Thursday, March 08, 2007
- Remi'nce h-s c -
Fuck! I just spent so much time going through my fucking archives to find for you guys this old post of mine. It was mainly about high-school crushes. A blog post written in the days where I was almost articulate and less emo.
But lets go back to that post and this whole high-school crush ordeal. Everyone must have experienced this right? And like, how much did we wish for something more to happen, or for him or her to talk to us? And make like every little single thing count. Wasn't it fun? To have your heart skip when he/she walks by, looks at you, talks to you. But really, nothing will come of it. You'll always just be standing from afar, admiring them and dreaming you were with them.
And then there is growing up. Getting involved in real relationships. Getting hurt in the relationships. Falling in love, falling out of love, falling for their best friend, getting your heart broken and all that jiz. It's the 'getting your heart broken' that strikes my discussion. Once you're broken, what happens to everything? Putting all that you had on the line of love, in desparate hope that you can show him/her that you're dedicated and devoted. So you don't come across as a closed window that doesn't want to trust their partner at the risk of getting hurt. So you put in all that you've got. And then you just lose it all. And you've got nothing but a bottomless pit of sorrows.
So I was thinking. High-school crushes. They do a lot for you in terms of protection. I mean, if you are going to put your heart out and get hurt, it seems so much the safer choice to love from a distance. Sometimes. I mean, I can see the many flaws in my argument and everybody can feel free to drop an opinion or two. But I guess, I miss those high-school crushes. Being that little excited girl saying, 'Look! I'm gonna get that necklace with the first letter of his name on it and wear it like it belongs to him..' hehehe, you get the picture.
This was the post I was gonna write before I fell asleep. Now I've done it. I feel accomplished. Amazing what blogging does to me, especially when no progress has been made on the academic side of things. :)
Stay happy everyone, and keep me happy. Z
But lets go back to that post and this whole high-school crush ordeal. Everyone must have experienced this right? And like, how much did we wish for something more to happen, or for him or her to talk to us? And make like every little single thing count. Wasn't it fun? To have your heart skip when he/she walks by, looks at you, talks to you. But really, nothing will come of it. You'll always just be standing from afar, admiring them and dreaming you were with them.
And then there is growing up. Getting involved in real relationships. Getting hurt in the relationships. Falling in love, falling out of love, falling for their best friend, getting your heart broken and all that jiz. It's the 'getting your heart broken' that strikes my discussion. Once you're broken, what happens to everything? Putting all that you had on the line of love, in desparate hope that you can show him/her that you're dedicated and devoted. So you don't come across as a closed window that doesn't want to trust their partner at the risk of getting hurt. So you put in all that you've got. And then you just lose it all. And you've got nothing but a bottomless pit of sorrows.
So I was thinking. High-school crushes. They do a lot for you in terms of protection. I mean, if you are going to put your heart out and get hurt, it seems so much the safer choice to love from a distance. Sometimes. I mean, I can see the many flaws in my argument and everybody can feel free to drop an opinion or two. But I guess, I miss those high-school crushes. Being that little excited girl saying, 'Look! I'm gonna get that necklace with the first letter of his name on it and wear it like it belongs to him..' hehehe, you get the picture.
This was the post I was gonna write before I fell asleep. Now I've done it. I feel accomplished. Amazing what blogging does to me, especially when no progress has been made on the academic side of things. :)
Stay happy everyone, and keep me happy. Z
-{ missing you 3/08/2007 12:10:00 am }-