Thursday, November 29, 2007
- the same shade of grey -
~ Fort Minor - Believe Me
I used to be a stupid little girl. Now I'm just a stupid big girl who thinks she's still a teenager. I waited so long for life to tell me who I was.. what my identity was. Until last year, I think I found the answer I was looking for.
I used to think the world was out to get me. Ever since I was little I thought this and I grew up with a pessimistic attitude. But I realised that I was playing the game wrong.
Having a pessistic attitude only meant I was giving up my roll of the dice to life. I wasn't playing at all.
So now I roll. I play. And I was winning. Well I thought I was winning. Games get boring. I forgot about the importance of winning and losing. It became a tedious cycle.
And now I've found something. And it's no longer a game to me. But why does it still look like a game? I don't want to play anymore, I don't want to think. I don't want to know what lays ahead or what laid behind. I want to live the present and not play the game. It's not a game anymore.
It's something better.
I used to be a stupid little girl. Now I'm just a stupid big girl who thinks she's still a teenager. I waited so long for life to tell me who I was.. what my identity was. Until last year, I think I found the answer I was looking for.
I used to think the world was out to get me. Ever since I was little I thought this and I grew up with a pessimistic attitude. But I realised that I was playing the game wrong.
Having a pessistic attitude only meant I was giving up my roll of the dice to life. I wasn't playing at all.
So now I roll. I play. And I was winning. Well I thought I was winning. Games get boring. I forgot about the importance of winning and losing. It became a tedious cycle.
And now I've found something. And it's no longer a game to me. But why does it still look like a game? I don't want to play anymore, I don't want to think. I don't want to know what lays ahead or what laid behind. I want to live the present and not play the game. It's not a game anymore.
It's something better.
-{ missing you 11/29/2007 02:37:00 pm }-