Monday, January 29, 2007
- Empty -
I know I've already blogged but I feel like an empty blog tonight.
Tonight. That night. A monday night I'm sitting here thinking about the things that can't be helped. How fucked up things have become. And how I've changed. I think. For better or worse only you can tell me.
Someone told me once never say 'I'll never..' because you'll always be given the chance in which you'll take. How come some people can hold back and I cannot? How come people can say no and I say yes, whatever? So stoopid, so sui bian.
How sad to be listening to the Fray now. I told her, ' Yah lah, I'm ok', it's true right? I did not lie to her. I didn't lie. What happens when I sit at home doing nothing? That's why I should go out. Or work. But work makes me tired and want to stay home. And that cannot happen.
So tomorrow I'm going to try and get out. And find those shoes. I think they will make me happy. Hinder makes me happy.
I need a massive change in life. LIke MASSIVE.
Today mum scolded me. These days I don't bother with comebacks and just let her rant. She said it was best if I left home and found a place for myself so my mess doesn't clutter her house. I'm quite happy with the idea, because if I decide to move out I have her words to fall back on. I will move far far away...
A job, an apartment... anybody want to be my room-buddy? We'll get a cosy little place, cook for ourselves, depend on each other, party like there's no tomorrow and live life the way it should be lived.
+Come with me and take the journey+
Tonight. That night. A monday night I'm sitting here thinking about the things that can't be helped. How fucked up things have become. And how I've changed. I think. For better or worse only you can tell me.
Someone told me once never say 'I'll never..' because you'll always be given the chance in which you'll take. How come some people can hold back and I cannot? How come people can say no and I say yes, whatever? So stoopid, so sui bian.
How sad to be listening to the Fray now. I told her, ' Yah lah, I'm ok', it's true right? I did not lie to her. I didn't lie. What happens when I sit at home doing nothing? That's why I should go out. Or work. But work makes me tired and want to stay home. And that cannot happen.
So tomorrow I'm going to try and get out. And find those shoes. I think they will make me happy. Hinder makes me happy.
I need a massive change in life. LIke MASSIVE.
Today mum scolded me. These days I don't bother with comebacks and just let her rant. She said it was best if I left home and found a place for myself so my mess doesn't clutter her house. I'm quite happy with the idea, because if I decide to move out I have her words to fall back on. I will move far far away...
A job, an apartment... anybody want to be my room-buddy? We'll get a cosy little place, cook for ourselves, depend on each other, party like there's no tomorrow and live life the way it should be lived.
+Come with me and take the journey+
-{ missing you 1/29/2007 11:41:00 pm }-