Saturday, January 26, 2008
- gone uncherished. -
As I do my daily browse of everyone's blogs, I've realised how disinclined I have been to posting replies to people's post, just as my readers have been also.
But today I feel such a rush of emotions by the tiniest of things. And I feel like elaborating on Noelle's point about how the closest people to you have the biggest tendency to hurt you the most. I feel like I understand that now, and how certain friendships that I thought went uncherished, actually mean a whole lot to me. It feels like no matter how much I try to patch things up, things fall further and further apart, and it pains me so much that this is happening. If you remember, I have written about this before. And yes, I thought I had things sorted out and had them under control. And we managed to make sure that communication become the essence of our friendship. But it does not seem so anymore.
What do our pointless coffee sessions prove if they do not solve the problem? They feel like dodgy patching over cracked walls, and we are only fooling ourselves that this is working. I DO feel like I have put in much more effort and nothing is coming from you. I don't even know if you read my blog anymore. I don't even know if you care. If you do read and do care, and realise that it is YOU I am talking about, call me. I just want to catch up. I don't want to catch up for problem solving sessions. Just call me so I can talk to you again.
But today I feel such a rush of emotions by the tiniest of things. And I feel like elaborating on Noelle's point about how the closest people to you have the biggest tendency to hurt you the most. I feel like I understand that now, and how certain friendships that I thought went uncherished, actually mean a whole lot to me. It feels like no matter how much I try to patch things up, things fall further and further apart, and it pains me so much that this is happening. If you remember, I have written about this before. And yes, I thought I had things sorted out and had them under control. And we managed to make sure that communication become the essence of our friendship. But it does not seem so anymore.
What do our pointless coffee sessions prove if they do not solve the problem? They feel like dodgy patching over cracked walls, and we are only fooling ourselves that this is working. I DO feel like I have put in much more effort and nothing is coming from you. I don't even know if you read my blog anymore. I don't even know if you care. If you do read and do care, and realise that it is YOU I am talking about, call me. I just want to catch up. I don't want to catch up for problem solving sessions. Just call me so I can talk to you again.
-{ missing you 1/26/2008 06:43:00 pm }-
Monday, January 21, 2008
- ArrMaaahda. -
First day at work! I finally know what my restaurant is called. ARMADA restaurant. LOL. First day was good. Easy. Piss easy. Anything beats Burswood. And my boss is UBER COOL. And funny. Although we etablished our humours are quite different. We merely laugh at each others stupidity.
What a splendid day.
What a splendid day.
-{ missing you 1/21/2008 06:32:00 pm }-
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
- summer days -
Blogging's such a chore.. la la la - la la.
Not much has been happening, I guess since I've cooped myself up at home and watched anime all day everyday. No job, no Ed and no money.
But on the up side, I found myself a second job.. but it's gonna be more like my main job since Burswood is being a bitch and giving all the shifts to the contracted staff. SOooo unfair. But I'm happy cos it means money into the dry dry account.
I still have some photos from Nye and some pics from when Ed came back from Esperance to upload but am capped now, so I'll upload them later.
I've finished watching My Name is Kim Samsoon. It's quite good.. I still have Smiling Pasta and some anime to keep me occupied for a good month or so..
In the mean time, it's heads down, work hard and watch dramas/anime.
:)
Not much has been happening, I guess since I've cooped myself up at home and watched anime all day everyday. No job, no Ed and no money.
But on the up side, I found myself a second job.. but it's gonna be more like my main job since Burswood is being a bitch and giving all the shifts to the contracted staff. SOooo unfair. But I'm happy cos it means money into the dry dry account.
I still have some photos from Nye and some pics from when Ed came back from Esperance to upload but am capped now, so I'll upload them later.
I've finished watching My Name is Kim Samsoon. It's quite good.. I still have Smiling Pasta and some anime to keep me occupied for a good month or so..
In the mean time, it's heads down, work hard and watch dramas/anime.
:)
-{ missing you 1/16/2008 02:57:00 pm }-
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
- lisa welcomes you to H.E.R 2008! -
HapPyy NEW yEARRS everyone!!
I know for sure that almost everyone enjoyed nye cos everyone was out and celebrating! Facebook pics tell all.
I was at Darrens nye party and it rocked!
That's us and Rudy, boy did he have a lot to drink. I got much redder and slightly tipsier as the night rolled on.. pics are on another camera which I'm not to .. happy about.
Everyone was happy, enjoyed the night. And talk about scandals. So many scandals!! Mwahahhaa... it was a good dosage. I got more today and lord!!
Anywho... that's my rant.. a good week to look forward to, I'll be taking pictures *winks*
ciao friends!
-{ missing you 1/02/2008 08:15:00 pm }-