Wednesday, November 08, 2006
- Untitled -
I'm really desparate for a post. Titleless as this blog may be at this moment, I want to blog in-depthly, as it may be in my head. Most of what comes out onto the post is rubbish really, but as long as its here and not clustered in that small brain of mine.
Do you ever have that feeling where you think about doing something you absolutely would never think of doing? STOP, I know, I think too much. But something you personally wouldn't think of doing, and you have the urge of doing it? I have dreams. I dream about doing the things I want to do. And sometimes I think about trying some of these things but reality sets in to tell me that I would never possibly do it.
Kind of recently, I had done something that I would never 'dreamt' of doing. I did it because I knew I would never do it, and I would never have any other chance. I pondered the consequences yet was true to carry it out. But I carried it out in such an awkward way.
It's hard to open up on a blog where I want shit out of my head yet not broadcasted to the people reading. So I'll rant as far as I will.
As you can tell, I did something. To me it was major. Probably a 180 degree turning point in my life major. But I've quickly gotten over it which makes me think it was probably only an acute angle turning point. But the POINT is I did it. I did something I thought I'd never do in my whole entire life. I was going to go to my grave with it. But looks like it's out.
As far as I'm concerned, all I can do is crawl and hide. At the moment I'm pretty safe. I think.
Wat a stupid rant.
Do you ever have that feeling where you think about doing something you absolutely would never think of doing? STOP, I know, I think too much. But something you personally wouldn't think of doing, and you have the urge of doing it? I have dreams. I dream about doing the things I want to do. And sometimes I think about trying some of these things but reality sets in to tell me that I would never possibly do it.
Kind of recently, I had done something that I would never 'dreamt' of doing. I did it because I knew I would never do it, and I would never have any other chance. I pondered the consequences yet was true to carry it out. But I carried it out in such an awkward way.
It's hard to open up on a blog where I want shit out of my head yet not broadcasted to the people reading. So I'll rant as far as I will.
As you can tell, I did something. To me it was major. Probably a 180 degree turning point in my life major. But I've quickly gotten over it which makes me think it was probably only an acute angle turning point. But the POINT is I did it. I did something I thought I'd never do in my whole entire life. I was going to go to my grave with it. But looks like it's out.
As far as I'm concerned, all I can do is crawl and hide. At the moment I'm pretty safe. I think.
Wat a stupid rant.
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