Friday, October 30, 2009
- Obsession over Emotion in Moderation -
It's not that I haven't been blogging. I have written many drafts. Many unfinished, uninspired blogs.
It's just how I feel about life. It's unfinished and uninspired. Too lazy to blog - too lazy to get out of bed. Can't think of what to make of this blog - can't think what to make of this life.
I found this entry in my diary:
So sick. Can you feel? Deep, deep down in the pit of your stomach, the gland excretes. It is excreting DISGUST into every inch of your body. It enters the blood stream and pumps its way through the body. It's almost like adrenalin creating a sensational high at first. A feeling with not a care in the world. Unaware of DISGUST. And yet when it stops - that feeling - your blood turns black and cold. The circulation ceases and you scream but nobody hears you. Forgiveness lost in a black hole. What's left of warm red blood, runs down your face as tears. They show no sympathy. They see what's really inside you. Their glare tells you, it's over. It's too late. Because that gland excretes DISGUST, pumping through you veins, reaches into your heart, your heart skips a beat - and then nothing.
I am not emotionally retarded, no matter what that entry portrays. Or proves. I was trying to emphasise how it feels to be disgusted. Not at something, not at someone, but at yourself. I know people who have felt shameful or guilty for things that they have felt or done in the past, but I don't think it compares to feeling disgusted. It's almost like contempt, or something raw and unnerving.
It's a girl thing. Many a times I have tried to share with my girls this disgust. Falling just before the tip of my tongue, I retreat, cowardly because I can't handle how they will see me - their glare. I am not ready to gamble for forgiveness. I cannot make that bet. I refuse to play bluff in poker.
On the Up side, I have turned Gleek. It is the most awesomest show since Greys Anatomy. There is the HAWTTTTT DDG Mark Salling... mmmmmmmm... bad boys; and there is UBER cool Harry Shum Jr. Shum is the best dancer EVERRRR.. Ok. I love the fact that he's asian too. He's everywhere.. he's the asian in all those dance movies.. AND he rocked the It's My Life/Confessions mash-up in GLee. OMG gleelove. Sigh - I haven't felt so TB since... since I don't know when my fandom has reached this point!
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It's just how I feel about life. It's unfinished and uninspired. Too lazy to blog - too lazy to get out of bed. Can't think of what to make of this blog - can't think what to make of this life.
I found this entry in my diary:
So sick. Can you feel? Deep, deep down in the pit of your stomach, the gland excretes. It is excreting DISGUST into every inch of your body. It enters the blood stream and pumps its way through the body. It's almost like adrenalin creating a sensational high at first. A feeling with not a care in the world. Unaware of DISGUST. And yet when it stops - that feeling - your blood turns black and cold. The circulation ceases and you scream but nobody hears you. Forgiveness lost in a black hole. What's left of warm red blood, runs down your face as tears. They show no sympathy. They see what's really inside you. Their glare tells you, it's over. It's too late. Because that gland excretes DISGUST, pumping through you veins, reaches into your heart, your heart skips a beat - and then nothing.
I am not emotionally retarded, no matter what that entry portrays. Or proves. I was trying to emphasise how it feels to be disgusted. Not at something, not at someone, but at yourself. I know people who have felt shameful or guilty for things that they have felt or done in the past, but I don't think it compares to feeling disgusted. It's almost like contempt, or something raw and unnerving.
It's a girl thing. Many a times I have tried to share with my girls this disgust. Falling just before the tip of my tongue, I retreat, cowardly because I can't handle how they will see me - their glare. I am not ready to gamble for forgiveness. I cannot make that bet. I refuse to play bluff in poker.
On the Up side, I have turned Gleek. It is the most awesomest show since Greys Anatomy. There is the HAWTTTTT DDG Mark Salling... mmmmmmmm... bad boys; and there is UBER cool Harry Shum Jr. Shum is the best dancer EVERRRR.. Ok. I love the fact that he's asian too. He's everywhere.. he's the asian in all those dance movies.. AND he rocked the It's My Life/Confessions mash-up in GLee. OMG gleelove. Sigh - I haven't felt so TB since... since I don't know when my fandom has reached this point!
I'mstalkingShumonwww.harryshumjr.com/andontwitterandongleewebsiteandontumblr
andonYoutubeandonanythingelseicanfind!
-{ missing you 10/30/2009 10:10:00 pm }-
Monday, October 05, 2009
- I think I have the best ASIA Cocktail pictures -
There have been long drawn covnersations and debates about whether we are too old to go clubbing. We are 22! We can't be that old. I blame Perth. There is no where else to go other than Metros which means old people (us) mingle with young people (not us).
But Cocktail '09 was fun. Me and Noelle made sure of it. I've uploaded most of my photos which, despite it only being 40+, I believe are the most awesomest photos ever. HAHAH arrogant much?
But Cocktail '09 was fun. Me and Noelle made sure of it. I've uploaded most of my photos which, despite it only being 40+, I believe are the most awesomest photos ever. HAHAH arrogant much?
In da Club @ 10pm to avoid the lines and the place was empty. I forget what Metros look like when it's empty. We had lollipops, cool people with lollipops. Only to find out we weren't the only cool people as everyone we saw had lollipops as well :(
OMG does my head look detached or what!
ALL in black boooyeah! Classique.
Together as one ^^
My skills are failing me!!!
Much to drink? Kinda, but ov cos I sober first before driving la!
DD = designated drinker! And there's one extra hand in that photo.. James, you are being framed.
2 awesome sisters =P
As Lu gets redder, Ed gets paler..
Do I smell...trouble? No, just smelly friends.
Oh, Pro! PRO!
Oh wait, that smell was Chao chao! LMAOiamsofunny.
Angels. liketotally.
Zomg, love this pic, it's totally two hot poseurs. Poseurs rock my world. hehehe
o_O
S2 Saranghae
On the stairs outside, voluntarily of course, and all quite sober; just not sane. How could we be? We were talking to a car. Broom broom!
I am totally not old. I party all I fucking want, thankyouverymuch.
-{ missing you 10/05/2009 10:00:00 pm }-
Saturday, October 03, 2009
- Wassup - wassup - wassupwassupwassup -
Man this song is so fkn addictive. Wonder where all my k-pop days went...
Remember when I was like:
"Fuck you biaaatchh!!!" *attempts to scratch car with blunt keys*
... I have become:
"You little piece of shit fuckerrrrrr!" *runsandhides*
I've lost that flame. I've almost become a .. WET BLANKET! Nooooooooo. Nobody wants to be a wet blanket. They get tortured via their wet blog. *nods*
Oh yeah, Happy mooncake day everyone! Make sure you check out the moon tonight, it'll be illuminating the sky tonight... pretty.
Looking forward to Spring Feast 2009!
~Bottomless PitStop~Your always faithful Malaysian stall will bring you a true taste sensation... On the night our stall will be bringing you freshly made Crispy Noodles- cooked on the spot!So please come down and show your support :)-Brought to you by Noelle and her Shupergirls-
~Happy Karage~Coming back by popular demand, the team at Happy Karage are bringing back old favorites and a little something new. Would love to tell you more, but we wouldn't want to spoil the surprise now would we. Come down, show your support and we'll make sure you'll have AWESOME time.-Brought to you by Ed, Anthony and Elvin
(credits to Nosh via Facebook)
Come and support these fabulous stalls!!
Remember when I was like:
"Fuck you biaaatchh!!!" *attempts to scratch car with blunt keys*
... I have become:
"You little piece of shit fuckerrrrrr!" *runsandhides*
I've lost that flame. I've almost become a .. WET BLANKET! Nooooooooo. Nobody wants to be a wet blanket. They get tortured via their wet blog. *nods*
Oh yeah, Happy mooncake day everyone! Make sure you check out the moon tonight, it'll be illuminating the sky tonight... pretty.
Looking forward to Spring Feast 2009!
~Bottomless PitStop~Your always faithful Malaysian stall will bring you a true taste sensation... On the night our stall will be bringing you freshly made Crispy Noodles- cooked on the spot!So please come down and show your support :)-Brought to you by Noelle and her Shupergirls-
~Happy Karage~Coming back by popular demand, the team at Happy Karage are bringing back old favorites and a little something new. Would love to tell you more, but we wouldn't want to spoil the surprise now would we. Come down, show your support and we'll make sure you'll have AWESOME time.-Brought to you by Ed, Anthony and Elvin
(credits to Nosh via Facebook)
Come and support these fabulous stalls!!
-{ missing you 10/03/2009 05:30:00 pm }-