Monday, September 01, 2008
- 对不起 -
Remember when you wrote the red pages? I've never understood anything so well before.
But I've understood it more than ever today. Today I read your words over and over to heal the wounds that were left in my heart from the night before.
I wish, instead of destroying the book, I could give it to you, as you wish to understand me better. But I realised this:
if the book is not destroyed, then there is no moving on. You will read my book over and over again and you will open those wounds again.
So I write this book in my heart, and discard it into the shallow depths of my mind, where it will be disintegrated with the creation of new and happier thoughts.
I am not going to lose you, because you will be the one to create these happier thoughts.
I will use this realm where we once started, where I read your red pages, to tell you
对不起.
520
But I've understood it more than ever today. Today I read your words over and over to heal the wounds that were left in my heart from the night before.
I wish, instead of destroying the book, I could give it to you, as you wish to understand me better. But I realised this:
if the book is not destroyed, then there is no moving on. You will read my book over and over again and you will open those wounds again.
So I write this book in my heart, and discard it into the shallow depths of my mind, where it will be disintegrated with the creation of new and happier thoughts.
I am not going to lose you, because you will be the one to create these happier thoughts.
I will use this realm where we once started, where I read your red pages, to tell you
对不起.
520
-{ missing you 9/01/2008 12:10:00 pm }-