Wednesday, October 25, 2006
- Tragic sins. -
Education sparks the beginning of our life, not the end. Why must I put so much effort into it? Or do I not put in enough. I have no discipline, no motivation and lack of priority management. I stress about my assignments, that in the end I don't think it matters and I waste my time worrying. I don't even know what I'm even doing at uni. It all doesn't make sense. Someone once told me you have to have a goal in life, if you have no goal then don't plan to live long.
I need to find this goal. I need to find out what it is that's most important to me. I know someone who has taken the opportunity to defer and travel next year. *sigh* If only...
The only reason why I'm not deferring is because I want to finish what I started. If I leave it, you'll never see the end of it. I will never see my degree.
This is as sane as I get, because last night I was so delirious from writing god knows what on my essay. I think I started to philosophise and had to take out half the crap I wrote.
This morning I went to the library to start on my other essay in which ended with my coming back home because I just couldn't stay awake in that place. bus-ed back home to what is now. And I should be trying to finish that essay I started last night because it is due tomorrow and 'live n local' is tonight.
Surviving is not the issue. Neither is the lack of sleep. It's the sanity, it's the condition of my health I am worried about.
~Listening to: Initial D soundtrack.
I need to find this goal. I need to find out what it is that's most important to me. I know someone who has taken the opportunity to defer and travel next year. *sigh* If only...
The only reason why I'm not deferring is because I want to finish what I started. If I leave it, you'll never see the end of it. I will never see my degree.
This is as sane as I get, because last night I was so delirious from writing god knows what on my essay. I think I started to philosophise and had to take out half the crap I wrote.
This morning I went to the library to start on my other essay in which ended with my coming back home because I just couldn't stay awake in that place. bus-ed back home to what is now. And I should be trying to finish that essay I started last night because it is due tomorrow and 'live n local' is tonight.
Surviving is not the issue. Neither is the lack of sleep. It's the sanity, it's the condition of my health I am worried about.
~Listening to: Initial D soundtrack.
-{ missing you 10/25/2006 12:28:00 pm }-