Monday, August 04, 2008
- those days are gone.. -
Those days are gone..
Life is now, pain is gone and perfection is tomorrow as the next day is the day we strive for perfection. Why do we always hold on to yesterday when it causes us pain?
But pain is what gets us through, we live for pain and we experience it to move on.
Birth, suffering, old age and death we must cross to enter into perfection. Yet, how is this supposed to be imposed onto the adolescent mind. The youth is naive and simple, and suffering never seems to be the solution, but the problem.
If unprepared for what pandora's box holds', the box should not be opened. When opened too early, just like the myth tells, all the the box' misfortunes escape, as for the youth, they are too much to handle. When realised what the box contains, it is finally closed and lost, along with hope, the future of the adolescent is scarred with cascading memories of pain.
I said to live through pain, but not live with pain. Pain will fall upon us, yes, but we do not have to create it upon ourselves.
The problem these days is that people are living with self-created pains.
I merely llive through the pains, and that is the difference between you and me.
(7 march 2006)
What happened to that girl who had wild fantasies of pain and such articulate writing. Ok maybe my head is a little big, that and maybe it's all air because it took me a while to understand what I wrote. Those days when I used to blog emo. Now I read the posts of those teenagers whose age I used to be, and how much fun they are having. How I envy their joy, their innocence. What happened to my joy and innocence?
Travelling independently is the best thing that ever happened to me. It opened my eyes up to a lot of what goes on around you. And it opens up the gates of confidence for you to explore. Making mistakes is what you hope to do, so you'll never do it again.
Actually I think I'm still a bit emo. I wish I knew how to write like I used to. I miss writing like that. My mind is so clouded with rot now, writing doesn't come as easy as it should anymore.
-{ missing you 8/04/2008 03:00:00 pm }-