Sunday, December 20, 2009
- 2009 reflections -
What a year! Reflections are of the essence at this time of month...
It's hard to feel the Christmas spirit as I get older. I remember when I was a kid and (as sad as it may seem) my Christmases were filled with watching Christmas movies on tv every night! Because my family doesn't celebrate Christmas, my only way to enjoy Christmas was to voyeur into these fictional worlds of happy Christmases.
Nowadays, tv doesn't really fill up my time.. so Christmas, is just another day off work for me. I've spent the last few Christmases overseas having awesome-ass celebrations, but I'm staying in Perth this summer.
Everyone else, however is making a move. Most of my friends have already gone, whilst the other half are waiting to leave next year. I can't help but to feel so left behind. I'm left behind to be responsible, to make sure I don't get up to trouble. To make sure I'm saving up my money to pay things off. Responsible sucks!
What a year. What have I learnt? I don't know mate. I can't believe I did a year of Tang's, even when I said it would only last me half year, tops. Well, it didn't turn out THAT bad. What I learned this year is that nothing is as bad as it seems. You tend to see things at a microscopic view, where you magnify everything 100 times fold. You do this because you think the world revolves around you. You think nobody understands what you're feeling. You think that the one who hurt you is a fuckin' cunt loser. You think the person who took it all away is a S-O-B. It's easy to lose a grip of things when you are angry/sad.
Once you stop thinking about yourself, then you realise what an asshole you have been. And then everything isn't as bad as it seems.
I don't think I'll be having NYE celebrations this year. They never resort to any good. Only lot's and lot's of naughty stuff.
I've learnt that a relationship is a bitch of a good thing. Relationships all come with a rollercoaster. A relationship is a theme park and you can't ever, have a theme park without a rollercoaster. You'll always love the carousel, because it plays nice music and you'll be forever smiling and enjoying yourself as you watch all these faces pass you by, all eager and envious to have their turn. And sometimes you get into the bumper cars, initially with good intentions. But after a bump and a smash things get a little messy full of revenge, anger, blame and all parties come out in tears.
But at the end of the day, who doesn't like theme parks? A bit of fairy floss and some side alley games will bring back the smiles and then everyone forgets the pain and anger from the silly bumper cars.
I learned that no matter how much we try to hate metros, we actually love it!
I have learnt that you can't try to bring back the past, it stays there for a reason. Did you know you aren't supposed to wind a watch backward? The hands of the clock are only meant to move clockwise, because you damage the cogs (or whatever is behind there) when it goes anti-clockwise. I wonder if that is true or some smartarse watch-maker was trying to tell us something?
Despite the hot weather, I still managed to write so much. H.E.R used to be my place, my release. It was my stories to tell because I'm not good enough to novelise them. Imagine, Lisa the author. Hehe. But somehow, she's slipped by in my life, and no stories are worth writing anymore. Many bloggers have threatened to shutdown their blogs with insufficient progress to post. But what's the point? How can you be so ready to let go of something you have built on so readily? Despite the lack of progress, it archives so much of your life when you were progressive.
Go back and read up on your past. Because there's no going back and nothing can hurt you now.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone. :)
It's hard to feel the Christmas spirit as I get older. I remember when I was a kid and (as sad as it may seem) my Christmases were filled with watching Christmas movies on tv every night! Because my family doesn't celebrate Christmas, my only way to enjoy Christmas was to voyeur into these fictional worlds of happy Christmases.
Nowadays, tv doesn't really fill up my time.. so Christmas, is just another day off work for me. I've spent the last few Christmases overseas having awesome-ass celebrations, but I'm staying in Perth this summer.
Everyone else, however is making a move. Most of my friends have already gone, whilst the other half are waiting to leave next year. I can't help but to feel so left behind. I'm left behind to be responsible, to make sure I don't get up to trouble. To make sure I'm saving up my money to pay things off. Responsible sucks!
What a year. What have I learnt? I don't know mate. I can't believe I did a year of Tang's, even when I said it would only last me half year, tops. Well, it didn't turn out THAT bad. What I learned this year is that nothing is as bad as it seems. You tend to see things at a microscopic view, where you magnify everything 100 times fold. You do this because you think the world revolves around you. You think nobody understands what you're feeling. You think that the one who hurt you is a fuckin' cunt loser. You think the person who took it all away is a S-O-B. It's easy to lose a grip of things when you are angry/sad.
Once you stop thinking about yourself, then you realise what an asshole you have been. And then everything isn't as bad as it seems.
I don't think I'll be having NYE celebrations this year. They never resort to any good. Only lot's and lot's of naughty stuff.
I've learnt that a relationship is a bitch of a good thing. Relationships all come with a rollercoaster. A relationship is a theme park and you can't ever, have a theme park without a rollercoaster. You'll always love the carousel, because it plays nice music and you'll be forever smiling and enjoying yourself as you watch all these faces pass you by, all eager and envious to have their turn. And sometimes you get into the bumper cars, initially with good intentions. But after a bump and a smash things get a little messy full of revenge, anger, blame and all parties come out in tears.
But at the end of the day, who doesn't like theme parks? A bit of fairy floss and some side alley games will bring back the smiles and then everyone forgets the pain and anger from the silly bumper cars.
I learned that no matter how much we try to hate metros, we actually love it!
I have learnt that you can't try to bring back the past, it stays there for a reason. Did you know you aren't supposed to wind a watch backward? The hands of the clock are only meant to move clockwise, because you damage the cogs (or whatever is behind there) when it goes anti-clockwise. I wonder if that is true or some smartarse watch-maker was trying to tell us something?
Despite the hot weather, I still managed to write so much. H.E.R used to be my place, my release. It was my stories to tell because I'm not good enough to novelise them. Imagine, Lisa the author. Hehe. But somehow, she's slipped by in my life, and no stories are worth writing anymore. Many bloggers have threatened to shutdown their blogs with insufficient progress to post. But what's the point? How can you be so ready to let go of something you have built on so readily? Despite the lack of progress, it archives so much of your life when you were progressive.
Go back and read up on your past. Because there's no going back and nothing can hurt you now.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone. :)
-{ missing you 12/20/2009 12:57:00 pm }-
Sunday, December 06, 2009
- omgomgomgomg -
BACKSTREET BOYS IN PERTH ON MARCH 2 2010,
WOOHOO!
I'm excited for the most part that I said if they come I
would definitely go see them. So I guess I'm going to go
see them! Finally, I get to go to an epic concert!
-{ missing you 12/06/2009 10:54:00 pm }-
- Rong-Chyi's 21st Birthday -
A happy belated birthday to Rong-Chyi! She hosted her celebrations a week earlier with her friend Warren at Tiger Lil's. It was so. packed. Ed, Noelle and I rocked up late and missed the cake! But, we were just in time to EAT the cake. It was definitely drool-icious. A few pictures from the night...
The Birthday Girl
We've known each other since our toddler years.
I wished I snapped a picture of my dress properly. I got it at the markets in Hong Kong. I really like it. Too bad no one really wears long dresses at night anymore :( Maybe I can pull it off as a sun dress. Or something, I don't know.
I went bowling and coffee with some family friends last night, and it was awesome. My bowling skill are improving. We bumped into Janice at Exomod. I thought I wouldn't like Exomod, but it's OK lah.
This morning I woke at 7am and waited for Ed to come to my place - yes that's right, all the way up north early in the morning - to go have Sizzler's brekky. It was exciting at first, and then I realised it wasn't as great as we thought it would be. $18.95 ; fkn rip-off mann.
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I always tell myself that I won't let the unimportant people effect my emotions and my outlook on life. But there will always be that someone of least importance that you will always succumb vulnerability to. You say that this person means nothing to your life and their friendship to you is merely an aquaintance. But yet each time you try your darnedest to like them and to get them to like you. And fuck, they just won't give you that break. So why do we keep trying? Are we being the better person and trying to maintain a mutual friendliness?
I've never been mutually friendly as far as I'm concerned and I don't know why I keep on trying with some persons. I'm wasting so much of my time and effort. I'm so fkn annoyed at myself.
-{ missing you 12/06/2009 12:04:00 pm }-
Friday, December 04, 2009
- The Village Bicycle -
If you've never experienced village life, you've probably never come acrossed the village bicycle.
It is in fact, just any old bicycle; a standard old fashion bike... I guess nothing special to it. In a communal village, everyone will use this bicycle to ride into town for groceries and all sorts of other tasks that they need to get done.
OK well, I think I just made that up...
The village bicycle is a metaphor (?) to connote a whore. Yes a whore. The village bicycle in which everyone gets a ride.
That's just vulgar. And it seems everyone knows this saying. At first I thought it was an Asian thing. Then now I heard a white guy saying it so maybe it's a guy thing. I don't know anymore. I just know, as a female I feel so degraded right now. And for all those village bicycle's out there; I am soo ashamed of you's right now.
That is all.
It is in fact, just any old bicycle; a standard old fashion bike... I guess nothing special to it. In a communal village, everyone will use this bicycle to ride into town for groceries and all sorts of other tasks that they need to get done.
OK well, I think I just made that up...
The village bicycle is a metaphor (?) to connote a whore. Yes a whore. The village bicycle in which everyone gets a ride.
That's just vulgar. And it seems everyone knows this saying. At first I thought it was an Asian thing. Then now I heard a white guy saying it so maybe it's a guy thing. I don't know anymore. I just know, as a female I feel so degraded right now. And for all those village bicycle's out there; I am soo ashamed of you's right now.
That is all.
-{ missing you 12/04/2009 09:37:00 pm }-
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
- Return: to sender -
I'b sick! How the hell did that happen?! Soar throat, blocked nose, headache. Bah.
3rd day at work doing nothing at all. And the worse part is, it's not something I can get used to. Sigh. I mean, the day goes by so much s.l.o.w.e.r, it's agonizing.
Have you ever had a tea party?
3rd day at work doing nothing at all. And the worse part is, it's not something I can get used to. Sigh. I mean, the day goes by so much s.l.o.w.e.r, it's agonizing.
Have you ever had a tea party?
I have! Fel hosted one the other weekend and made plenty of food with fine crockery for tea. Might I say the tea was dashing and the day was suuperbb *posh laughter*. Yeah it was awesome, apart from the gusty wind, it was a great event. Thanks Felly!
-{ missing you 12/02/2009 09:20:00 pm }-
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
- A day in the Valley - of Swan -
Happily hugging precioussss wine.
Kids and their iced-creams.
Lancaster.
The maze. 
Kudo's to Janice for psing some pics ^^(Y)-{ missing you 12/01/2009 09:22:00 pm }-
- The Department of Boredom -
Omigosh, work is so boring at the moment and boredom is driving me mad. I guess I shouldn't be complaining. Sigh. I hate corporate. Everybody everywhere is corporate. I went to eat with Caz today and I don't think I'll head back into the city. I'm intimidated by suits and power women.
We made a scrapbook for Michelle's 22nd, which turned out well, surprisingly thanks to me and Fel's stern words. Sorry if we offended anyone - no wait - I take that back; because if we weren't such bitches it wouldn't have been completed! So... suck it up peepz. And then Kim organised a picnic for her which went well also. Can you believe I played cricket?! I most certainly cannot. Because I hate aussie sports. If I had to like one, it would be rugby. But cricket?! And I got sunburnt too. I had sunscreen on as well... I just couldn't reach my back :(( I hate being burnt bread. Tan lines are so gross.
I'm stuck in Perth this summer, mainly due to work commitments I guess. And I have to find a job for March because that's when the contract ends. Dad says if I get a permanent job in the city he wants to sell my car. Oh! The devastation! I'm so cut I'm almost wishing that I won't have to work in the city any longer.
Maybe I should go abroad. Go somewhere teach English for half a year or so. It would be good experience. Leave this shit-hole city.
my throat is on fire. Until next time ...
We made a scrapbook for Michelle's 22nd, which turned out well, surprisingly thanks to me and Fel's stern words. Sorry if we offended anyone - no wait - I take that back; because if we weren't such bitches it wouldn't have been completed! So... suck it up peepz. And then Kim organised a picnic for her which went well also. Can you believe I played cricket?! I most certainly cannot. Because I hate aussie sports. If I had to like one, it would be rugby. But cricket?! And I got sunburnt too. I had sunscreen on as well... I just couldn't reach my back :(( I hate being burnt bread. Tan lines are so gross.
I'm stuck in Perth this summer, mainly due to work commitments I guess. And I have to find a job for March because that's when the contract ends. Dad says if I get a permanent job in the city he wants to sell my car. Oh! The devastation! I'm so cut I'm almost wishing that I won't have to work in the city any longer.
Maybe I should go abroad. Go somewhere teach English for half a year or so. It would be good experience. Leave this shit-hole city.
my throat is on fire. Until next time ...
-{ missing you 12/01/2009 07:40:00 pm }-