Sunday, December 20, 2009
- 2009 reflections -
What a year! Reflections are of the essence at this time of month...
It's hard to feel the Christmas spirit as I get older. I remember when I was a kid and (as sad as it may seem) my Christmases were filled with watching Christmas movies on tv every night! Because my family doesn't celebrate Christmas, my only way to enjoy Christmas was to voyeur into these fictional worlds of happy Christmases.
Nowadays, tv doesn't really fill up my time.. so Christmas, is just another day off work for me. I've spent the last few Christmases overseas having awesome-ass celebrations, but I'm staying in Perth this summer.
Everyone else, however is making a move. Most of my friends have already gone, whilst the other half are waiting to leave next year. I can't help but to feel so left behind. I'm left behind to be responsible, to make sure I don't get up to trouble. To make sure I'm saving up my money to pay things off. Responsible sucks!
What a year. What have I learnt? I don't know mate. I can't believe I did a year of Tang's, even when I said it would only last me half year, tops. Well, it didn't turn out THAT bad. What I learned this year is that nothing is as bad as it seems. You tend to see things at a microscopic view, where you magnify everything 100 times fold. You do this because you think the world revolves around you. You think nobody understands what you're feeling. You think that the one who hurt you is a fuckin' cunt loser. You think the person who took it all away is a S-O-B. It's easy to lose a grip of things when you are angry/sad.
Once you stop thinking about yourself, then you realise what an asshole you have been. And then everything isn't as bad as it seems.
I don't think I'll be having NYE celebrations this year. They never resort to any good. Only lot's and lot's of naughty stuff.
I've learnt that a relationship is a bitch of a good thing. Relationships all come with a rollercoaster. A relationship is a theme park and you can't ever, have a theme park without a rollercoaster. You'll always love the carousel, because it plays nice music and you'll be forever smiling and enjoying yourself as you watch all these faces pass you by, all eager and envious to have their turn. And sometimes you get into the bumper cars, initially with good intentions. But after a bump and a smash things get a little messy full of revenge, anger, blame and all parties come out in tears.
But at the end of the day, who doesn't like theme parks? A bit of fairy floss and some side alley games will bring back the smiles and then everyone forgets the pain and anger from the silly bumper cars.
I learned that no matter how much we try to hate metros, we actually love it!
I have learnt that you can't try to bring back the past, it stays there for a reason. Did you know you aren't supposed to wind a watch backward? The hands of the clock are only meant to move clockwise, because you damage the cogs (or whatever is behind there) when it goes anti-clockwise. I wonder if that is true or some smartarse watch-maker was trying to tell us something?
Despite the hot weather, I still managed to write so much. H.E.R used to be my place, my release. It was my stories to tell because I'm not good enough to novelise them. Imagine, Lisa the author. Hehe. But somehow, she's slipped by in my life, and no stories are worth writing anymore. Many bloggers have threatened to shutdown their blogs with insufficient progress to post. But what's the point? How can you be so ready to let go of something you have built on so readily? Despite the lack of progress, it archives so much of your life when you were progressive.
Go back and read up on your past. Because there's no going back and nothing can hurt you now.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone. :)
It's hard to feel the Christmas spirit as I get older. I remember when I was a kid and (as sad as it may seem) my Christmases were filled with watching Christmas movies on tv every night! Because my family doesn't celebrate Christmas, my only way to enjoy Christmas was to voyeur into these fictional worlds of happy Christmases.
Nowadays, tv doesn't really fill up my time.. so Christmas, is just another day off work for me. I've spent the last few Christmases overseas having awesome-ass celebrations, but I'm staying in Perth this summer.
Everyone else, however is making a move. Most of my friends have already gone, whilst the other half are waiting to leave next year. I can't help but to feel so left behind. I'm left behind to be responsible, to make sure I don't get up to trouble. To make sure I'm saving up my money to pay things off. Responsible sucks!
What a year. What have I learnt? I don't know mate. I can't believe I did a year of Tang's, even when I said it would only last me half year, tops. Well, it didn't turn out THAT bad. What I learned this year is that nothing is as bad as it seems. You tend to see things at a microscopic view, where you magnify everything 100 times fold. You do this because you think the world revolves around you. You think nobody understands what you're feeling. You think that the one who hurt you is a fuckin' cunt loser. You think the person who took it all away is a S-O-B. It's easy to lose a grip of things when you are angry/sad.
Once you stop thinking about yourself, then you realise what an asshole you have been. And then everything isn't as bad as it seems.
I don't think I'll be having NYE celebrations this year. They never resort to any good. Only lot's and lot's of naughty stuff.
I've learnt that a relationship is a bitch of a good thing. Relationships all come with a rollercoaster. A relationship is a theme park and you can't ever, have a theme park without a rollercoaster. You'll always love the carousel, because it plays nice music and you'll be forever smiling and enjoying yourself as you watch all these faces pass you by, all eager and envious to have their turn. And sometimes you get into the bumper cars, initially with good intentions. But after a bump and a smash things get a little messy full of revenge, anger, blame and all parties come out in tears.
But at the end of the day, who doesn't like theme parks? A bit of fairy floss and some side alley games will bring back the smiles and then everyone forgets the pain and anger from the silly bumper cars.
I learned that no matter how much we try to hate metros, we actually love it!
I have learnt that you can't try to bring back the past, it stays there for a reason. Did you know you aren't supposed to wind a watch backward? The hands of the clock are only meant to move clockwise, because you damage the cogs (or whatever is behind there) when it goes anti-clockwise. I wonder if that is true or some smartarse watch-maker was trying to tell us something?
Despite the hot weather, I still managed to write so much. H.E.R used to be my place, my release. It was my stories to tell because I'm not good enough to novelise them. Imagine, Lisa the author. Hehe. But somehow, she's slipped by in my life, and no stories are worth writing anymore. Many bloggers have threatened to shutdown their blogs with insufficient progress to post. But what's the point? How can you be so ready to let go of something you have built on so readily? Despite the lack of progress, it archives so much of your life when you were progressive.
Go back and read up on your past. Because there's no going back and nothing can hurt you now.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone. :)
-{ missing you 12/20/2009 12:57:00 pm }-