Saturday, July 31, 2010
- fucked up -
I was so bored last night that I cried my eyes out and pissed Edmond off.
I've just read 2 years worth of someone elses life and am no closer to understanding anything.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I've just read 2 years worth of someone elses life and am no closer to understanding anything.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
-{ missing you 7/31/2010 10:49:00 am }-
Friday, July 30, 2010
- now -
[x] smoked a cigarette
[ ] crashed a friend's car
[ ] stolen a car
[x] been in love
[ ] been dumped
[x] shoplifted
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight,cat fight or swearing fight
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] been arrested
[ ] gone on a blind date
[x] lied to a friend
[x] skipped school
[ ] seen someone die
[ ] had a crush on one of your internet friends
[x] been on a plane
[ ] purposely set a part of yourself on fire
[x] eaten Sushi
[ ] been skiing/snowboarding
[ x] met someone in person from the internet
[x] been moshing at a concert
[x] love someone or miss someone right now
[x] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[ ] made a snow angel
[ x] had a tea party
[x] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle
[x] gone puddle jumping
[x] played dress up
[ ] jumped into a pile of leaves
[ ] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game
[x] been lonely
[x] fallen asleep at work
[x] fallen asleep at school
[ ] used a fake id
[x] watched the sun set
[ ] felt an earthquake
[ ] touched a snake
[x] slept beneath the stars
[x] been tickled
[x] been robbed
[x] been misunderstood
[ ] petted a reindeer
[ ] petted a goat
[ ] won a contest
[x] run a red light
[ ] been suspended from school
[x] been in a car accident
[ ] had braces
[ ] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] had deja-vu
[ ] danced in the moonlight
[x] liked the way you look
[ ] witnessed a crime
[x] questioned your heart
[x] been obsessed with post-it notes
[x] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost
[ ] been to the opposite side of the country
[x] swam in the ocean
[x] felt like dying
[x] cried yourself to sleep
[x] played cops and robbers
[ ] recently colored with crayons
[x] sang karaoke
[x] paid for a meal with only coins
[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[ ] made prank phone calls
[x] laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[ ] caught a snowflake on your tongue
[ ] danced in the rain
[x] written a letter to Santa Claus
[ ] been kissed under the mistletoe by your significant other
[x] watched the sun rise
[x] blown bubbles
[x] made a bonfire on the beach
[x] crashed a party
[x] gone rollerskating
[x] had a wish come true
[ ] worn pearls
[ ] jumped off a bridge
[ ] ate dog food.
[ ] ate cat food.
[ ] told a complete stranger you loved them.
[ ] kissed a mirror
[x] sang in the shower
[x] had a dream that you married someone
[ ] glued your hand to something
[ ] got your tongue stuck to anything
[ ] kissed a fish or a frog
[x] sat on a roof top
[x] screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] have done a one-handed cartwheel
[x] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night
[ ] didnt take a shower for a week
[ ] pick and ate an apple right off the tree
[ ] climbed a tree
[ ] had a tree house
[x] afraid to watch scary movies alone
[ ] worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others would say
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] gone doorbell ditching
[ ] played chicken
[ ] been pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
[ ] broken a bone
[x] been easily amused
[x] caught a fish
[x] ate a fish
[ ] caught a butterfly
[x] laughed so hard you cried
[x] cried so hard you laughed
[x] cheated on a test
[x] have/had a Britney Spears CD
[x] forgotten someones name
[x] Braided someones hair
[ ] gone skinny dipping in a pool/lake
[x] been threatened to be kicked out of your house
[x] been kicked out of your house
[ ] been pushed into the snow w/ shorts on
[x] wondered if the person you like still likes you
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.
[x] Taken pain killers.
[ ] crashed a friend's car
[ ] stolen a car
[x] been in love
[ ] been dumped
[x] shoplifted
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight,cat fight or swearing fight
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] been arrested
[ ] gone on a blind date
[x] lied to a friend
[x] skipped school
[ ] seen someone die
[ ] had a crush on one of your internet friends
[x] been on a plane
[ ] purposely set a part of yourself on fire
[x] eaten Sushi
[ ] been skiing/snowboarding
[ x] met someone in person from the internet
[x] been moshing at a concert
[x] love someone or miss someone right now
[x] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[ ] made a snow angel
[ x] had a tea party
[x] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle
[x] gone puddle jumping
[x] played dress up
[ ] jumped into a pile of leaves
[ ] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game
[x] been lonely
[x] fallen asleep at work
[x] fallen asleep at school
[ ] used a fake id
[x] watched the sun set
[ ] felt an earthquake
[ ] touched a snake
[x] slept beneath the stars
[x] been tickled
[x] been robbed
[x] been misunderstood
[ ] petted a reindeer
[ ] petted a goat
[ ] won a contest
[x] run a red light
[ ] been suspended from school
[x] been in a car accident
[ ] had braces
[ ] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] had deja-vu
[ ] danced in the moonlight
[x] liked the way you look
[ ] witnessed a crime
[x] questioned your heart
[x] been obsessed with post-it notes
[x] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost
[ ] been to the opposite side of the country
[x] swam in the ocean
[x] felt like dying
[x] cried yourself to sleep
[x] played cops and robbers
[ ] recently colored with crayons
[x] sang karaoke
[x] paid for a meal with only coins
[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[ ] made prank phone calls
[x] laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[ ] caught a snowflake on your tongue
[ ] danced in the rain
[x] written a letter to Santa Claus
[ ] been kissed under the mistletoe by your significant other
[x] watched the sun rise
[x] blown bubbles
[x] made a bonfire on the beach
[x] crashed a party
[x] gone rollerskating
[x] had a wish come true
[ ] worn pearls
[ ] jumped off a bridge
[ ] ate dog food.
[ ] ate cat food.
[ ] told a complete stranger you loved them.
[ ] kissed a mirror
[x] sang in the shower
[x] had a dream that you married someone
[ ] glued your hand to something
[ ] got your tongue stuck to anything
[ ] kissed a fish or a frog
[x] sat on a roof top
[x] screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] have done a one-handed cartwheel
[x] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night
[ ] didnt take a shower for a week
[ ] pick and ate an apple right off the tree
[ ] climbed a tree
[ ] had a tree house
[x] afraid to watch scary movies alone
[ ] worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others would say
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] gone doorbell ditching
[ ] played chicken
[ ] been pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
[ ] broken a bone
[x] been easily amused
[x] caught a fish
[x] ate a fish
[ ] caught a butterfly
[x] laughed so hard you cried
[x] cried so hard you laughed
[x] cheated on a test
[x] have/had a Britney Spears CD
[x] forgotten someones name
[x] Braided someones hair
[ ] gone skinny dipping in a pool/lake
[x] been threatened to be kicked out of your house
[x] been kicked out of your house
[ ] been pushed into the snow w/ shorts on
[x] wondered if the person you like still likes you
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.
[x] Taken pain killers.
-{ missing you 7/30/2010 11:51:00 pm }-
Thursday, July 29, 2010
- judge.ment -
Who's game enough to say they DON'T judge a book by its cover? Everything these days is about the packaging and it's not only when you like the package do you start to study what's really inside the package...
Sometime's you get stuck with the shit stuff. Like, good looking chocolate with gross innards.
In regards to people, judging is all we will do and all we will ever do. People will judge the way you dress, the way you look, the way you speak and the way you whatever the heck else. It's merely a matter of how you take that judgement and spin in into good use or make white noise of it. Judgement only hurts when it hits the heart; when it comes from someone you love or when it strikes the one thing you so believed in yourself about.
Then you'd have to ask yourself what are you doing that makes all this judgement affect you (omg i dont know the difference between affect effect >.<).
Sometime's you get stuck with the shit stuff. Like, good looking chocolate with gross innards.
In regards to people, judging is all we will do and all we will ever do. People will judge the way you dress, the way you look, the way you speak and the way you whatever the heck else. It's merely a matter of how you take that judgement and spin in into good use or make white noise of it. Judgement only hurts when it hits the heart; when it comes from someone you love or when it strikes the one thing you so believed in yourself about.
Then you'd have to ask yourself what are you doing that makes all this judgement affect you (omg i dont know the difference between affect effect >.<).
-{ missing you 7/29/2010 08:50:00 pm }-
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
- I'm done -
I destest what this blog has become.
And maybe sometimes, I just detest what I've become.
No, wait, I have always been a bitch.
Every now and then, the past catches up with you and you wonder; do I still care about you? Do I really need to remember the days which have past and the days you are living now?
To be honest, maybe I'm just jealous that we've become a thing of the past and I wish that we could hit things off first hand rather than passing it through third and fourth hand from hearsay.
I'm working my weekdays and chilling on weekends. It's not like when I used to be in uni, and work, study and play rolled together as one. My friends and I always had something to do, fun to look forward to. Now, even when there's fun to look forward to, it's not as ecstatic as it used to be. It's good, but we're not young anymore. AND that is not to admit I'm old. Because I'm only 22 for christ sakes.
These days, I feel like I'm waiting. I'm always waiting for something and I'm not sure what it is.
Am I waiting for something good or something bad? I'm always waiting for the weekend. I'm currently waiting for a dress I bought from Sakura Moda. I'm waiting to see if my contract will be extended, or made permanent for that fact. I'm waiting for a better (permanent) job to come by. I'm waiting for my 23rd. I'm waiting for October to arrive so I can go to Melbourne already.
Or I'm just waiting for my future in general. I feel as if I just want to get things over and done with. I'm retiring from drama. I've been there done that. Or maybe I'm already done and this is my done period. Maybe I'm not waiting for anything. I just need to establish this new 'done' phase of life.
I'm done.
~Listening to: Miss A - Bad Girl Good Girl
You don't know me, you don't know me. Shut up boy. Shut up boy.
And maybe sometimes, I just detest what I've become.
No, wait, I have always been a bitch.
Every now and then, the past catches up with you and you wonder; do I still care about you? Do I really need to remember the days which have past and the days you are living now?
To be honest, maybe I'm just jealous that we've become a thing of the past and I wish that we could hit things off first hand rather than passing it through third and fourth hand from hearsay.
I'm working my weekdays and chilling on weekends. It's not like when I used to be in uni, and work, study and play rolled together as one. My friends and I always had something to do, fun to look forward to. Now, even when there's fun to look forward to, it's not as ecstatic as it used to be. It's good, but we're not young anymore. AND that is not to admit I'm old. Because I'm only 22 for christ sakes.
These days, I feel like I'm waiting. I'm always waiting for something and I'm not sure what it is.
Am I waiting for something good or something bad? I'm always waiting for the weekend. I'm currently waiting for a dress I bought from Sakura Moda. I'm waiting to see if my contract will be extended, or made permanent for that fact. I'm waiting for a better (permanent) job to come by. I'm waiting for my 23rd. I'm waiting for October to arrive so I can go to Melbourne already.
Or I'm just waiting for my future in general. I feel as if I just want to get things over and done with. I'm retiring from drama. I've been there done that. Or maybe I'm already done and this is my done period. Maybe I'm not waiting for anything. I just need to establish this new 'done' phase of life.
I'm done.
~Listening to: Miss A - Bad Girl Good Girl
You don't know me, you don't know me. Shut up boy. Shut up boy.
-{ missing you 7/28/2010 03:39:00 pm }-
Saturday, July 24, 2010
- haters -
AND shimmycocopuff can suck balls cos he's fucked.
-{ missing you 7/24/2010 03:22:00 am }-
- not my style -
Sometimes I hate that stupid princess blogger bitch.
Sure, she entertains me with her everything. But who gives her the right to be... righteous and talk about that bullshit about what is wrong and right?
She's such a stupid piece of boring Singaporean shitface blogger who has nothing to do. What 'good' has she done for the world? What has she given back to society? All she does is blog and scam free stuff - take and no give.
She can go fucking preach to the cows because she does NOT have my respect.
Fuckinguglyshitfaceprincess.
Sure, she entertains me with her everything. But who gives her the right to be... righteous and talk about that bullshit about what is wrong and right?
She's such a stupid piece of boring Singaporean shitface blogger who has nothing to do. What 'good' has she done for the world? What has she given back to society? All she does is blog and scam free stuff - take and no give.
She can go fucking preach to the cows because she does NOT have my respect.
Fuckinguglyshitfaceprincess.
-{ missing you 7/24/2010 02:14:00 am }-
Sunday, July 18, 2010
- Come away with me -
作詞：蔡旻佑
作曲：蔡旻佑
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
沒有理由就遇見
That`s what I say
你和我眼神交會
不需要任何語言
絕對存在著絕對
Cause I
自然而然 因你而笑得開懷
那存在感 不是隨便一個誰就能取代
命運使然 非此不可的安排
就這樣跟著我相信我
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
沒有理由就遇見
That`s what I say
你和我眼神交會
不需要任何語言
絕對存在著絕對
Cause I
自然而然 因你而笑得開懷
那存在感 不是隨便一個誰就能取代
命運使然 非此不可的安排
就這樣跟著我相信我
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
這完美的一刻
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
Hey 請把你的手交給我 請你不要害羞
作曲：蔡旻佑
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
沒有理由就遇見
That`s what I say
你和我眼神交會
不需要任何語言
絕對存在著絕對
Cause I
自然而然 因你而笑得開懷
那存在感 不是隨便一個誰就能取代
命運使然 非此不可的安排
就這樣跟著我相信我
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
人來人往的世界
可以讓我去找誰
沒有理由就遇見
That`s what I say
你和我眼神交會
不需要任何語言
絕對存在著絕對
Cause I
自然而然 因你而笑得開懷
那存在感 不是隨便一個誰就能取代
命運使然 非此不可的安排
就這樣跟著我相信我
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
這完美的一刻
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
Oh hey!
請把你的手交給我
請你不要害羞
跟我一起點點頭
這屬於我們的節奏
Oh hey!
請你跟著我的律動
請你一起放鬆
完美互動這一刻
相信我們都會永遠記得
Hey 請把你的手交給我 請你不要害羞
-{ missing you 7/18/2010 02:37:00 pm }-
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
- I was cool, I was infallible. -
What makes you think someone is cool?
Is it because they know the trends and how to fit in with the crowd?
Or is it because they're different and they can do what ever they want because people's judgements don't effect them?
I always thought that whatever was in was cool. I always wanted to be different but I didn't know how. I couldn't follow the crowd because they always moved too fast. I couldn't do something different because I couldn't pluck up the courage to take a different route.
I just didn't know myself to be able to form my own opinion.
Is it because they know the trends and how to fit in with the crowd?
Or is it because they're different and they can do what ever they want because people's judgements don't effect them?
I always thought that whatever was in was cool. I always wanted to be different but I didn't know how. I couldn't follow the crowd because they always moved too fast. I couldn't do something different because I couldn't pluck up the courage to take a different route.
I just didn't know myself to be able to form my own opinion.
-{ missing you 7/13/2010 11:30:00 am }-
Saturday, July 10, 2010
- SATCII -
I went to watch Sex and the City II on Friday night. I was never a fan until.. well, I actually can't remember if I watched the first movie before or after the entire series. What makes the series interesting is their aspect on relationships and how it's pretty much all the same whether you're 16, 25 or 37.
So after seeing Carrie's progression with her love life, it was actually quite a tear jerker for me in the second movie. I cried at the most obscene times, I really don't think the movie was that sad. But it was like I was trying to empathise. Now I'm watching the series again. Reminiscing.
Why do we put ourselves through the past if it causes us so much pain? Is it worth it to remember how it was then, even though a bitter ending was the outcome of it? Is the pain supposed to remind us not to make the same mistake?
-{ missing you 7/10/2010 08:25:00 pm }-
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
- Infidelity -
Finally, a little light at the end of the tunnel; the department is offering the chance for permanancy and here we go again on the stupid ride called 'Write up a selection fucking criteria'.
Anyway, so I'm watching a new series called Pretty Little Liars. I must say I do like it, but something tells me it's because I missed out on Gossip Girls, so I'm subconciously making it up with this series. But no, I really like it, regardless how stupid and materialistic their world is.
One of the topics is infidelity where one of the girls' dad had an affair with his students. The current situation is that their family have just moved back into town after going abroad for a year. The wife 'doesn't know' about the ordeal, but the daughter does. And now that they're back in town, she's worried her dad might strike up the fire again. In one of the ep's, he tried to explain why he got himself into the situation and he rambled on how you can't stop your emotions and they got the best of him.
If he's a guy and he can't help his emotions, well then girls, we're simply fucked.
Putting aside the fact that he is married and committed to monogamy; how is it that you can simultaneous love two people (relationship-wise)? Why succumbs us to cheating and adultery?
People are just getting bored to easily and too fast and the game of cheating is by far a much better game than monopoly. Especially when you involve sex and lust.
A little flirt here and there is all it takes and the next thing you know you're in the woods doing dirty dirty things.
So how do you explain that you are still in love with someone else and adultery is just another game you play like high stakes poker and Russian roulette? How do you explain that you're a thrill seeker and an excitement junkie? How is it that our species have come up with something like adultery or even something like monogamy to make adultery bad? If humans are so carnal, then why are such acts so condemned?
Just a thought...
I will tell you one thing. The amount of bullshit people I have to put up with is ridiculous. Old people, young people, loud people, proud people, arrogant fuckfaced people. It's completely wearing me down.
I'm also attempting to place a ban intake of alcoholic substances into my body. Will. see. how. long. I. survive..
*drops dead*
Anyway, so I'm watching a new series called Pretty Little Liars. I must say I do like it, but something tells me it's because I missed out on Gossip Girls, so I'm subconciously making it up with this series. But no, I really like it, regardless how stupid and materialistic their world is.
One of the topics is infidelity where one of the girls' dad had an affair with his students. The current situation is that their family have just moved back into town after going abroad for a year. The wife 'doesn't know' about the ordeal, but the daughter does. And now that they're back in town, she's worried her dad might strike up the fire again. In one of the ep's, he tried to explain why he got himself into the situation and he rambled on how you can't stop your emotions and they got the best of him.
If he's a guy and he can't help his emotions, well then girls, we're simply fucked.
Putting aside the fact that he is married and committed to monogamy; how is it that you can simultaneous love two people (relationship-wise)? Why succumbs us to cheating and adultery?
People are just getting bored to easily and too fast and the game of cheating is by far a much better game than monopoly. Especially when you involve sex and lust.
A little flirt here and there is all it takes and the next thing you know you're in the woods doing dirty dirty things.
So how do you explain that you are still in love with someone else and adultery is just another game you play like high stakes poker and Russian roulette? How do you explain that you're a thrill seeker and an excitement junkie? How is it that our species have come up with something like adultery or even something like monogamy to make adultery bad? If humans are so carnal, then why are such acts so condemned?
Just a thought...
I will tell you one thing. The amount of bullshit people I have to put up with is ridiculous. Old people, young people, loud people, proud people, arrogant fuckfaced people. It's completely wearing me down.
I'm also attempting to place a ban intake of alcoholic substances into my body. Will. see. how. long. I. survive..
*drops dead*
-{ missing you 7/07/2010 08:30:00 pm }-