Sunday, October 29, 2006
- Ten dollars in the pocket -
I'm eating dinner now because I previously had a meal that was in between lunch and dinner. Since I'm eating, I might as well blog right? I don't know, I don't want to start my essay. Yet if I leave it right up to the last minute, and I mean literally, I have my stupid mental breakdown, hard breathing, ecetera, ecetera.
'Cos it happened on Friday. The feeling in my chest was very tight and I couldn't breathe properly, I couldn't eat yet I felt like vomiting. My essay was due soon and far from being completed. I sat there, and I'm no cryer when it comes to these things. I Only cried once at the beginning of year 12 'cos Applic scared me to death. So I sat there on that Friday, and thuoght of what I did to myself. Last minute to the minute. So I cried. I cried out every single tear that was cooped up in me because it was just that, that was hurting me. Letting those emotions go really did me a favour. I cried and cried, by myself until I felt better.
Well that thing I was going to tell everyone, I'm not going to tell anymore. Because I don't think it's going to happen. Because of that old man who gave me ten dollars. He had good points, but I made my decision only because I've calmed down now and I shouldn't make such rash decisions like that. I'm not going to tell because I don't want to get yelled at, even though I'm not going through with it.
On the work side of things, today the boss was extra mad. That's why he treated us all for a meal after work. Doesn't make sense does it? Well, SIX people did not turn up for work. And I mean, who could blame him for being mad? I was mad. I had to do more than I had to. Anyways, he was so mad he gave us a pay rise. So thanks to the people who didn't rock up.
A weird thing happened at work today though. There was this guy I thought I knew but I didn't. If you know me well enough, you know that always happens to me. So anyway, he asked me for the ingredients of the soya sauce that is used with the rice rolls. Like, him and his friends didn't even order them and he was asking about the frickin soya sauce. Tried to make a joke but I was too tired and pissed to notice that he said, 'haha, just joking...' I just smiled and said I'll find out.
I found out, but forgot to tell him, cos geez, I don't know, it wasn't my frickin priority.
But I walked back to where he was sitting and I looked over and he said,
"Umm, excuse me.." and pointed to what looked like an empty plate of the rice rolls with left over sauce. (Ha, so he did have some). I was so puzzled and I had this 'wtf' look on my face. And then I realised. God how embarrassing. His friends were laughing, I don't know if it was at me or him. Hopefully him. So I was trying to remember what it was, and he said to me,
"Now don't go making things up." and laughed. Grr! The nerve. So I said,
"Well, I'm not too sure what's in it. It's bought in a bottle, have you tried to go buy it in the shops?" I really didn't know what was in it, even if I went to find out. But meh. That's what rudeness gets ya. But I guess he didn't mean no harm.
Because later when he was about to leave, he asked a colleague of mine to find me, said he had something to say. Hrmms...
Now I'm confused. Well not really, just pretending I don't know what's going on.
Oh well, I didn't see him 'cos she didn't get me. He didn't know my name so she couldn't tell who. Mwahahaha.
Anyone know The Notorious MSG? A stupid group, they sing this song called, Dimsum girl. Oh I'm sooooo ashamed to be a waitress.
[written at 9.10pm on 29-10-06]
~Listening to: the sound of procrastination.
'Cos it happened on Friday. The feeling in my chest was very tight and I couldn't breathe properly, I couldn't eat yet I felt like vomiting. My essay was due soon and far from being completed. I sat there, and I'm no cryer when it comes to these things. I Only cried once at the beginning of year 12 'cos Applic scared me to death. So I sat there on that Friday, and thuoght of what I did to myself. Last minute to the minute. So I cried. I cried out every single tear that was cooped up in me because it was just that, that was hurting me. Letting those emotions go really did me a favour. I cried and cried, by myself until I felt better.
Well that thing I was going to tell everyone, I'm not going to tell anymore. Because I don't think it's going to happen. Because of that old man who gave me ten dollars. He had good points, but I made my decision only because I've calmed down now and I shouldn't make such rash decisions like that. I'm not going to tell because I don't want to get yelled at, even though I'm not going through with it.
On the work side of things, today the boss was extra mad. That's why he treated us all for a meal after work. Doesn't make sense does it? Well, SIX people did not turn up for work. And I mean, who could blame him for being mad? I was mad. I had to do more than I had to. Anyways, he was so mad he gave us a pay rise. So thanks to the people who didn't rock up.
A weird thing happened at work today though. There was this guy I thought I knew but I didn't. If you know me well enough, you know that always happens to me. So anyway, he asked me for the ingredients of the soya sauce that is used with the rice rolls. Like, him and his friends didn't even order them and he was asking about the frickin soya sauce. Tried to make a joke but I was too tired and pissed to notice that he said, 'haha, just joking...' I just smiled and said I'll find out.
I found out, but forgot to tell him, cos geez, I don't know, it wasn't my frickin priority.
But I walked back to where he was sitting and I looked over and he said,
"Umm, excuse me.." and pointed to what looked like an empty plate of the rice rolls with left over sauce. (Ha, so he did have some). I was so puzzled and I had this 'wtf' look on my face. And then I realised. God how embarrassing. His friends were laughing, I don't know if it was at me or him. Hopefully him. So I was trying to remember what it was, and he said to me,
"Now don't go making things up." and laughed. Grr! The nerve. So I said,
"Well, I'm not too sure what's in it. It's bought in a bottle, have you tried to go buy it in the shops?" I really didn't know what was in it, even if I went to find out. But meh. That's what rudeness gets ya. But I guess he didn't mean no harm.
Because later when he was about to leave, he asked a colleague of mine to find me, said he had something to say. Hrmms...
Now I'm confused. Well not really, just pretending I don't know what's going on.
Oh well, I didn't see him 'cos she didn't get me. He didn't know my name so she couldn't tell who. Mwahahaha.
Anyone know The Notorious MSG? A stupid group, they sing this song called, Dimsum girl. Oh I'm sooooo ashamed to be a waitress.
[written at 9.10pm on 29-10-06]
~Listening to: the sound of procrastination.
-{ missing you 10/29/2006 09:09:00 pm }-