Sunday, May 09, 2010
- May Day -
Happy Mother's Day ><
I was supposed to blog earlier, with photo's but by the time I got around to taking the pictures off the Vivaz, I'd already decided CBB.
When we always talk about being bitches and being disliked by mainstream society, I think we never really took it all too seriously as to how it would feel if we were to be hated.
Cos it sure isn't a Whatever-attitude. Especially when dealing with it on a 5 day a week basis... it cramps the working style and makings everything seem frustrating to deal with. And I sometimes think about what I did wrong, yes, I may have been wrong, but the underlying reasons for this situation don't add up and I'm not the culprit. So much for laying low because I have done exactly that and landed myself in this situation. I just have to accept the fact that I'm suey. So I've made it to be with my friends more because it is them who I would rather be around more - the people who I look forward to seeing after a hard day's work, the people who care. So I need to get over this and accept that there's some things you can't change and I'm not ready to clarify the issues, because as far as I'm concerned, this colleague wouldn't be my friend in a chance.
This little situation helped me to start looking for jobs, since June isn't too far away.. and I'm not so certain there's a permanent position for me where I'm at now... who knew contracting sucked so much.
On a more spontaneous note, Noelle and I booked tickets to Melbourne. It really wasn't spontaneous since we were just trying to suss out the right time to purchase tickets, but now it's done and hopefully it will all go smoothly..
So another week ahead, life goes on, trying to find the light - which is Friday, the end to the week.
L
I was supposed to blog earlier, with photo's but by the time I got around to taking the pictures off the Vivaz, I'd already decided CBB.
When we always talk about being bitches and being disliked by mainstream society, I think we never really took it all too seriously as to how it would feel if we were to be hated.
Cos it sure isn't a Whatever-attitude. Especially when dealing with it on a 5 day a week basis... it cramps the working style and makings everything seem frustrating to deal with. And I sometimes think about what I did wrong, yes, I may have been wrong, but the underlying reasons for this situation don't add up and I'm not the culprit. So much for laying low because I have done exactly that and landed myself in this situation. I just have to accept the fact that I'm suey. So I've made it to be with my friends more because it is them who I would rather be around more - the people who I look forward to seeing after a hard day's work, the people who care. So I need to get over this and accept that there's some things you can't change and I'm not ready to clarify the issues, because as far as I'm concerned, this colleague wouldn't be my friend in a chance.
This little situation helped me to start looking for jobs, since June isn't too far away.. and I'm not so certain there's a permanent position for me where I'm at now... who knew contracting sucked so much.
On a more spontaneous note, Noelle and I booked tickets to Melbourne. It really wasn't spontaneous since we were just trying to suss out the right time to purchase tickets, but now it's done and hopefully it will all go smoothly..
So another week ahead, life goes on, trying to find the light - which is Friday, the end to the week.
L
-{ missing you 5/09/2010 10:48:00 pm }-