Monday, September 15, 2008

- i sacrifice thee -

I sacrifice thee

I believe sacrifices involves major changes. When you look up the definition of the word 'sacrifice', what you see are the words LOSS - SURRENDER - DESTRUCTION - GIVING UP. Why must a sacrifice incur such negativity?

In my life, I've made many many painful sacrifices for my own selfish well-being. Selfish, well only I matter to myself. I've made sacrifices with trust, with blood, with friends, with fun, for fun, for harm, for senselessness, for something new. But sacrifices all for what? Are sacrifices supposed to make us happier? Does it make people understand us better? Does it bring people closer? It seems that sacrifices are made for the worse.

But there are some people not willing to sacrifice. Because they are content with the present and the way things are. They do not want to give more or take less. And whilst they do not sacrifice, they lose a bit of themselves, of their other half and inevitably make the sacrifice not to sacrifice.

Maybe they will recover from it. Maybe they wont. But I know I make sacrifices to create new beginnings and different paths to walk down, because at the end of every road is a dead end. And I don't want to end up there. I'm only hoping that I am still on a two-way road in which I can walk back again and visit you and how we once were because I will never forget that stretch of road we once took together.

But the road is under construction and I don't know when it will be ready for me to walk across again. The tar is still wet and setting. The signs are still up and the workmen are still directing me around it.

Please be ready for me soon, because I want to walk with you again.

My dear friend.
-{ missing you 9/15/2008 12:10:00 pm }-