Monday, April 16, 2007

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And its all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control

*giggles innocently*

Yeah, why should I change my blog and what I write on my blog for the sake of others? These days everyone is getting too self conscious. It's not healthy. But then in saying so, what is stopping me from ranting down another religion as opposed to my own because I think it has had a negative affect on someone I know? I can't. Because it's.. not right, to an extent. I guess it's my own beliefs. I don't think religion should play such an influential part in our lives. We play our own game and change our own lives. We control our past, our present and our future...

Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer

Today, daddy dearest told me not to drink anymore vodka. Mummy dearest told him that I bought smirnoff the other day for allied not knowing what it was, and he said that it's something girls shouldn't drink. He told me that it was strong and disgusting and a poor quality of alcohol.

I told daddy dearest that I knew the first two things, and if it would make him feel better, I shall upgrade quality for next time. Cognac anyone?

This is my first Cyanide and Happiness entry. Most of them are great. You know why this one is here.

The other night, while lying in bed, I felt a pang of insignificance. This retched feeling that I was so small and insignificant in this gigantic world that my existence was worthless. That I've done nothing good up till now. Why is it that I felt that way? I don't feel sad or anything of the sort. Just so smalllll..... whywhywhy?

And the answer to all your problems. Yes, I've changed. Into a sad alcoholic who does the whole lyrics thing on her blog. And who will follow in the path of falling down a dark path of stupidity until I'll have to cease blogging. I hope I never stop blogging. I hope I can use this to create a better future for myself. To create this mirror of wrongs for me to face and reflect on and hopefully to not reflect off. Someday, I will be able to tell the truth. And not be the hypocrite I am now calling people l i a r s. Which reminds me: