Friday, July 14, 2006
- True Colours of Winter -
It's c-c-cold! I'm freezing my ass off. Today is quite dark and cloudy, which I guess is what winter should look like. Yesterday, Hui Mei asked me if this is as cold as winter gets around here, and that made me laugh. I told her that it probably will be, but it has gotten colder in the past. I remember those dark days in primary school and highschool, where we were in the classrooms looking out the window, wondering which side was better, the warmth of the boring classroom or the freedom outside in the wind and rain. Stuck in limbo, I say.
Today I stayed home to clear a few things from my room, my desk and do that ideas thing for Mich. Grr... that took a lot out of me.
Omg! Last night I was Gunbounding, and it was funny, I had absolutley no idea what I was doing. The game reminded me of Worms.
I've spent the arvo on the comp, finally found my 'Daphne Loves Derby' songs to download. Missing quite a few though.
Was thinking about the whole blogging situation again, and that lead me to the way it connects everybody. If we all blog about the way we feel, then I would suspect that we'd find the world a very small place. I think that when I read other peoples' blogs, from all around the world, it is not hard to relate to some of them, sometimes even the most emo ones you can get. We all feel a little dramatically emotional once in a while, like our whole world is falling apart and that nobody can understand us. But I think when one comes to think that way, the way to solve this problem is firstly to come to terms with your own self, your id and your ego. If you think others do not understand you, do you believe that you understand yourself? Do you know where your feelings are coming from? Have you critically analysed your reactions to other peoples' actions or inactions? I believe it's all about being selfish for your own self discipline but also being understanding of others and the position that they choose to take. Do you take the time to understand and help others? Do you give people the space that they need in order for them to trust you? Do you convey your true self as the benevolent character that you are or the vainness of your ego?
I think everybody is vain, arrogant, rude, benevolent and understanding, it's just how they come to terms with seeing themselves. Some people are quite blind as to see the truth. But that is understandable. The truth hurts whether we like it or not. But it is not a choice whether you will be hurt or not. There will be some point in time where we will all be hurt, but it is a matter of brushing it off, analysing your self, your ego and moving on. I also know some things are easier said than done, but I know I have cried many times, talked to people, but in the end the only person that could help me was myself. Only I could tell myself that I can only be stronger and wiser. Every now and then, you will have those feelings re-surface, but you just need the time to yourself to see it through.
I'm glad to say, these days, I like to see the glass half-full. =)
And it is only right to be listening to Daphne Loves Derby.
Shoutout to ChinYaw - Happy Birthday dudee, sorry I couldn't make it tonight.
~Listening to: Daphne Loves Derby - Pollen and Salt
Today I stayed home to clear a few things from my room, my desk and do that ideas thing for Mich. Grr... that took a lot out of me.
Omg! Last night I was Gunbounding, and it was funny, I had absolutley no idea what I was doing. The game reminded me of Worms.
I've spent the arvo on the comp, finally found my 'Daphne Loves Derby' songs to download. Missing quite a few though.
Was thinking about the whole blogging situation again, and that lead me to the way it connects everybody. If we all blog about the way we feel, then I would suspect that we'd find the world a very small place. I think that when I read other peoples' blogs, from all around the world, it is not hard to relate to some of them, sometimes even the most emo ones you can get. We all feel a little dramatically emotional once in a while, like our whole world is falling apart and that nobody can understand us. But I think when one comes to think that way, the way to solve this problem is firstly to come to terms with your own self, your id and your ego. If you think others do not understand you, do you believe that you understand yourself? Do you know where your feelings are coming from? Have you critically analysed your reactions to other peoples' actions or inactions? I believe it's all about being selfish for your own self discipline but also being understanding of others and the position that they choose to take. Do you take the time to understand and help others? Do you give people the space that they need in order for them to trust you? Do you convey your true self as the benevolent character that you are or the vainness of your ego?
I think everybody is vain, arrogant, rude, benevolent and understanding, it's just how they come to terms with seeing themselves. Some people are quite blind as to see the truth. But that is understandable. The truth hurts whether we like it or not. But it is not a choice whether you will be hurt or not. There will be some point in time where we will all be hurt, but it is a matter of brushing it off, analysing your self, your ego and moving on. I also know some things are easier said than done, but I know I have cried many times, talked to people, but in the end the only person that could help me was myself. Only I could tell myself that I can only be stronger and wiser. Every now and then, you will have those feelings re-surface, but you just need the time to yourself to see it through.
I'm glad to say, these days, I like to see the glass half-full. =)
And it is only right to be listening to Daphne Loves Derby.
Shoutout to ChinYaw - Happy Birthday dudee, sorry I couldn't make it tonight.
~Listening to: Daphne Loves Derby - Pollen and Salt
-{ missing you 7/14/2006 04:15:00 pm }-