. boy. that was a hefty spend. mum's not happy. i kinda am. i'll post it up one day.. meanwhile. its kinda small for a uni bag. but thats why i wanted it. cos my green one is almost gonna fall apart.... i geuss i'll just have to find a way to put all my crap into it.
i jus found out also that currency covnersion to malaysia is like, 3.24 ------ FUCK!! thatssss soo high. am thinking about a new phone. its rm1k. so it'll cost me abt 300bucks. awesome hey? i hope the xchange still like that next year. mite go back next year.. along with taiwan...
i've had an unhealthy 3 days of caffeine intake.. so i need to do something about that hey..
soooo.. .. .. ktv?
I've lost my blogging instincts, it's like. So weird now. past week or so has bn crazy wat with the assignments , talent night, ktv, spring feast, ktv, cocktail, work... assignments. gah. it's not going to get any better though.
I'll tell ya what has though. work is not so much of a hassle anymore. maybe cos i dun got many shifts. but then that means i dun got much money.. and talk about spending.
today i went to buy my juicy couture bag. boy. that was a hefty spend. mum's not happy. i kinda am. i'll post it up one day.. meanwhile. its kinda small for a uni bag. but thats why i wanted it. cos my green one is almost gonna fall apart.... i geuss i'll just have to find a way to put all my crap into it.
i jus found out also that currency covnersion to malaysia is like, 3.24 ------ FUCK!! thatssss soo high. am thinking about a new phone. its rm1k. so it'll cost me abt 300bucks. awesome hey? i hope the xchange still like that next year. mite go back next year.. along with taiwan...
i've had an unhealthy 3 days of caffeine intake.. so i need to do something about that hey..
soooo.. .. .. ktv?
-{ missing you 10/09/2007 07:50:00 pm }-
Monday, October 08, 2007
- beautiful girl - sean kingston -
Change of tempo.. its addictive, this song is..
Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 1:]
See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love last forever (last forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)
[Pre Chorus:]
See it's very divine
You're a one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You outta get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
[Chorus:]
Your way to Beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 2:]
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
[Pre Chorus:]
See it's very divine
You're a one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You outta get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
[Chorus:]
Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 3:]
Now we are fussin'
And now we are fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slighted
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' in my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suici..
Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 1:]
See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love last forever (last forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)
[Pre Chorus:]
See it's very divine
You're a one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You outta get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
[Chorus:]
Your way to Beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 2:]
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
[Pre Chorus:]
See it's very divine
You're a one of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You outta get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
[Chorus:]
Your way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
[Verse 3:]
Now we are fussin'
And now we are fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slighted
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' in my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suici..
-{ missing you 10/08/2007 08:49:00 pm }-
Saturday, October 06, 2007
- A carton of corona kould taint another illl life. -
Poor Poor attempt at acronyms. Acronyms? Pseudonyms?
Woteva.
You know how much I have downgraded myself to after appearing at A. C. last night? You know how much I am screwing myself over with my essay for this? You know how many FkN free drinks I coulda got if I stayed??!??!?! FREE DRINKSSSSSSSSSS
I mean, VIP entry was already free, so why not reap my benefits? Oh I mean, free drinks beyond my two free drinks of course. And maybe I owed a billion people drinks because I said I would die before you see me at any A.C. and that if they see me, I'll buy em 2 or 3 drinks. Most of them forgot. The ones who didn't hunted me down like dogs.
SIF you get free drinks from me >.<
Music was surprisingly goood. Atmosphere was likewise. I guess, it was only 12 something. Sure I downgraded myself, but the only thing I stood by, was my curfew time. And I did get home before 1am. 12.57am BayBeee!!!
So maybe I left when it was getting good. I don't mind now. Cos I'm kind of tired still and scoffing down my breakfast while I write this cos the 7.30am shift is slowly approaching... as is daylight.
Back to last night. Every FkN person was there last night. EVery last fKn one of them. scary intimidating. So much dodginess! .. sooo, did I drink? LIke Hell...
i Did. One and a half. sHHH. Yikes. I gtg..
Woteva.
You know how much I have downgraded myself to after appearing at A. C. last night? You know how much I am screwing myself over with my essay for this? You know how many FkN free drinks I coulda got if I stayed??!??!?! FREE DRINKSSSSSSSSSS
I mean, VIP entry was already free, so why not reap my benefits? Oh I mean, free drinks beyond my two free drinks of course. And maybe I owed a billion people drinks because I said I would die before you see me at any A.C. and that if they see me, I'll buy em 2 or 3 drinks. Most of them forgot. The ones who didn't hunted me down like dogs.
SIF you get free drinks from me >.<
Music was surprisingly goood. Atmosphere was likewise. I guess, it was only 12 something. Sure I downgraded myself, but the only thing I stood by, was my curfew time. And I did get home before 1am. 12.57am BayBeee!!!
So maybe I left when it was getting good. I don't mind now. Cos I'm kind of tired still and scoffing down my breakfast while I write this cos the 7.30am shift is slowly approaching... as is daylight.
Back to last night. Every FkN person was there last night. EVery last fKn one of them. scary intimidating. So much dodginess! .. sooo, did I drink? LIke Hell...
i Did. One and a half. sHHH. Yikes. I gtg..
-{ missing you 10/06/2007 06:28:00 am }-
Thursday, October 04, 2007
- our pretentious minds -
We can't even pretend to move on, because there is nothing to move on from. Your voice, your smell, your looks, caught me by surprise, and now I'm left with no hope of hearing, of smelling, of seeing.
Well, no harm done. I have survived without them before, it only saddens me that it was only a moment of hope. Such a short moment it was! Oh, such forlorn feelings! (the new word I learnt today)
Regardless, tomorrow is always a new day and a new beginning. I only hope that we remain what we initially became. Tomorrow, I seek out a new beginning, as new beginnings are what keep me going. :))
~Dear 3am, we have got to stop meeting like this, it isn't healthy.
You know I would rather sleep with you instead.
Behave dear child, only the deepest of holes at the bottom of the bottle are worthy of my selection (shampagnee anyone?)~
Well, no harm done. I have survived without them before, it only saddens me that it was only a moment of hope. Such a short moment it was! Oh, such forlorn feelings! (the new word I learnt today)
Regardless, tomorrow is always a new day and a new beginning. I only hope that we remain what we initially became. Tomorrow, I seek out a new beginning, as new beginnings are what keep me going. :))
~Dear 3am, we have got to stop meeting like this, it isn't healthy.
You know I would rather sleep with you instead.
Behave dear child, only the deepest of holes at the bottom of the bottle are worthy of my selection (shampagnee anyone?)~
-{ missing you 10/04/2007 02:09:00 am }-
Monday, October 01, 2007
- the perfect words -
Words. My blog has been just words lately. The lack of comments seem like a quiet change. I do love comments. But no comments make me feel like I can quietly blog to myself or something. So words it shall be.
Yesterday I went to the Playaz Ball, Joe performance. Sadly it was a one hour performance, but apparantly he was supposed to be up there for two. SO. It has come to this. Metros, on a Sunday night! Well. The music was actually better than usual. The crowd was quite the mixture. The company was quite an experience. Although I wish I had my friends with me when all the good songs came on. I felt so lonely singing them while the guys were just making fun of everyone.
I really need to stop with the redbull drinks, they frickin' wake me up in the middle of the night and keep me up ALL FKN night. terrible stuff. But then.. they were free. Who am I to complain?
Do you ever get that feeling of expressing something, but you don't know the right way to do it? It's like, I will do whatever I always do, and if I don't get the response I want, then maybe I'm not conveying myself properly? But maybe, I am doing the right thing, the response that I want just isn't wanted to be given. So maybe, I got it all wrong in the first place. So maybe, I'm just talking rubbish. So maybe, I should just forget the whole thing?
Or maybe, I ignored something I shouldn't have. Oh damnit. It was there, in my face, and I didn't respond either. A comment which I had no response to because there was nothing in my mind except the thought of..
And again with the rubbish talk. About what if's and what not's.
This week is MultiCultural Week and we have Noelle's talent night and Spring feast to look forward to.
aja aja hwaiting!
P.s. China day.. 1st October, 1949...
Yesterday I went to the Playaz Ball, Joe performance. Sadly it was a one hour performance, but apparantly he was supposed to be up there for two. SO. It has come to this. Metros, on a Sunday night! Well. The music was actually better than usual. The crowd was quite the mixture. The company was quite an experience. Although I wish I had my friends with me when all the good songs came on. I felt so lonely singing them while the guys were just making fun of everyone.
I really need to stop with the redbull drinks, they frickin' wake me up in the middle of the night and keep me up ALL FKN night. terrible stuff. But then.. they were free. Who am I to complain?
Do you ever get that feeling of expressing something, but you don't know the right way to do it? It's like, I will do whatever I always do, and if I don't get the response I want, then maybe I'm not conveying myself properly? But maybe, I am doing the right thing, the response that I want just isn't wanted to be given. So maybe, I got it all wrong in the first place. So maybe, I'm just talking rubbish. So maybe, I should just forget the whole thing?
Or maybe, I ignored something I shouldn't have. Oh damnit. It was there, in my face, and I didn't respond either. A comment which I had no response to because there was nothing in my mind except the thought of..
And again with the rubbish talk. About what if's and what not's.
This week is MultiCultural Week and we have Noelle's talent night and Spring feast to look forward to.
aja aja hwaiting!
P.s. China day.. 1st October, 1949...
-{ missing you 10/01/2007 02:02:00 pm }-