Saturday, June 09, 2007

Your Love Style is Ludus

You like to think of love as the ultimate game And you love to play... even if it means lying a little You're a bit afraid to be close, and you don't get too attached A serial dater, you tend to date a few people at once And it's all good, until one of your sweeties finds out!

A few people at once?!?! Who are we kidding here?!?!

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A toast to us: For getting to where we did, where we are. For breaking past all the ego, arrogance, stubbornness and immaturity displayed between us. I am truly happy to have taken that step because I almost threw in the towel. And thank god for the hesitation. Because the hesitation was there, I knew that throwing in the towel would mean losing someone like you. I knew it would've meant throwing away something important.

Maybe the problems still exists and maybe there will still be a tinge of sadness. But we're on our way towards recovery and we'll do it on our own. It's just you and me and nobody else. (Although I hope you don't mind me blogging this now =P)

I learnt an important lesson here; the lack of communication was the vital problem and in this case, ignoring the issue was not going to solve things. Pretending like it will go away was not the key. That was the mistake and we learnt our lesson the hard way. To everyone else, when you have somethhing important in your life, think about your actions and if it's worth losing, think HARD about how much you REALLY tried to fix things and think hard about the consequences.

I know we still have much to learn, understand and talk about, but I'm not worried anymore because we have all the time in the world to get it together.

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And who just got 50% of their exams over and done with (50% being one exam)????

THAT'S RIGHT. Yours truly. And did I FUCK. IT. UP. Let me just tell you what I did last night. Ahem. Starting from dinner - eat - talk to mum - study - download song *chaoxihuanni* - download another song *zenmeban* - eat - sit in front of the heater - study - eat - eat - turn on tv - turn on hana kimi - WATCH ONE EPI of hana kimi - eat - finish watching hana kimi - stare blankly at the empty piece of paper - walk to the computer - listen to downloaded songs - accidentally click on msn - chat a little - blog surf - visit h.e.r - got TEMPTED to blog but didn't - read everyone elses blog - chat - chat sumore - get off computer altogether - day dream about JIRO - GET SOME WORK DONE.

And then I rock up with no notes this morning. Like, there's no point really. If I don't know it, I don't know it. So, while falling asleep while writing the first essay, I felt really pointless sitting there in that exam room while everyone was scribbling away. And I mean scribbling AWAY. When I put my head on the table to get some 15 second shut-eye, I heard the other five or six pens on the table scratching furiously at their answer booklets. While I slowly and neatly printed my huge writing on the lines provided. And left 15 minutes early. You should have seen me! I sighed this huge breath of relief when I left and this girl walked passed me giving me a kind of 'yeah..' look. Um. Don't ask me how it looked. So that was my day so far, the rest of the day is gonna filled with mass HANA KIMI and JIRO LOVING.

While we are on the topic of JIRO, what was the point of him asking for his 'first kiss' back? That was totally stupid. People like that are stupid. WHy must he be stupid? It makes me love him less *cries*.

So tracking back to the past... week? I haven't blogged? Yeah as you can see, I'm making up for it big time. The last week of uni was the shittiest week of the year. Shit LIKE HELL. I hated it sosososososos much. Yep, that much. But it's far away now, so no need to dwell. Swot VAC (whatever the hell that means, it's study week for those who dunno) was on the other hand a fun, week. Not much study done but fun. But the whole day-at-uni thing took much of a toll on us as we stopped staying at Reid past 6 on Thursday onwards. It lasted 3 days... sigh. But what fun times! So much procrastination and so much love for water! I've never seen people so eager to refill their water bottles... our moments at dinner, at Utopia. Yes Utopia, we went. Be greatful we didn't end up at HS.

On a short note, I have a pop-up problem. This stupid pop-up keeps telling me to smash the pinyata. I'm so tempted to smash my computer but I know that's not a good idea. Speaking of which, how funny was the pinyata at Kath's bbq! I have video footage of Kath gone wild! LOL. oopz. Shouldn't have made the -GOne wild reference. err. umm. yeah....

Back to HS. I mean, studying. Well.. the studying bit ain't so interesting and I can't remember much more. Oh except the part where I was playing with Noelle's AWESOME laptop, scribbling away sweet nothings. I may upload that pic and all the other pics I'm supposed to upload a little later. I saw more of someone I could see less of in the Library. But really, who am I to have grudges. No more avoiding. No more 'tones' after his name.

Oh and there was steamboat with my EC buddies! Yumyumyum! TomYUM was the best. So I AM gonna arrange a steamboat after exams...it's ALL you can EAT STEAMboAT!!! You know who I'm referring to! everybody that is. Watch out for the email guys.

*yawn*

I was supposed to come home and sleep. But doesn't look the case. Or I could go sleep now. And not eat. But I am hungry.

I'm pretty sure - I'm VERY sure I left NOTHING out. So don't come to me telling me I didn't add this or that in. As LONG as this post was, it is full of generalities. Not a every second detail account of my life.

Oh I just found a card in my pocket... for Dino's .. Yeah. I went there sometime this week.

SICK OF ME YET? Bet chu r.

Btw, I never got to say ... I MISS YOUUUUUU

I miss you my dear blog, sorry for the abandonment, I was a little preoccupied. I'm back now and that's all that matters.

- JiRo love_ S2