Tuesday, February 24, 2009

- Tidbits -

Tidbits

Singapore 2008 - Me and Kifa at Toast Box, so goood to finally meet this girl. We have this weird sorta friendship, it's there - but not all there. She know's many bits of me, but not entirely of who I am. She's great, if only there was more time for talk talk talk... :)

Holiday updates are on the Edmondandlisa blog. I finally updated it for us. Go check it.

I want to smell out two perfumes before I declare love on them - Givenchy, Absolutely Irresistible and Ralph Lauren Romance, Always Yours. This is my branch from Ralph Style and Givenchy Very Irresistible. Gah.

Valentine's Day was celebrated quite subtly. This is my present...




Sparkly and forever.
-{ missing you 2/24/2009 08:40:00 pm }-

Monday, February 23, 2009

Ostentatious

A word to keep in mind; it's not spelt with an A! I'm so stupid I'm embarrassed to tell people I'm a U-dubber. Just like Noelle's dad pointed out: 'How the hell are you guys from uni? Geez!' Yeah, he said 'geez'. We're such tools.

An update was due. Barely keeping poor HER alive. I am going to get that desktop this weekend! Even though it's going to take another two weeks to arrive.

FOB and TAAR were fanfuckingtastic. Like I enjoyed every single inch of all their voices. It was insane. Where is You Boy Tonight rocked my socks off to shreds. Big thanks to Ed who sat through disliking the whole thing. Poor b!

And I'll leave you quickly with this thing I read:

"Everyone suffers. We all feel unacceptable - although, we disguise that fear in different ways: using anger or bullying; by drinking too much or eating too little; by buying handbags we can't afford; or by pretending we don't need other people, that we are emotionally bulletproof." - Sally Brampton.

Bulletproof? That's totally bullshit. Drink less. eat more. Indulge shoes and not bags. Need people. Need friends. Love everyone.

We gotta get out and enjoy this objective that is. Life!
-{ missing you 2/23/2009 10:39:00 pm }-

Monday, February 09, 2009

- Sleepy goodness. -

Sleepy goodness

Have you ever been soo tired: so tired that you wake up, brush your teeth, get changed BUT -

fall asleep whilst changing...? Because I soo totally haven't.
-{ missing you 2/09/2009 08:49:00 pm }-

Sunday, February 08, 2009

- Enlightenment -

Enlightenment



Things may not have been going smoothly for me at the beginning of this year. Coming back from seeing my relatives, having thrown the biggest birthday celebration we ever could for my grandmother who had turned 90.



And now to find out she is gone from our lives. I was never physically or emotionally close to her. However she was the only grandparent that was there until I was old enough to know better. The distraught this has brought onto our lives, we try to remain positive, to KNOW she is definitely in a better place....



Along with other things, the New Year has not brought happiness or prosperity. I was as lost as I was at the beginning of my university life, trying to find my self-identity. I have been soul searching trying to find a purpose in life. I have been in pursuit of happiness that is out of reach and never in my sites. I have been struggling to cope with what life has thrown my way, may it be good or bad...



But last night I realised something. I realised I was alive and everything around me was so real. To be honest, it wasn't the religion that touched me. But it was the reality of the events. I saw sincerity and dedication. I saw honesty in one person that I've never seen in anyone that has crossed my path. I saw one man standing before me that restored my faith in the human race.



I know it may be a little over the top, but it touched me. I sat there with tears in my eyes, hoping I could try to give him courage to carry on, because what was shared was too beautiful to be encrusted with tears, the room acquiesced giving him the respect that he deserved.



It was a speech filled with so much passion, so much love. I was moved among many things. But it was 15 minutes I sat there with this human being standing before me and for the first time I thought. Clearly.



Perfection is impossible. To believe someone is perfect is to know nothing about them. It is to deny yourself the chance to get to know them.



Simplicity is not the key to anything. Our world exists in networks, in vast communities, in virtual realities. No one is simple. Everyone is complex and interesting. Everyone has their own beliefs and values and virtues. As long as they stay true to them, it will help them get by each day, each year and everything that crosses their journey of life. We cannot expect someone to succumb to what we believe because we are all so different and different in ways that we can interpret the same thing differently. But we can share these feelings with one another which can yield the understanding of others. That is, if you choose to understand.



His honesty made me realise the reality of the people around me that I have been pulling myself back for reasons that aren't even worth being reasons. Life is the path you take; the problems are the test of loyalty. We must learn to be humble. We must learn not to judge. We need to give more. If we can't learn from our mistakes and learning to appreciate the morning's ray, we don't deserve this chance of today. Everyday can be repetitive and routine, sometimes even lonely but it's another day we can enjoy the smaller things in life that we ALWAYS take for granted. It is important to be around those that you can have fun with, that make you laugh, not cry.



I'm not claiming that I am repaired. But I've just realised. I have realised that I wasn't so broken to begin with. It was just a matter of fact of seeing the reality of things and having my faith in people restored.



Happy 21st, and thankyou.
-{ missing you 2/08/2009 11:23:00 am }-