Monday, May 24, 2010
- Again and again - 2PM -
Everything seems to be whirling into deju vu. But at the same time the situations and outcomes are all different. Some of it involve me and some of it doesn't.
It's making life crazy scary and I'm doing things that I know I shouldn't but... just makes life easier. Should I give up my job because somebody shits me? It's not like I love the place. I love my salary, that's what it is. Never will I ever earn this much in my life, I feel. No true qualification or intellect or gift of any sort...
Sometimes, I feel like playing mother. I want to look out for loved ones, make sure they're doing the right thing. And to set peace amongst us all. But it's not always my place. I shouldn't always try to be the good guy because I always just turn bad. Get emo. Start shouting at the wrong people.
It's not fair how easy some things can be but we just make it complicated, for fuck sakes.
I'm sick of this 'I'm so old' crap. It's bullshit and you're bullshit.
Bumping into what used to be good company is meant to be a good thing. But it has just reminded me of what fucktards some people can be. Fuck you, fuck ev erything. Now is not a good place to be, now is not a good time to talk to me. Actually don't talk to me, period.
Decided to be a bitch so fucking deal with it.
It's making life crazy scary and I'm doing things that I know I shouldn't but... just makes life easier. Should I give up my job because somebody shits me? It's not like I love the place. I love my salary, that's what it is. Never will I ever earn this much in my life, I feel. No true qualification or intellect or gift of any sort...
Sometimes, I feel like playing mother. I want to look out for loved ones, make sure they're doing the right thing. And to set peace amongst us all. But it's not always my place. I shouldn't always try to be the good guy because I always just turn bad. Get emo. Start shouting at the wrong people.
It's not fair how easy some things can be but we just make it complicated, for fuck sakes.
I'm sick of this 'I'm so old' crap. It's bullshit and you're bullshit.
Bumping into what used to be good company is meant to be a good thing. But it has just reminded me of what fucktards some people can be. Fuck you, fuck ev erything. Now is not a good place to be, now is not a good time to talk to me. Actually don't talk to me, period.
Decided to be a bitch so fucking deal with it.
-{ missing you 5/24/2010 12:06:00 am }-