Friday, February 22, 2008
- downside up -
OMG. Blogger is being gay and wont let me upload pictures. Just when I feel like doing the uploading!!!!
Comments from last blog made me realise that regard the changes that have been made in my life, I am still so pessimistic. It seems inevitable. Having something you want, only makes you scared of losing it. Dreaming of having it, always seemed the safer option. It used to be the only option I was used to.
Now things are becoming reality and it scares to to think how I could live the way I used to. Dreaming. This is why I'm so pessimistic, it's like my safeguard to when I fall down.
But I guess it doesn't really stop the pain when it hurts.
I am happy and I want to stay happy. I have the simple things in life like good friends and family and it's more than I can ask for. I need to wake up everyday with that on my mind and I think it could get me through the day without a negative thought in mind.
It's hard to blog these days, I suddenly don't know what to write. Not that I wrote anything good before anyway. But for the sake of the few readers that expect me to write, I will write. And think of you.
You guys are the protagonists of my life (^^)Y
Comments from last blog made me realise that regard the changes that have been made in my life, I am still so pessimistic. It seems inevitable. Having something you want, only makes you scared of losing it. Dreaming of having it, always seemed the safer option. It used to be the only option I was used to.
Now things are becoming reality and it scares to to think how I could live the way I used to. Dreaming. This is why I'm so pessimistic, it's like my safeguard to when I fall down.
But I guess it doesn't really stop the pain when it hurts.
I am happy and I want to stay happy. I have the simple things in life like good friends and family and it's more than I can ask for. I need to wake up everyday with that on my mind and I think it could get me through the day without a negative thought in mind.
It's hard to blog these days, I suddenly don't know what to write. Not that I wrote anything good before anyway. But for the sake of the few readers that expect me to write, I will write. And think of you.
You guys are the protagonists of my life (^^)Y
-{ missing you 2/22/2008 12:16:00 pm }-